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When all I think about is how I will kill myself and the next time I’m able to cut 😕

#self h@rm #self h rm #selfharrrm #sh tumblr #$elf h4rm #$h tumblr #tw sucidal ideation #passive suicidality #suicide #cvtting addict #self mutalition #cvtaddict #self destruction

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Being clean is so hard, Sh is all I think about

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“communication is key” i say, as i ghost all the people i care about because i cannot express my feelings due to trauma

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Just a silly little girl with silly little thoughts of suicide

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🐰: Is it just me or do you also just randomly get an idea of cvtting yourself and you get really exited so you just go and do it and then you feel absolutely euphoric

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how can my feelings go from “i wanna die” to “im actually okay!” all within 10 mins ..

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I need to cut myslef rn

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all I wanna do is make the pain go away

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girl the only penetration im getting is a needle to my frontal lobe

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i have that feeling in my arms. i need to destroy them. i need to cut as deep as i can

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i find it really funny how i sl1ce my skin open with no emotion/reaction but when i get a tiny little paper cvt on my finger i start tearing up

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sh looks like ..

cutting

burning

hitting yourself

but it also looks like ..

unsafe sex

drug abuse

alcohol abuse

unsafe driving

starting arguments

accepting abuse

purposely isolating

self deprecation

and more.

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sh culture is wanting to go deeper but being too scared to

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:3

#self h@rm #shblrr #sh tumblr #$h tumblr #self h rm

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i hate that instead of feeling sympathy when seeing someone elses scars

im just jealous, like i dont cut good enoughh

n theirs look perfect but mine dont

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I feel like I'm not ill enough to tell anyone, i try to make my condition worse just to say that I'm sick enough, but that's not true

it's pathetic that when I look at people who ended up in hospital due to starvation or severe wounds from sh, I think im not even trying to get to this point

god i hate myself so much

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“don’t trust any negative thoughts you have past 9 pm” girlies when they have negative thoughts before 9 pm