I'm in awe of how we ran historical revisionism on the civil rights movement so bad that people truly believe it was quiet self-sacrifcial non-disruptive christ-like activism that forced progress and not — like — the incredible economic pressure of boycotts and outbreaks of illegal civil disobedience
Yapping to the choir but eughhh it burns me up girl effective protests have to be loud and inconvenient for change to happen because silent cries die in the dark that's the entire pointtt
Not a fan of the fact that like, I've always had trouble with thinking clearly when stressed, mostly because i keep going down the same lines of thought over and over
But nowadays I'm having an issue where instead of like, repeating something I'm worried about (or just "God I have to kill myself I can't do this", that's common too) it's just...
Nonsense. Babbling. Sometimes it's like the sound of a crowd but usually it's just my own mental voice making nonsense sounds at me. Even when it's words it's less full thoughts repeating and more like a bad recording of a short phrase.
Even trying to type this is like, a good amount more effort because I can only think WHILE I'm typing, trying to think ahead just gets back nonsense or the last few words repeating until they get too distorted to be comprehensible.