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Ladder scene! 🦌💕💖🪜

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You and I, we don’t wanna be like them … … We can make it till the end

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Hannigram in prison. I just love the parallel of clothing and cells in the show.

Plus with masks:

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Jennifer Gennari

Bunny Cuddles, 2018

Oil on panel

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do you ever just cry because two fictional characters just need to smoosh their hands together

because i do

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Yours by 叫大湿不要叫阿秃

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“The worst part about anything that’s self destructive is that it’s so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive.”

— Lacey L. (via lazypacific)

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black sails nine nine

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—Richard Siken

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~The “yeah I’d do that” eyebrow.~

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Hannibal + Red (3/??)

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I agree, and I actually think there’s “truth” in the other aspects of each of the stories as well. Or, that is, there is some truth that Garak believes that he is trying to impart to Bashir with each of them. While the specifics of each may or may not have happened, the point of each of them, I think, is “true”, at least from Garak’s perspective in those moments. So, putting aside whatever details are involved, the crux of each of the stories is:

1) “I have done terrible, unforgiveable things. I do not deserve to be saved. 

2) “I am too weak to endure this. You should give up on me.”

3) Now this ones a little complicated, and probably open to multiple interpretations. Personally, based on certain cues in the performance, I believe that Garak actually intended to tell Bashir the “full truth” behind his exile here, but chickens out at the last minute. (In fact, my personal view of Garak is that he not only lies and is good at lying, but it’s actually hard for him to be completely honest, which is why he is rarely if ever emotionally honest and literally honest at the same time--it’s usually one or the other). But anyway, I think this last story ends up actually being meant to communicate how much Bashir and his friendship means to Garak. He calls “Elim” his friend, and ends up saying that what he regrets, what makes him “deserve” his exile is that he tried to betray his friend. So, I think this is Garak telling Bashir that friendship is important to him, that his friendship is important to him, and then quite literally asking Bashir’s forgiveness--not necessarily only for what he did as an Obsidian Order agent, but also for the lies and deception and way he’s been pushing Bashir away all episode. Another read might be, knowing that “Elim” is actually Garak, is that you can see the story as being about Garak metaphorically “betraying” himself in some way, and not being able to forgive himself for that self-betrayal, and so asking Bashir to do it for him. So, the pithy way of putting it might be “I have done things I can never forgive myself for, but I value you and your friendship and so if you forgive me, that will mean something to me and give me some sense of peace before I die.”

And...all of those things are true--from Garak’s perspective anyway; Bashir might disagree with some of those points. But he’s not lying, not really. In each instance he is saying something that he believes to be true. He’s just saying those true things...by lying.   

If you pay close attention to everything Garak says in The Wire you see that he's actually trying to be open with Bashir in the only way he knows how. Cardassians lie and obfuscate in basically everything, it's just their way. There's no objective reality- there's just a series of lies used to communicate the truth in some way.

Garak tells Bashir all these little stories, and keeps changing them with every telling. But the truth that he's actually trying to share is in the parts that don't change. There's three things that are consistent across all the stories:

1) He did something wrong and was exiled for it

2) He always mentions Elim (who we later learn is himself)

3) He always mentions Tain (who later learn is his father)

So what he's actually saying is "I did something wrong and my dad disowned me and sent me away, and I'm so traumatized and depressed by it that I'm literally on drugs 24/7". He doesn't admit which, if any, of the stories about what he did are the truth, because that's not the point of what he's really trying to say.

Which is incredibly vulnerable for him and shows how much he has come to trust Bashir and finds some comfort in him (which is very gay of him).

"They're all true"

"Even the lies?"

"Especially the lies"

#garak #crisis'meta

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in this life and the next and the next one after.

Phantom Thread (2017)

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The Exorcist Appreciation Week Day Three: Favorite Relationship

Marcus Keane & Tomas Ortega I’ve never believed in miracles Oh, but now I do Because of you

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The Exorcist Appreciation Week | Day 3 | Favorite Relationship ↳Marcus/Tomas

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The Exorcist Appreciation Week Day Five: Favorite Quote

Son of the morning, banished from grace, you are forgiven. Profane thing, ashes on the earth, you are redeemed. Outcast, fallen angel, you are loved. You are forgiven. You are redeemed. You are loved.