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TOMORROW IS THE 4-YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF HIM DOING IT TO US

National Holiday

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Hey

So, I’ve finally decided to restart my blog- my new one is @melliiser

This blog and many others have been... messy, I want to start fresh

#its time

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“listening to gay memes with dj bae..”

#pls

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Can you draw some dinolemon

can i

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>:3!!!!

hey- i love you

i love you too uwu!!!

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To any people that think they might be aro/ace or on the aro/ace spectrum let me tell you something.

The moment I first realized I was asexual I was 14 years old. I was alone in my grandparent’s computer room and I read the definition online and immediately knew I was asexual. I did not have a moment of clarity or happiness. I cried. I literally fell off of the grey computer chair and had to suppress my sobs as I leaned over on the floor and pulled at my hair. It felt like I had just been given a death sentence. A guarantee that I was a freak and not something anybody could love.

Over the next year I tried to fix myself. I did things that I will not go into, but know that I inflicted trauma on myself. I hurt myself both physically and emotionally. More than once I wished I was any sexual orientation other than asexual. As problematic as that might have been, it was something I wished for. I felt like freak. I felt like there was something fundamentally wrong with me. I seriously considered entering myself into a sexual relationship to see if that would “help”. The very idea of it made me want to throw up.

Don’t do what I did. Do not. Do not hurt yourself. Do not put yourself in any situation that you’re uncomfortable with. If you’re not proud of being ace/aro yet that is fine. It is fine. You can get there. You can. I am 20 now and I love being asexual because it is fundamentally a part of me that is not something to be “fixed”. If you turn out to be ace or aro, Then you turn out to be ace or aro. If you don’t, then you don’t. And that’s nothing to be ashamed of. Whatever you are you are not something to be fixed.

I tell you this because I feel like I almost never see that side of an “asexual/aromantic awakening” as it were. Everyone else seems to have had their aha moment and been so happy. Finally felt a sense of community. It took me way too long to get there. If you weren’t relieved when you found out you were asexual/aromantic you are okay. You are going to be okay. You have a place in this community and you are going to be okay. You are lovable and worthy of belonging. If it takes you time to accept yourself that is okay. Just be careful. You are not something to be fixed. You are complete and whole just as you are.

Allosexual/alloromantic people can reblog. Exclusionists and aphobes do not interact.

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Candy Gore

Crushed • Poisoned

Melted • Snapped

#its so goo d #but then again i feel bad for them #not sparkling tho #he can jump off a cliff

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*inhales deeply* *screams*

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we don’t do requests but i like the mental image of this one

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me being put on the electric chair for my crimes

#is this sal

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No porn on tumblr we describe our nudes in detail instead

#no