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recent moth commission! (for BlazingKyatto on Twitter)

#win for moth girls #others art

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if i could fuck a song i would do it

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moth

#I THINK I LIKE MEN #HOUGHHH #Others art

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One of my very first scalie ocs !! his name is shaw :3

#i think i like men #others art

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at least there's gay people

#hey im gays and sadomasochism woag

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Welp. Ive made it as a porn artist my art got stolen and put on r34 lmao

kill me

#lunar myth rambles but evil #hhhhhh

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Thinking about how red marble stone look way too much like meat

#this is what my insides are made of

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Happy

Day

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forget who’s the top or bottom, which one of you is nursing a fresh bite-sized wound and which one of you is licking the blood off your teeth

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Don’t be surprised if you see me on your trail cam footage tonight. I’m just out being a little freak

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Theres a funny helplessness to being an artist nowadays, especially when youre in a rocky spot. Both mentally and financially

Machines dont hurt like me when they create, they dont think or feel. Nor eat and sleep. Let alone suffer with a fucking financial crisis. Im honestly a little envious. Its the kind of thing i wish i could be, life would be simpler. I wouldnt worry about becoming useless, a dead weight.

But i wouldnt be an artist at that rate. id be a soulless figure, pumping out things that look good on the surface but have no actual thought or meaning. The process being totally forgone. The happy little kick of my legs when i complete a thing? The excitement in sharing my work in progresses? The repeating lines of dialogue to myself so i dont forget as i write them? The hours of detailing? Like the little things. The attempts at new techniques? The experiences, complexes, traumas, ideals i pour into a creation? The years of time and effort and love and care and desperate need to fill a void with praise and approval? None of that would happen. None of that would matter. The joy in every sketch I do would be erased. Id be a mindless machine.

By god. if only i was. After all i barely have a life outside of art anymore anyway.

#can you tell i struggle seeing myself as a person? #lunar myth rambles but evil #ai art #brain slop #im treated like a machine anyway #ive wanted to kms for days btw. months even. jsyk. #anti ai #tw vent

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i have an angel and devil on my shoulder but also a third guy who just tells me to do strange gayboy shit thats not really good or bad per se but it will make everyone in my life think im weirder

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The desire to be consumed by blind obsession and adoration once more... It gave me purpose. It felt good.

#lunar myth rambles but evil #i try to not romanticize this. but its hard to avoid when im in my own mind and trying to sleep #i probably have a deficiency in my brain chemistry. #i'll never obsess over another living person again #that was unhealthy and im still suffering from the aftermath of blind trust #adoration and abuse. never fucking again. obsessing over fictional men who cant hurt me is much safer . :} #mentally unwell #brain slop #obsessive

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This blog is just where im unapologetically stramge im realising . Fuck .

#lunar myth rambles but evil #iunno i just reblog shit i gotta make real posts

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whenever i go a few days withojut being horny im like wow it's finally over im finally just a regular person just like everyone else and then it comes back and im like ummm lol is the transient yet visceral nature of life making anyone else hard

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maybe i WANT my vampire boyfriend to drain me to the point of passing out. Did you ever think about that

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“he has your blood all over his mouth” well we are in love. If you must know