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Kitty needs help. Ooops I meant Cassi. Though maybe I should change my mun name here to Kitty. The name seem to stick. Okay, not the purpose of this post at all.

The thing is this. I am in a constant state of I don’t know, and I figured I would make a poll to help me. My health has some to do with it, but let’s face it – me not knowing what to do and keep changing my mind does too. I’m sorry that. I got this idea after seeing Mira do it. I just made this blog, but I’m already at the point of wanting to adding more muses. Though I’m not sure how I should go about it. 

I have thought about making multiple blogs, but at this point I feel like people might get sick of me. So I now ask for help. 

So please help me out by clicking here and voting 

#Cassi in dream land (OOC)

[breathless-darkness]

Kitty needs help. Ooops I meant Cassi. Though maybe I should change my mun name here to Kitty. The name seem to stick. Okay, not the purpose of this post at all.

The thing is this. I am in a constant state of I don’t know, and I figured I would make a poll to help me. My health has some to do with it, but let’s face it – me not knowing what to do and keep changing my mind does too. I’m sorry that. I got this idea after seeing Mira do it. I just made this blog, but I’m already at the point of wanting to adding more muses. Though I’m not sure how I should go about it. 

I have thought about making multiple blogs, but at this point I feel like people might get sick of me. So I now ask for help. 

So please help me out by clicking here and voting 

#Cassi in dream land (OOC)

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Kitty needs help. Ooops I meant Cassi. Though maybe I should change my mun name here to Kitty. The name seem to stick. Okay, not the purpose of this post at all.

The thing is this. I am in a constant state of I don’t know, and I figured I would make a poll to help me. My health has some to do with it, but let’s face it – me not knowing what to do and keep changing my mind does too. I’m sorry that. I got this idea after seeing Mira do it. I just made this blog, but I’m already at the point of wanting to adding more muses. Though I’m not sure how I should go about it. 

I have thought about making multiple blogs, but at this point I feel like people might get sick of me. So I now ask for help. 

So please help me out by clicking here and voting 

#Cassi in dream land (OOC)

[breathless-darkness]

Kitty needs help. Ooops I meant Cassi. Though maybe I should change my mun name here to Kitty. The name seem to stick. Okay, not the purpose of this post at all.

The thing is this. I am in a constant state of I don’t know, and I figured I would make a poll to help me. My health has some to do with it, but let’s face it – me not knowing what to do and keep changing my mind does too. I’m sorry that. I got this idea after seeing Mira do it. I just made this blog, but I’m already at the point of wanting to adding more muses. Though I’m not sure how I should go about it. 

I have thought about making multiple blogs, but at this point I feel like people might get sick of me. So I now ask for help. 

So please help me out by clicking here and voting 

#Cassi in dream land (OOC)

[breathless-darkness]

Kitty needs help. Ooops I meant Cassi. Though maybe I should change my mun name here to Kitty. The name seem to stick. Okay, not the purpose of this post at all.

The thing is this. I am in a constant state of I don’t know, and I figured I would make a poll to help me. My health has some to do with it, but let’s face it – me not knowing what to do and keep changing my mind does too. I’m sorry that. I got this idea after seeing Mira do it. I just made this blog, but I’m already at the point of wanting to adding more muses. Though I’m not sure how I should go about it. 

I have thought about making multiple blogs, but at this point I feel like people might get sick of me. So I now ask for help. 

So please help me out by clicking here and voting 

#I'll probably be posting this a few more times #Please help #Cassi in dream land (OOC)

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Kitty needs help. Ooops I meant Cassi. Though maybe I should change my mun name here to Kitty. The name seem to stick. Okay, not the purpose of this post at all.

The thing is this. I am in a constant state of I don’t know, and I figured I would make a poll to help me. My health has some to do with it, but let’s face it – me not knowing what to do and keep changing my mind does too. I’m sorry that. I got this idea after seeing Mira do it. I just made this blog, but I’m already at the point of wanting to adding more muses. Though I’m not sure how I should go about it. 

I have thought about making multiple blogs, but at this point I feel like people might get sick of me. So I now ask for help. 

So please help me out by clicking here and voting 

#Unsteady Heathens #Help me #Cassi in dream land (OOC) #This is where I am

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Blog Migration

So I’m back! It took a while, health and well life wasn’t kind to me. Though all that matters is that I finally have finished the new blog. I felt like I needed to move for my sanity. Things will be a little different from now on. This blog will ONLY have eight muses on it. All of them are BSD related except for Saruhiko Fushimi. This blog was made for my most active muses. Now, I will be making other blogs to keep things organized. 

Muses that will show up on the other blog: Dazai/ Shuji, Zane, Chuuya, Fyodor, Yuan, Yosano, Fushimi, and Arahabaki 

Find me at Unsteady Heathens 

Q & A below

Keep reading

#Unsteadyheathens #repost #Should really change the post but oh well

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Blog Migration

So I’m back! It took a while, health and well life wasn’t kind to me. Though all that matters is that I finally have finished the new blog. I felt like I needed to move for my sanity. Things will be a little different from now on. This blog will ONLY have eight muses on it. All of them are BSD related except for Saruhiko Fushimi. This blog was made for my most active muses. Now, I will be making other blogs to keep things organized. 

Muses that will show up on the other blog: Dazai/ Shuji, Zane, Chuuya, Fyodor, Yuan, Yosano, Fushimi, and Arahabaki 

Find me at Unsteady Heathens 

Q & A below

Keep reading

#reposting #unsteadyheathens

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Blog Migration

So I’m back! It took a while, health and well life wasn’t kind to me. Though all that matters is that I finally have finished the new blog. I felt like I needed to move for my sanity. Things will be a little different from now on. This blog will ONLY have eight muses on it. All of them are BSD related except for Saruhiko Fushimi. This blog was made for my most active muses. Now, I will be making other blogs to keep things organized. 

Muses that will show up on the other blog: Dazai/ Shuji, Zane, Chuuya, Fyodor, Yuan, Yosano, Fushimi, and Arahabaki 

Find me at Unsteady Heathens 

Q & A below

Keep reading

#Reposting #Unsteadyheathens #Blog

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Blog Migration

So I’m back! It took a while, health and well life wasn’t kind to me. Though all that matters is that I finally have finished the new blog. I felt like I needed to move for my sanity. Things will be a little different from now on. This blog will ONLY have eight muses on it. All of them are BSD related except for Saruhiko Fushimi. This blog was made for my most active muses. Now, I will be making other blogs to keep things organized. 

Muses that will show up on the other blog: Dazai/ Shuji, Zane, Chuuya, Fyodor, Yuan, Yosano, Fushimi, and Arahabaki 

Find me at Unsteady Heathens 

Q & A below

Will I be continuing threads from this blog? 

Yes I will. Even if the muse isn’t one of the eight, certain muses will still be stalking the shadows of that blog. This will only apply to my BSD muses. 

What about asks? 

I have them saved in a Google Doc. Most of them are just Mira, and she knows my course of action. Though the course of action is well a big ol maybe. Dazai has always been my main baby, and of course most of the asks are geared towards him--- so it really depends. The best thing to do is ask me in general. I will be posting memes on my other blog, but I will not get myself in a pickle like I did here. 

How will things be different?

I will be changing things so they are more selective. This is actually where I got in trouble with this blog. I tried to spread myself too thin. Then my mental health took a BIG hit and I ended up disappearing from Tumblr and hiding on Discord.  

What other blogs do you attend to make?

I plan on making a blog dedicated to all of the Hunting Dogs. I’m not quite sure of this one, but I deeply blame the manga for this. I will also be making one focused solely on my Fruits Basket muses. Also joining the party will be SinoAlice and Bungou to Alchemist. 

I originally made a multi muse to make it easier, but my mind is weird. This is of course subject to change since I haven’t even planned anything out. We will see how things go and of course interest level as well. 

#Blog Move #Tell me all about it (PSA) #Unsteadyheathens

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So, yeah I’m here. Though at the same time, well I’m not. I have a project or rather some projects that I’m currently working on. First and foremost, I am going to condensing and revamping my blog. To do this I will be making a new one. Yes, I’m sorry, it is another new one. Thank ya for everyone who has been patient enough to deal with my ass. I needed this break that began back in July maybe June, purely because I felt so mentally and physically exhausted.

So I’m not 100% or anything. Though with tons of time to think, I did figure out some things. I can’t go without writing. I promised some people discord servers with continuation of our threads—- yeah for the most part that didn’t work out. So as I work on my blog that will become my home, I will posting some random things here.

First and foremost to my rp partners now, I will not force anyone to keep or start anew. This choice is completely up to ya. I do have everything saved however should we wish to bring anything old over to the new blog. This does include asks as well.

This new blog is gonna be done a tad differently than this one. I realized that trying to keep all my muses on one blog was probably a BAD idea. So I will have grouping of blogs. The one I’m working on is mainly for BSD. I will be a little more selective on there, purely for my sanity.

#tell me all about it (psa) #Cassi In dreamland (Ooc)

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kaibacorpbros​:

Kaiba didn’t exactly know how to phrase it better, so he left it at that. Still, this guy didn’t exactly look like an average joe so hopefully, he’d have something useful to say.

Ahh, there it was. The thing that seemed to be the different thing that would happen today. Brown eyes looked at the blue eyed stranger that had just approached him. A civilian, normal-- not exactly common. He couldn't place what the man did or whom he might be. Someone passing by it seemed, though Yokohama was full of people who just happened to be passing by. The city brought by lots of business, and he wondered if the man would be friend or foe to him.

Though could it be a trap? "I suppose I could tell ya about this place. Depends on what exactly ya want to know~" His eyes showed nothing , his voice even and unchanging. He was trying to see who this man was. He didn't give his name, it might be proper custom normally--- but he wouldn't have done it if he was normal. He was a mafia executive, his name was important information that could be used against him.

How many people did he currently have on his kill count? Not like anyone could or would take him in. Ango would probably protect him, due to them being friends and all back in that time so long ago. "I'm not exactly a welcome center, but I suppose I could help. First what type of business brings ya to Yokohama?" Depending on how the man answered would mark him as friend or foe. 

#It's a mad world (Dazai Osamu) #Verse 2: There is a part of me that I try to hide (Mafia) #We're slow dancing in a burning room (Queue) #kaibacorpbros

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Updates on my health below and what I plan to do with writing 

So my health is a piece of shit. My body hates me. It feels like life itself hates me--- especially this week. Monday I was excited and going “oh I can finally begin to write again here”. Life seemed to laugh in my face for that. 

Depression hit. Anxiety hit. Pain hit. Stress hit. 

My flesh prison continues to pain me. I have gone to multiple doctors to find out what is wrong with me. It is just joyous. I still don’t have a full diagnosis , but at least some of my pain got explained for me. Though there is still a massive bit that isn’t fully explained and won’t be for some time still. 

It hurts to be up and about right now. My left ankle keeps going out from time to time. My right arm keeps having a numbness and I can’t rise it too much and sometimes lose my grip on things easily. Which of course makes me and writing not work sometimes. 

I’m slow. I want to write, but with the pain sometimes it is easier said than anything. My back constantly is in a state of pain-- which means when I comes home from work (yes I am still working), it is hard to stay on my laptop sometimes. So I end up going to my phone. When I can reply on mobile, I typically end up getting a strong sense of ADHD hitting me. 

This week has just been hard and hell for me. It begun with my cat dying. Which of course brought my mental health down. Add in gaining a health problem (to my evergrowing list). Then my grandma is deciding to act up (I’m the person having to take care of her--- basically alone--. So my stress level is high. 

Then the state of the world is also adding to my stress levels. 

I need a new body, I swear. 

I will still be on Tumblr. I will be trying-- but my queue is about to run out. I’ll most likely end up focusing on my asks over the replies I owe. I might alternate --- it really just depends on what I’m feeling. 

I’m moving some stuff over to my discord, as discord is becoming easier for me to stay on and type than Tumblr is. My mental state and my pain is honestly so very fun.

So if anyone would like my discord, just im me. Any questions , just im me. 

Some things I would prefer to switch over to discord.. Some I would prefer to keep here on tumblr. 

I’m here, I’m slow but I’m trying. 

#Cassi in dreamland (Ooc) #Tell me all about it (PSA) #tw: mental health #tw: negative #tw: death mention #tw: pain

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la-bella-arcana​:

“I’m sure you’ll love my cookies! I hope you don’t have any other plans for the rest of the day? I’ll feed you a jar!” 

Dazai was always one who observed and could make a stradgey quickly, his mind worked quite different than others. He noticed the way her smile faltered, almost as if she was questioning and forgot to smile as she did so. It haad happened so quickly, but he caught it. It had hapened because he touched her. At times he depised his ability, but he would never voice such thoughts. He kept things to himself, it was easier that way. Not like anyone would be able to understand him if he did voice those thoughts out loud.

No Longer Human was a passive ability that allowed him to nullify any single ability once he touched the person. He didn't have to know the type of the ability, simply it just happened as it was always active. It came in handy, but Dazai didn't like the pain nor the fact that he had been abused because his ability hadn't been like the rest of his family. Kazuya was the closest to having something similar and even he had something much more useful than No Longer Human.

So she had an ability. He did have to wonder what it could be. Though he didn't let her catch him in a moment of thought. His mind never stopped working, always going --- it was scary when it wasn't like that. Watching her as she held the kitten to her chest and motioned for him to follow her inside. He did so easily enough, a soft chuckle leaving his lips.

"Is that so? No, I can't say I have any plans really." Except technically he did, but it wasn't like he didn't always brush things off for other plans he found. Anyone should know never to leave him unmonitored if they wanted anything truly taken care of in a set amount of time. His brown eyes looked around the place. "So this is the kitty's place? It's such a nice place ya have. Seems like heaven almost." 

#It's a mad world (Dazai Osamu) #Verse 1: I’ll be good (Canon) #We're slow dancing in a burning room (Queue) #la bella arcana #la-bella-arcana

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#It's a mad world (Dazai Osamu) #I got a reason to fight (Chuuya Nakahara)

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ahamartia​:

Kuroh pulled the recording device from his pocket. It was tempting to hear what Master Ichigen would suggest. His words were always inspirational and provided good direction. He pressed the button.

“Open your heart to surprise, and you may find something familiar.”

Kuroh’s brow furrowed. For once unsure of the meaning behind the proverb.

Brown eyes caught a glimpse of the flash above the sky. When to the untrained eye it might seem like perhaps a bird or something rather than a lone man searching for something. Oh, so it was fated for them to meet each other again. He had just been wondering what Kuroh had been up to and here he was being able to run into his old 'friend' again. A soft hum left the swordsman's lips as he continued to stroll. More so, what was Kuroh looking for? How interesting, it was as Nagari had spoke of the game soon to begin.

He could use Kuroh. It would be so wonderful to have the other on the side of true beauty, he could open his eyes. He could hear the voice of his old Master as he got closer. His hum has calmed down. "Something familiar, still listening to our old Master's words~" A soft smirk of a smile upon his lips as he shifted to go closer to Kuroh. He had landed perching on the place and simply approached the other.

"Seems like you have lost something. Beauty is always there for those willing to open their hearts and their eyes. It is ,I suppose, refreshing to hear his words once more." He couldn't help himself as he produced a rose. "Will you open your heart, Kuroh." He held the rose out as if it was a offering.  Nagari would benefit from Kuroh being on the side of JUNGLE. This was his mission of beauty and only he would be able to do it. Though first he must play a bit of catch up. 

#Cause you're a dangerous beauty (Yukari Mishakuji) #We're slow dancing in a burning room (Queue) #ahamartia

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madamhatter

Timeline, 13, Shuji

Timelines Status: Accepting (I want more of these)

13. The timeline in which instead of the most influential person in their life, they had a person who had the complete opposite effect on them.

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Now, this is a little complicated. Though it is complicated in a rather interesting way. The most influential person in Shuji's canon is technically Miran Lee (frozcnlight). Miran is the girl that Shuji would eventually meet and open up with. She is like his light to the ever going darkness. She puts up with his slightly different nature. It is slightly different due to the way the 'canon' verse for him branches off in the way it does. Shuji is Dazai --- so we have that canon route. Or we have his 'canon' route in which he doesn’t become Dazai Osamu and instead stays Shuji Tsushima. So this is where the complication gets interesting~

Since Dazai is being listed as his own muse aside from Shuji, I won't go into detail there. Seeing as canon with him can mean so many different things. His canon influential person varies upon the person I am musing him with. Seeing as not many people give Shuji a chance, I simply stick with Miran being his influencial person. So on to the prompt.

Shuji would be a vastly differently person. Miran would be his sunshine, the completely opposite is if his father was able to poison his mind and make him into a model son. He is the youngest, nothing can be changed about that. He isn't Katsumi or any of his elder siblings, but Shuji losing that spark that makes him well him and instead being heavily influenced by his father would turn out into a vastly corrupted version of Shuji. When he heavily depends on masks prior , not really understanding humans and why they act the way they do--- he originally fights all the norms that are expected of him. He would rather be a clown and be free thus being frowned upon than to conform.

In this timeline however, Shuji is a model son. When he doesn't have the same type of abilities as his family, and instead a passive one--- he does whatever he can to make up for it. The abuse stops and he continues to train hard. He pretends to grieve when his father dies, but this only makes the brunette wish to continue to improve himself. He no longer has his father nor his mother to seek approval from. He takes it upon himself to grow stronger. His relationship with his sibling is better, and he also is never disowned (which is a huge part of how Shuji becomes Dazai.)

When he doesn't know true happiness and he is rather corrupted, he does make a name for himself. He would eventually rise to power. Katsumi would still be the family head (as he is the eldest) but Shuji would seek to gain power in other ways. He would most likely get himself into his father's illegal shares in the underground and most likely find himself in a branch type of mafia. Perhaps he might find himself to Port Mafia here even, but he wouldn't so easily follow Mori's orders. If anything he would only do so to improve his power and rise up, gain Mori's trust and then murder him in cold blood (much like what Mori did to past boss.)

Shuji would not be lazy at all. He would hardworking and always wish to improve more and continue to work and work. He wouldn't stop most likely. He holds no morals exactly, though he would know how a 'decent' human has face. His masks would continue to be a huge part for him. He would most likely have plenty of enemies, but wouldn't care. He would be a master manipulate / public speaker. Perhaps he would even wish to run for a public office (to continue his rise of power.)  

Timeline summary: Corrupted and power hungry 

#Wake me up inside (Shuji Tsushima) #Ride upon a shooting star (Asks) #We're slow dancing in a burning room (Queue) #tw: murder #madamhatter