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they used to make smackable technology. you used to be able to hit your tv when it didn't work good.

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Reblog with your score

#5/100 #one of which i didn't actually finish #gamer fail

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there should be more hours between 6 and 10pm. like even just two more hours. for my assorted hobbies & activities

#i rb this when i already have the whole day to myself pretty much every day #the days should be longer in general smh

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Hey btw, here's a piece of life advice:

If you know what you'd have to do to solve a problem, but you just don't want to do it, your main problem isn't the problem itself. Your problem is figuring out how to get yourself to do the solution.

If your problem is not eating enough vegetables, the problem you should be solving is "how do I make vegetables stop being yucky". If your problem is not getting enough exercise, the problem you should be solving is "how do I make exercise stop sucking ass". You're not supposed to just be doing things that are awful and suck all the time forever, you're supposed to figure out how to make it stop being so awful all the time.

I used to hate wearing sunscreen because it's sticky and slimy and disgusting and it feels bad and it smells bad, so I neglected to wear it even if I needed to. Then I found one that isn't like that, and doesn't smell and feel gross. Problem solved.

There is no correct way to live that's just supposed to suck and feel bad all the time. You're allowed to figure out how to make it not suck so bad.

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fucking love saying "tough crowd" or "is this thing on" after telling a joke and not getting a response. or "i still need to workshop that one". you fools. even when you completely ignore my jokes you're only helping me set up more jokes. it's open mic night at the hotel california

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man I wish people understood how much it sucks ass to be neurodivergent and trying to find the middle ground where people like/tolerate you. like, I'm either "boring" (trying to wait my turn in conversations, holding space for other people, taking a back seat to let others get some spotlight) or "too much" (too loud/talking too much, getting excited to share, trying to participate in group conversations/activities). No one really talks about how much of being neurodivergent is just sort of trying to make yourself palatable.

I feel like so much of my life has been spent trying to find this effortless sort of middle ground everyone else seems to automatically already know, and I'm always swinging too far one way or the other. I'm lucky to have neurodivergent friends who grok me, but goddamn I wish that I could just like, exist without the constant background script in my brain that's like "you're being too loud. You're not talking enough. you're being self-centered. you're being boring. you're wrong, you're wrong, you're wrong." I feel like I'm back in high school trying to make friends but stuck as the eternal "weird kid"

it's just... lonely and sucks bad.

#probably not neurodivergent but damn mood #could just be me being too self-conscious of my complete lack of social skills #since no one actively contributes towards me feeling that way #so far #aside from me #although that could be bc most people i interact with are neurodivergent and just don't mind as much bc of that #or are too nice to show it

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#end roll

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You're not embarassing. Not every mistake you make is embarassing, not everything you said was embarassing, you're fine. You're just overthinking / self loathing. No one cares.

#maybe someday i'll be convinced sob

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genuinely sorry for the people who tried to talk to me and were disappointed by how uncool i am

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Crazy how quickly playing the lyre made me better at fingering

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miku expo 2024 is the dashcon of vocaloid concerts. the projectors were replaced with LEDs and organizers told no one, still charged ppl for the projectors. someone stole the Miku canada cut out. vocaloid producers are really mad that attendees are mad that they got scammed because nothing comes before Product. the event banned glowsticks and upcharged the sale of their own, under the excuse that average glowsticks would interfere with the projectors, that the organizers knew they did not have. someone pissed on the floor. car crash outside the venue in san jose

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hey boss i can't come in today it's a sunny day and there's a lovely breeze coming in through my window, yeah it's rustling the branches of the tree outside that's finally bloomed so it's pretty serious

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Sometimes I talk a lot and sometimes I don’t talk at all and somehow both are embarrassing

#hello #this

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Would you like to find out what you would be the god of? Take my new uqiz to find out

#the urge to be other #vibes pretty well imo #died over some of the media questions i hardly watch live action movies sob

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If I ask nicely will people reblog this and tell me what their most common breakfast is? Not your favorite necessarily, just what you have for breakfast most frequently? 🙏🏽

#BAGEL #with cream cheese #i specifically leave them to cool off until they're mostly cold before putting it on so they taste extra good #otherwise a peanut butter banana clif bar #but usually a bagel nowadays