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coming down off robo while walking in the woods with my dad was such an experience tbh

#nova cannot stfu for her life #cw drugs #ig?

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GOOOOOOOGD morning/evening/night its monday tmrw for me !!! due to demand of literally nobody but my own dam self here iss more panic & malaise :DD

#me and who #gore posting

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istg do my parents just like not have cough medicine in the house or something

#nova cannot stfu for her life

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hi everyone i wanna kill myself :3

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cluster b x cluster b goes hard

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my latest gamedev idea is "guy on the corner of the screen who gives you personalized tips when you die". original idea do not steal

#lily's well did something similar #there was no guy tho

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stim

Change a single letter and change the word game

I want to play a game with you all.

You have to make a new word by changing only one letter of the last word.

Dirt

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remembering that normal people don't even think about cvtting themselves and that I defy the sane survival instinct of all creatures

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I was just beaten, stabbed, and shot all in just the matter of a few days, each day a different incident or attack by an individual in my family and outside of my family by ppl around me, I had to get several stitches in my legs, arms, hands and even some in my face after being jumped and beaten and stabbed, I had a bullet pulled out my leg and my side, I was shot 8 times, 4 times in the legs and 2 times in my right lower abdomen and another 2 times in my left lower abdomen, I been in and out of the hospital including the mental hospital for suicide attempts as well as being harmed by transphobic ppl, I've been struggling paying for costs of a vet visit after my kitten was killed by my moms dog after she had her dog kill her, I've been raped, molested and abused by my family and ppl in my schools and neighborhood and I just get tired of being in this same situation surrounded by poverty, I live in a neighborhood where I'm constantly threatened for being a black trans woman and I have NO ONE TO TURN TO, I've tried getting help finding a new job but it's harder after constantly being fired for molestation at work and sexual harassment and constant work abuse I've been thru whether it was employees or managers targeting me with harassment and bullying within the workplace and it's been hard in general trying to get help with financial situations, paying for medical bills and get med assistance from the government and the city as well as mental health help for therapists, psychiatric help, and safe space havens or shelters, I've also been from mental health facility shelter to homeless shelters and been harassed, abused, raped and molested in EVERY SINGLE ONE, i am currently living in a rundown home surrounded by poverty and bad conditions, rusted bursted pipes, i have no plumbing, no water, no way to get anything to drink, to clean stuff with, i dont have water for dishes to be cleaned, laundry to be washed, or to bathe or shower in or to take a piss or shit in either and there are several dead cats in my basement as well as raccoons from all the holes in the walls, I had to freeze in the winter and was trying to get help from the city with some government assistance and I'VE YET TO GET ANY HELP, ANY THERAPISTS FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH I'M STILL ON A QUEUE, I HAVE NO HELP FOR MENTAL HEALTH MEDS, OR PSYCHIATRIC HELP, I can't seem to afford to get help with much even after succeeding my Gofundme goal because I had to use most of that money for food for me and my cats and keep cleaning products to get my home clean WHICH IS STILL A MESS. so what i need anyone to do for me if yall POSSIBLY CAN, is reblog this as much as you can and please share my links to donation help with pet food, water, meds, med help, mental health help, finding an apartment, getting a bed or mattress, and any daily needs and necessities IF YALL CAN.

My goal is to get at least $2500 to $3000, I know it's alot but rn I need as much as I can possibly get, yall can send anything, nothing is too small it's ALL APPRECIATED. IF PPL CAN SEND AT LEAST 25 OR 30$ EACH IT WOULD HELP OUT SO MUCH, BUT AGAIN ANY AMOUNT IS APPRECIATED. THIS is REALLY IMPORTANT!!....I'M TRYING MY BEST TO SURVIVE RIGHT NOW!

Cashapp: $Slasherstan91

Venmo: Negrophiliac (I know the name's wild 😭)

Chime: $MarsRayL

Paypal: paypal.me/MarsRayL

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!!!

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convincing myself not to make bad decisions is hard

#nova cannot stfu for her life

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nvm i ended up on a vc and were listening to a minecraft shitpost song

i need to be bleeding out right now

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i need to be bleeding out right now

#tw sui thoughts #i want to cvt #i wanna cvt #988blr #made of styro #sewer slide #self mutalition

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reading like gorey fanfic is so weird cause its like my boy hit vital organs

#nova cannot stfu for her life #think i’ll use that as my op tag

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HPD culture is spam reblogging to your blog since it makes you get more notes

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we have fucking introjects of old friends i still know i feel so fucking gross for that

#got that c did swag #system vent

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need my bf to end up liking all the depraved fucked up shit i do PLEASE