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Hang in there

Matthew's Jounal 5/25/24

"When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on." - FDR

I want to take the time to thank everyone who helped me get to where I am today. The meaning, joy, hope and purpose I found because of the legendary people I got to work with and learn from is more than enough.

Aside from connecting with people and making a difference however I can, what is most important to me is not letting ignorance win. Identifying ignorance as the source of all the pain I've experienced or caused in my life is comforting because it makes the theme of my long-term goals clear to even myself. What did I learn and who did it help? Even if this is too simplistic, it'll do well enough for now.

"Love is enough, it always is," was one of the things I said in group during my hospital stay in 2022. I want to walk that back today. I think it was SIgmund Freud who said "Love and work, that's all there is." This is better.

Anyway, in case you didn't know, the reason I was at the hospital then is because I made a series of mistakes. I'm sorry. "For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been.'” – John Greenleaf Whittier

Part of living my life has necessitated not giving up. I'm hoping to get back into classes this Summer or Fall and keep hanging out in the behavioral heath field for a while. I'm not sure when I'll finish my math degree, but it remains a goal of mine. To steal from James Tanton, in math it sometimes seems like we're only taught the grammar of math: how to do the problems. I fully believe that there is poetry in math and I want to unlock that joy for myself and the people in my life. Winston Churchill has my back on this one.

Best wishes

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#Youtube

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The absurdity of religion is just staggering lol. What the fuck are we actually doing 😂

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I dunno if I’d still be here without my sweet daughter cat.

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Ah, that’s better :)

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My friend Adam :)

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Found this gem from my ASU days :)

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