What do you mean you intentionally torpedoed a friendship?
We were toxic for each other, but I didnt want them blaming them self for it, i kinda became someone they wouldn't like so they would end the friendship and blame me for it. I'd rather him be mad at me than mad at himself
Sorry if I haven't been posting, I kinda intentionally torpedoed a friendship because we were toxic for each other and they were the only reason I was on this site in the first place, so like, ehhh
Kinda want to get a Switch, also kinda want to sell all of my video game stuff and just devote myself to reading, writing, guitar playing and working out
Alot, I don't want to go into a lot of detail, but the thing weighing the most heavy is that I hurt a friend. I just grew too attached and in an effort to try to make sure we stayed friends, drove them away instead. Ive got a lot of other shit going on and honestly in the past when I felt down I'd message him, not to talk about how I felt or anything, but just talking about anything made me feel like I wasn't so lonely. This would be a bad time in my life regardless of if we were still talking, but knowing I hurt him makes me feel even worse. Thats really all I'm okay saying here.