Vine compilations on YouTube are the absolute pinnacle of millennial humor. The nostalgic compendium of their peers in an industry that they watched rise, fall, and burn in such a short period of their lifetime is parallel to the rapid technological advancements and obsolescence observed within the last two decades. Furthermore, the titles given to each video allude to the solidarity of depression, existential-crisis, and comfort they have sought from the internet. In this essay, I will
hey y'all it’s been a hot minute since I used tumblr wow
so a little life update I guess? if any of my internet friends are interested
long story short I fell off the wagon at the start of this year and drank a lot for the wrong reasons and messed up a lot of good things that were happening in my life. (also let me add that drinking while on medication is STUPID and please please please don’t do it it’s STUPID and I was STUPID)
so i’ve been working on getting my shit together and improving myself
it’s been hard and i’ve had to deal with jokes from family and friends calling me an alcoholic which sucks a lot and hurts butttt what can ya do ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
but yeah! i’m working on being a better person for myself and the people around me
right now i’m at 20 days without being drunk which is the longest I’ve gone this year! wow!
i’ve had friends try to get my to go to therapy (which I appreciate!!) but i’m not ready to yet so for the time being I’m doing an online therapy thing through my school as well as journaling
in a month and a half i’m moving into an apartment for the summer, then after that a new apartment with some friends
I also have plans to go get tattoo #5 the day before my birthday! i’m getting “I will be chasing a starlight” on my left arm. it’s a lyric i’ve wanted for a while, but right now it feels very symbolic with the things i’m dealing with in my life.
i’m still having not good days here and there but since I decided to sober up and stop being dumb i’ve had a really positive outlook on life and i’m hopeful and feeling like i’m back on track
maybe soon i’ll be able to start fixing the things I messed up while I was feeling really low