If my eyes were blue and not brown
I wonder if you could see
That it seems to hard to raise my chin to be
Parallel with the ground
Every day is a step closer for you…further for me
Into a world where you won’t ever be
I’ve known it was coming…we all have that date
To report and pass on from this world and face
Heaven or hell, reincarnation, or something else
Whatever it is I hope for…
A woman becomes a reflection of how you treat her
Madrid, Spain - 11/27/11
Oswegatchie River in Wanakena, NY, Adirondacks
the cracks in my heart is filled with kerosene,
it burns when i found a perfect match
there was a lighter that emptied its fuel
to keep my fire from burning inside;
a heat source i know will never last
made a permanent sacrifice
for my temporary life
as i turn my heel
to my wandering spirit
stay, stay, stay
M | 386
Visual: If I Stay (2014) dir. R. J. Cutler
Cambridge, Massachusetts - 2/24/21
At the same time, I was aware of this irritation.
As they said,
“ The level of bad feeling reflects how far I am distant from the truth/true self ”
So I started to analyze which untrue belief I held which no longer serve me. I have two findings:
1. I would be less offended if he had said
“ You are not good at washing dishes” instead of
“ The pot is not clean ( you didn’t not clean it thoroughly) ”
=> Then I realized it is my hidden ego speaking, it grabs “I am superior than those make living by washing dishes.” as identity.
which is not true, no one is superior than me, neither am I superior than others.
2. The root cause is —
I somehow linked “pot is not clean” to “I am defected by not able to (even) clean the dishes”
If this statement does not yet look ridiculous to you, try to imagine the people you love using this to judge themselves.
You heard people say “Don’t be too hard for yourself”
You might think, “i didn’t set too high standard for myself”
You might not aim for the star,
But aiming for be perfect of all your act 24/7.
That’s why critics feel so intolerable.
Quick Thought – Friday, February 26, 2021
And Peter said to Jesus, “Lord, it is good that we are here. If you wish, I will make three tents here, one for you and one for Moses and one for Elijah.”
George Orwell was one of the most insightful writers of his generation – or of any other generation, for that matter. (Actually, Orwell was a pen name – his given name was Eric Blair.)
I don’t have to love this world. And I don’t need to be happy at all times. All I need really is the love for God and full trust in him. That is sufficent for me.
Today I learned:
The difference between Passion and Lust
Passion- The more you do it, the more satisfied you are. There is a sense of satisfaction and you feel more dignified.
Lust- The more you do it, the more unsatisfied you are. It creates emptiness. It is the poor substitute of reality.
Pastor Leo Panlilo of Destiny Chuch PH
Funny how I slowly lose the people I want for my life in my attempt to keep them all. Maybe it’s true, you can’t have everything. Maybe it’s true, you gotta lose some to keep some. Or maybe human beings are just selfish and egoistic.
Life is a sea of opportunities. You just have to learn how to fish 🎣