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Interesting in the game all the places has it's temple(ofc cuz every Sonic game has a lot to do with temples and all), every culture has it own temple, temples are a type of sacred/spiritual place and it's a place where people usually go when they are feeling lost and seek guideness, now gaia gate song makes more sense to me, i always found this song melancholic, i remember me kid feeling different when lurking at the temples because of that song, this song is melancholic, but still seem to have a little of a light with it, this song resemble well this feeling of wondering, feeling lost/down and trying to find light(cuz still has light).

#reflection #sonic unleashed #Urgh i don't know if i express as well as I said It💢 #I don't want to seem too deep cuz the game seems to deliver it's message in a such simple way I hope this make Sense #This all will make more sense if marina do her text talking about unleashed #It's has to do with the temples and spiritual but i don't mean seek divine light of someone or something else its a light within ourselves #I don't know if makes Sense💦

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the darkness at the night is the insecurity it has on people's heart, interesting notice that seem only the adults characters get strange at night, the kids don't seem to change, because kids don't have insecurities, they didn't experienced much the world to feel or let themselves get consumed by them

#reflection #sonic unleashed #Hmnn i will notice that when i get back to normal and have a time to play the game(ngl i still feeling a little grief still💦) #Not implying that kids doesn't feel insecurity or darkness the thing is that they don't hide/keep that

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Now i will start my essays(this, i will write on english), but not really, funny, I imagined I would have a lot of things to say about unleashed, about the scenes, the characters and all, but i actually don't have much to say about it, I didn't Focus on study much the game like use to, I just revived/played, I wouldn't even say revived, i just appreciated the game💧🌸

#reflection #But i have some little thoughts to share

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é,..., eu ainda choro com o final do sonic unleashed, sim!💦, esse jogo mexe comigo de um jeito diferente, parece que a gente fica meio de luto quando termina ele, ugh, eu sinto que eu tô basicamente revivendo o dia que a gente terminou criança(não foi tão ruim doque quando criança 💦), mas é triste, ele não é que nem os outros, ele só acabou, não é que nem os outros que depois o jogo ainda tem coisa pra fazer e você só continua jogando e parece que tem continuidade, é difícil continuar jogando depois que você termina, me pegou muito a cena do chip na lava/indo embora e a endless possibilities(parece que eu me emocionei com o mesmo trecho de quando criança), quando eu faço/jogo eu não penso, mas quando eu penso eu me lembro, eu me lembro de gostando TANTO desse jogo, eu me lembro de como era, de como a criança se sentia vendo/jogando, eu ficava tão emergida no jogo,..., era tão fantasioso, ingênuo, tão "delusional"💧até💦, esse jogo mexe comigo, me deixa melancólica, mas foi diferente doque eu imaginei/imaginava, (risadinha), dá vontade de jogar de novo e reviver tudo de novo, sentir que o chip não foi embora e que a aventura ainda não acabou💧, mas não é a mesma coisa, esse jogo é uma experiência única,......, pensar que demoramos tanto tempo pra jogar ele de novo, só jogamos duas vezes a primeira(criança 6 anos) e essa(adulta 20 anos)

#reflection #eu odeio que eu tenho que me controlar pra não soluçar💦 #eu acho que até que eu me recordo de bastante coisa #as fases de noite da adabat mexe bastante comigo me lembro de vendo e jogando elas #me deixa feliz saber que ainda me emociono com ele #Eu não queria terminar o dia dormindo depois de terminar o jogo que nem quando(eu me lembro que foi tão ruin💦) mas eu tô com sono #Eu tô basicamente revivendo o dia #.....Palavras não conseguem descrever o quão esse jogo mexe com a gente #Eu estou impressionada com o nosso save antigo Platinum💦(okay não conseguimos S em algumas fases do werehog💦mas a gente conseguiu os boss!? #Não parece impossível mas nossa tem que ter muita paciência e dedicação pra conseguir S em quase todas as fases #A gameplay Platinum foi uma fase engraçada a gente já era um pouco maior e dunada a gente decidiu zerar o jogo #Eu me lembro do dia que eu consegui S na eggmaland(bom agora nós vamos tentar zerar ele de fato✨ugh como a criança conseguiu tudo isso?! #Eu estou admirada! que isso sirva de inspiração para mim/nós mesma de alguma forma

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ai, ai, eu tenho medo de jogar o unleashed💦, eu tenho dois moods, eu tenho medo de jogar e ser muito normal/não sentir nada(tipo, esse é o jogo da minha/nossa vida!?) ou eu tenho medo de sentir muita coisa(eu me lembro do dia que a gente terminou o jogo, nós tão pequenas, a gente chorando pra caramba,..., foi um pouco traumático não vou mentir💦, eu me lembro de sentir um vazio), esse jogo é muito especial pra nós

#reflection #mas eu acho que vai ser especial #Vamos ver se eu vou chorar a cada 5 segundos💦 #Agora só falta ele #*Update* até que eu não chorei muito no inicio eu joguei normal mas né o início é normal mesmo ... #Eu quase desmoronei foi na cena da adabat(o jeito que o chip descreve como ele se sente sobre o planeta...... mexe comigo #Eu me lembro de achar essa cena melancólica criança mas eu não chorava nem nada...hoje em dia eu choro😑 #......e o final/créditos(esse eu chorei pra caramba💧) #Foi diferente doque eu sempre imaginei #Tem um pouco essa coisa da nostalgia mas parece que eu fico emocionada com esse jogo por outro motivo/algo a mais

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now the fight is very fierce 8- 4, woman 8 points, and the man 4 points, almost every day Marina is getting a golden stamp in sifu, at this rate maybe we will get it all very easily in 1 year, go woman, go, don't let this man win (ha-ha, i already choosing teams😅)

come on, everybody wins these pro player things using this man, this man wins too much, we want the woman to Win too, not because we are women(soy mujer)winning with the woman, but because we really like her❤️and we want her to win!

#about s1fu #i talk as if they fight own it own😂 it's us that makes them win✨ #Mostly Marina😭i lost my pro player skills(need to train more) #I loved the idea marina give(who wins gets a photo with the lion mask✨)

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i wish mom could watch us playing sifu, I think would be funny see her crushing on the woman😂

#reflection #about s1fu #But nowadays mom has a serious problem of focus she just can't sit still and watch something for minimun 5 minutes!? #But who knows I can dream i think it can happen one day☝️ I think would be funny #I can cleary visualize her seeing the cutscenes with the w0man and be like ;poor her💔 or she is so cute🌸; #And of course is a way for us to show off😂i love to show off our pro player skills

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mom with the woman:😍😍😍"ai que boneco bonito"🥰🥰🥰❤️❤️❤️😘

mom with the man:🙄🙄🙄"he is okay"😐😐😐😶😶😶😑😑

#reflection #about s1fu #Tem algo engraçado entre o homão gostosão e a mulher homenzinho a mamãe gostou mais da mulher homenzinho😂 #I think if we had played first with the m4n instead of the w0man i think she wouldn't react like that with him😂

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do you think the story with our mother and the woman has ended, nuh-uh, still has more("vou te mandar mais, tá ligado"), when mom gone in the day we thought "aww, what a shame, now that mom knows that the woman is a woman, i think she won't like her in that way anymore😅😅, i think she will love the man tho", "love the man" my ass😂, we had said to her that it has a male in fact character, she said that we could show to her one day

one day we were playing with the man, mom was passing by, we were like "hey mom, here it is the male character we talked about", she just looked and said "he is cute too", ha-ha, she praised him, but it was so more normal compared to the woman😂, was like "he is Nice, but i think the guyish woman is better/cutier", we both got surprised cuz we were like "why do i feel mom continues liking the woman😂she didn't give much attetion to the man", and i don't think she likes in the normal way, nope, i think she got a crush on her indeed😂she thinks the woman is more attractive than the man(~so do I/we)

#reflection #about s1fu #Funny curiosity on the day of that homemade video i made of marina playing(the senpai woman video)... #Our mother AGAIN thought the woman was a man😂but this time she didn't thought she was a man she thought she was the m4n... #She asked confused “weren't HE old before?”(I think she got confused cuz sometimes she see we playing with the man or the woman... #And sometimes they are old sometimes young She thought we were playing with the m4n this time💦... #and as always when you're playing you only see their backs and the woman was using a covered clothe more difficult to guess which one is #We explained to her the talisman mechanic but shame that we didn't get to told her that we were playing with the woman actually... #I think she would laugh so hard! Cuz AGAIN she got tricked by the w0man(sometimes is difficult to make this woman listen and stay still😑💢) #Ha-ha I love that the w0man makes mom sooooo confuse #Sometimes i also wrong guess the m4n and the w0man i see their back and be like ;its the m4n; then... #no it's actually the w0man!? And vice-versa #I don't know why we thought she would like the m4n based on the way she adored the w0man/guy in her view😂 of course she enjoys her more

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Happy birthday Daniel

#lis2 discussion #Yeah i need to write that in every year #My pretty bratty❤️ #Unfortunally april is going to be a very agitated month(not really tbh💦) but has too much to focus on college💦i need to do things fast #We passed the whole beggining of this month doing those two projects(i still can't believe we got It in time💦) #Well I may not feel very creative in art but i can say that i'm creative person in fact cuz i manage to find solutions very fast #Wish i could do/done it something for you💔

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sometimes I feel dumb, ashamed of myself, but i need to remind myself, that this dumbness it's what makes me realize things about myself, and makes me grow and also that i can always change, my past self is not what defines me, what matters is me from now

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me and my paranoid episodes, I'm nervous now because in this right moment I feeling like I'm not managing to draw in the way that I draw (my style), I'm having difficulty drawing my head style and some mouth expressions, and for some reason I was changing the order that I draw things💢, I was drawing the eyes and then the head!, being that I draw the eyes, then the mouth!, and then the head (the mouth is essential to be draw before the head in my style), this makes me nervous/crazy, I get scared, "what if I I'm training so much other styles and I end up forgetting how to draw mine!!", "if i am forgetting my style?", I don't know, i not drawing much human characters in my style these days(cuz these years I not forcing myself to draw much sean and daniel💦), THAT MAKES ME NERVOUS AND SCARED, but i think i just overreacting, i remember that in 2020 had days that i felt the same way and was having the same exactly difficulty(i think in every year i always have a day that i feel i not managing to draw my style out nowhere), so i shouldn't worry much about that, i think i just tired, probably this has to do with stress, it's normal, you already had that, this doesn't prove anything, you still have your skills, you probably just tired for now/today, you will come back to normal, ana

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College sysmtem is broken, how am I supposed to practice if i have to do everything in a rush?

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i didn't did much justice to this day on the text I refer to it, so i will talk about it again, but more detailed, today the day is sunny and this makes me more in the mode to talk about it, we'll never shut up about this day, ha-ha, the day our mom crushing on the woman/thought she was a dude!😂(Aka the day sifu and Pikmin 4 arrived), that day was perfect, was more funny and cool than i described

The day was very sunny, Me and marina(more specifically Marina, she was the one playing)had already finished the opening, marina was just exploring the house with the woman(since we were just testing the game), then out nowhere our mother just pass by and glance at the TV and says "ouch, ~what a attractive doll🌸"(in english it doesn't express correctly cuz the word doll is neutral, but she said "ai, ~que boneco bonito🌸" and in portuguese has the word "boneco"(masculine of doll) and "boneca"(feminine of doll), and she used the "boneco"(that implyed that she thought... it was a male character😂), she said with such adoration😂, she thought the woman was a guy😂, me and marina looked at each other, like, "it's real, that mom said the woman is "attractive"!", "and she think she is a dude!", we started to laugh and say "it's a girl/woman😂", then mom came back like "why you two laughing?", marina say it is a woman, mom looked a little confused and marina said "look, i will show you", it was only showing the woman's back then marina was flipping the camera until shows her face, then mom said surprised "IT HAS LITTLE BREASTS!?", and she started to laugh very loudly, she even falled a little to the sofa, she laughed a lot!, her face was getting red, while marina start jockeling saying that the woman it's a trap😂, "she's a trap", and mom "yes, yes, she sure is", then mom tried to justify herself saying that she saw the face, but she glanced too fast, so she thought it was a guy, but then she said "but she is beautiful indeed🌸", marina putted on the character menu so mom could see the woman more cleary and she says "wow, she seem fierce/bit angry😂"("ela parece bravinha😂"), cuz they stay with a angry face in this menu, i got shocked cuz we always sensed the woman has a aggressive vibe, that she is a bit angry, but always thought that maybe i only see that because she look like Daniel, but mom also sensed that on her too!!

Here comes the moment that we love, mom stayed a little quiet, focusing on the woman and she says "she is a bit different, right"("ela é meio diferente, né"), i respond "yeeah, she is masculine!", mom says a little hyped "yes, yes, that's the word!, she is a masculine woman", yeeess❤️❤️❤️, we loved that she noticed that too, given that the woman only uses a tank top, which is a very neutral clothe, it doesn't mean anything, but here's the thing the woman transboard masculinity/guyishness, is on her way, is on her aura, the best part is.... that mom Just LOVED that of her!!!, she thought it was cool, mostly mom didn't enjoyed much when had a girl character that looked like some men🤔(but i think the woman hitted her different, cuz she is also cute🌸or maybe she just changed, I personally think the woman hitted her different😂), mom picked the art book, she flipped a little bit, she saw the page that show the concerpt art of the main characters, and she point out that in the image she seemed more feminine, then we say that we liked her more on the game/3d model, then mom responds "me too, I also think she is more pretty in the game"("é, eu também acho, também acho ela mais bonita no jogo"), ahhhhh💕, i don't remember how it get on that💦, but the conversation had ended with mom saying that the woman looked like a angry cute boy🌸("ela parece um rapaz bravinho e fofo"), loved that description😂(~resonates very well with daniel too), ha-ha, that day was Crazy, i think mom liked the woman

#reflection #about s1fu #Mom was just spitting facts after facts our jaws dropped

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#It's Impossible for me not to smile/laugh with this opening😂 #It's such a comedy scene the amigo part #He falling(plays gangster paradise)then the scene does a little suspense cuz something saves him but it didn't show up yet(its visually ... #Obvious that's Sonic)Ha-ha dude almost died playing tennis😂(amigo gave his life for the ball/the game) #I love the moment that shows sonic with amigo and you can see amigo is blushing like he's little flattered because sonic saved him😂 #*hmnn boioi*🏳️‍🌈(hum boiola meme) #reflection #Sonic just killed Eggman😂

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its funny how it seems things doesn't seem to mean much to the creators as it mean to us(the enjoyers)

#It's funny but i tottaly get it #To the creators things seems more a good seller deal and to us is our little joy #reflection #Just rambling thoughts

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nuh-uh😤, i don't think so now💢, I think they do die!, cuz it doesn't make any sense they weren't with the talisman in the moment and has nothing that says/proves that this yang revive dead people, okay, he revived the bird, but IT WAS A BIRD(and i sometimes question our characters sanity, sometimes i feel they imagine/see things), it says he has a miracle medicine, but i personally see this so called "miracle" more like a mental/cof trauma pain cleanse than revival Power, and first of all.........THEY WANTED TO DIE!, okay, that's what they wanted to, it has two moments in this frickin wude that proves that, I know the symbols/the gestures☝️, they close their eyes, this shows acceptance, they are accepting their "fate", they died at that night, they want to die in this wude, probably the game may can do the idea of they living to show more this forgiven/move on bullshit😒, but they dying still has this "forgiven bullshit"(i refuse to imagine that they forgive those bitches) the idea is that they accept what happened and the way things are now, which this include even their existence in this time(cuz they should have died), i still hate it, for me it's messed up, just seems like they are neglecting their feelings, anyway, they wanted to die, everything on the scene screams DEAD to me now, and imagining this yang reviving our characters just make this dude more bitch than he already is, our characters let him kill them(they wanted to die!, they were already kinda dead, the third phase for me is just a second chance of them trying to take this yang to the grave with them), revive them for what?, for them to live forever with the shame that they just couldn't do it, seems very shady of this dude to me, the ending model being them, well, in the arenas this yang base model is basically the m4n, and the old man is also the M4n, it can be the same thing, i know those indie game thing, sometimes they reuse characters models(specially the main characters ones cuz are the most detailed ones, has more rigs), idk, whatever the idea is, for me our characters died end of the story😤, their talisman is the only trace of their existence, period.

yeah people, now is confirmed, the sifu at the credit scene is our main characters!, if you play this wude ending using a different clothe, they will appear in the scene using this exactly clothe, so THEY LIVE🎊🎉(still don't like this wude tho)

#Let them die at least they die in peace(it's a fake peace but let them believe it) #It has something about this post credit scene that makes me anxious(if you pretend that its them) they seem anxious... #It seems like they are looking at this talisman and remembering everything but it has a bitterness on it....i don't like It😑 #about s1fu #I try to bear with my past self cuz in the beggining i just testing things out and then i see more... #More more and i get another interpretations notice another things and then i envolve my views and opinions #That's embarrasing💦 like i always changing all the time 😅and then i look some of my old things and be like NOPE!😑 #Change is good change is part of my nature i think😑💦 #~for me they kill all this bitches do the arenas and become badass vigiliants(they don't do the forgive bullshit nor the master bullshit) #What!? Did you hear something #They died people #For me they died #Phew finally said that this old text of mine was kinda bugging me