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"Everything is a performance. Sometimes you need to rehearse your grief so that you come out of it alive. Sometimes you need someone to show you that you can."

—K-Ming Chang, "Meals for Mourners"

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"What can I say, that will enable you to understand the depth of my sorrow?"

- Mary Shelly, from Complete Works; "Frankenstein," (@uaravsh )

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“You can justify anything if you do it poetically enough.”

— M.L. Rio, If We Were Villains

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Man Ray Marchesa Luisa Casati . 1935

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Emma Cline, The Girls

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"Around 1am that night, he texts me. I think you'd make a beautiful trans man. Have you ever thought about transitioning? I start laughing when I get his text. It's late and I've been procrastinating sleeping, so I'm a little loopy, and once I start laughing, I can't stop. The question feels so patronizing: as if I've never thought about gender and how I choose to present myself, how I dress, how I stand, how I crop my hair short, and what this means. As if I've never thought about what it would be like to live as a man instead, the relief that would come from passing, with not having to face the everyday violence and humiliations of living in my body. As if I've never thought about how I don't want that, how every cell in my body recoils at that thought of being a man, and yet how harrowing it is that the only way I can get out of my bed and make it through the day is by wearing masculinity on my body. As if I've never held dear my feminist rage, never thought about how I feel so politically aligned with womanhood and yet hate inhabiting it, hate it when my body is read as such. As if the only way to be trans is to transition to a binary gender, as if I can't exist as I have been, in some space in between or beyond, using she or they pronouns and seething when people call me a woman and laughing when people tell me I should transition."

–Lamya H., Hijab Butch Blues

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"She felt a lot like Nabokov, actually, who famously said he wrote a book with no other purpose than to get rid of it." - Dykette, Jenny Fran Davis

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“Don’t cry, I’m sorry to have deceived you so much, but that’s how life is.”

— Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita

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Grief is different. Grief has no distance. Grief comes in waves, paroxysms, sudden apprehensions that weaken the knees and blind the eyes and obliterate the dailiness of life.

-Joan Didion, The Year of Magical Thinking.

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"The tears that heal are also the tears that scald and scourge."

— Stephen King, The Shining

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“Hardly anybody ever finds out that their actions really, actually, hurt other people! People don’t get better, they just get smarter. When you get smarter you don’t stop pulling the wings off flies, you just think of better reasons for doing it.”

— ‘Carrie’ by Stephen King

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"When does a war end? When can I say your name and have it mean only your name and not what you left behind?"

- Ocean Vuong, On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous

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‘I was born when she kissed me. I died when she left me. I lived a few weeks while she loved me.’ IN A LONELY PLACE (1950, dir. Nicholas Ray)

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Certain people were born with the internet inside them and suffered greatly from it. Thom Yorke was one of them,

no one is talking about this p54

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Joan Didion, 'Where the Kissing Never Stops', in Slouching Towards Bethlehem

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#the idiot

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“It can be really exasperating to look back at your past. What’s the matter with you? I want to ask her, my younger self, shaking her shoulder. If I did that, she would probably cry. Maybe I would cry, too.”

— Elif Batuman, The Idiot