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meal ideas!

low energy ("do not ask me to do any prep work at all, so help me god")

mozzerella cheese wrapped in pepperoni ("pizza tacos"!)

hummus and pretzels or naan (putting the naan in the microwave for like 10 seconds...heavenly)

canned chili (with shredded cheese and sour cream if you have it! boom done!)

instant miso soup (warm and lovely! put tofu in it for protein!)

cheese and cured meat, olives, canned fish, crackers, dried fruit, or whatever easy "charcuterie" type items you like

alternate bites of apple and spoonfulls of peanut butter (mixing honey or chocolate chips to the peanut butter is my favorite)

a "deconstructed sandwich": bites of lunch meat, pickles, cheese, cherry tomato, etc (I love roast beef and white cheddar for this)

yogurt and granola or fruit

put frozen potstickers + frozen edamame in the steamer/rice cooker, chill elsewhere with a timer set, then boom

tortilla chips + canned refried beans + cherry tomatoes + cilantro + jarred salsa con queso (or warm shredded cheese on top of the chips in the microwave for 30 seconds)

bagel + cream cheese + lox

microwave scrambled eggs (add things like green onion, soy sauce, or anything else you like!)

cottage cheese and fruit (mixed together or just on the side)

bowl of shredded rotisserie chicken + buffalo sauce + a bit of mayo + green onion (use a kitchen scissors to cut them right in!)

medium energy ("I'll boil water but don't ask me to chop shit")

boiled eggs and fresh veggies (put a little salt on top of the eggs!)

buttered noodles (my go-to nausea meal, it has never failed me. ideas of things to add: frozen peas, imitation crab, roasted garlic)

baked potato with toppings (I like cheese, bacon, broccoli, green onion, and sour cream)

quesadilla (add some canned beans, cilantro, or avocado!)

pot roast (requires a lot of time but not a lot of actual work. I love it with peas!)

cuban sandwich (bread, swiss, pickle, mustard, ham... my favorite thing to panini-ify by far)

pan-fried tofu with scallion sauce (this sauce goes well with everything and tofu is no exception)

pancakes or waffles! (I love mine with jam)

ham, pickle, and cream cheese roll-ups

fried eggs (with toast and lots of butter...so comforting)

fruit smoothie (bananas, frozen strawberries, yogurt...or whatever!)

I hate salad but could write essays on this copycat olive garden salad (throw it in a bowl! chopping required if you use onion)

spaghetti (controversial maybe but angel hair > spaghetti noodles)

pasta salad (olives broccoli fresh mozerella... those little mini pepperonis... yeah)

stir-fried thai garlic shrimp (I like using the mini frozen salad shrimps, it's easy! use jarred minced garlic to avoid chopping!)

tuna mayo onigiri

slow cooker ribs

buffalo chicken wrap (or any number of other wrap options! shred pre-cooked rotisserie chicken to make it easier)

if your local grocery store sells pre-cooked gyro strips, that can turn into an easy wrap with store-bought pita & tzatziki with tomatoes and onions!

couscous and chickpeas

tortellini + pasta sauce + spinach

high energy ("I don't mind chopping some things up!")

stuffed shells with spinach

chicken and roasted garlic (oh my god.....one of my all time favorites)

beef tacos (I like mine with cilantro and onion, and when I'm feeling especially high energy I love a tomatillo salsa)

chicken alfredo

tom kha gai (a thai soup and my absolute favorite! you just need access to galangal)

lasagna! (freezes well and then boom! low energy meal for later)

pad thai! (not as hard as you'd think, as long as you have access to tamarind paste!)

potstickers! (this is a lovely group activity if you want to cook with housemates!)

rice and beans

bang bang shrimp (ogughfhgfuh I love it. you can also do bang bang tofu!)

minestrone soup (so many nice veggies!)

fried rice (put whatever you have on hand in there! broccoli, peas, carrot, and beef is my favorite combo)

broccoli cheddar soup

spring rolls and peanut sauce

skewers (such as beef, onion, zucchini, bell pepper... you don't need a grill, oven works!)

roasted turkey with garlic parmesean asparagus

pork chop with mashed potatoes

panang curry

chicken gnocchi soup (use store bought gnocchi or make your own if you have a high energy day!)

bibimbap (super customizable depending on what veggies you like best)

butter chicken

plus! things that have helped me meal plan:

whenever you think of a meal you'd like to make, take 3 seconds to google search it, take a screenshot of the image results, and put it in a "food ideas" folder. instant visual menu!

the concept of "meal prepping" makes me recoil but I've learned that it can simply mean preparing shredded chicken, boiled eggs, or some other simple protein that you can customize throughout the week. shredded chicken can turn into wraps, salads, pasta dishes, etc... you don't have to meal prep yourself into the same meal all week!

when I have difficulty working up an appetite, I'll scroll through my favorite restaurant menus! there might be some foods I can't make at home, but many times they're very simple to recreate because the ingredients are literally listed!

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Q:What is crab day?

A: well, a celebration of how strangely cursed our little corner of the internet can be. It's also a community lead funding. Push. Tumblr costs money to run, if we want to keep our little corner of the internet it's weird unique self, we're going to have to foot part of the bill.

Q: when is crab day?

A: July 29th. I would have preferred a slightly longer lead time to get the word out better, But we work with what we can get and July 29th has already gotten some traction in other groups.

Q: how do I participate?

A: buy a mutual crabs, or if you're broke, crab post crab memes.

Q: why crabs?

A: because admit it. most of us would love to get or give crabs to a mutual.

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been talking about this a lot with my friends lately and I feel its important to share

ur not a bad person or doing something wrong for not cooking ur own food. its okay not to cook things urself. its okay to eat prepackaged and prepared or very simple meals if thats what makes eating easier for u

its not shameful or wrong if u eat out often, or use a meal service, or buy frozen preprepared food. u aren't "waisting money" feeding urself. ur taking care of a basic need in a way that works for u

obviously money and budget are big factors here, and some of us dont have a choice or have very limited choices on what help and accommodations are available or realistic for us. but if u can afford to do those things and it would make ur life easier, there's absolutely no reason why u shouldn't

theres so much that goes into eating. meal planning, recipe and ingrediant research, food shopping, prepping, cooking, storing, cleaning up

each of those steps takes a lot of mental and physical energy, and for some of us, its too much. if doing those things is only making ur life worse or harder or more stressful or even if it would just be easier to cut out some of those steps or offload them onto a service, then do it. ur doing the right thing for urself and ur life

eating is so important and we all have to do it. and I know for a lot of us if the process of eating becomes too stressful or too much work, we simply won't and thats not a real and sustainable solution.

so whatever helps u eat, whatever makes it easier to get nutrients and fuel into ur body so it can keep functioning, is the right thing to do

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Friendly reminder: You are deserving of proper nutrients and you need it in order to live a full life. I know it can be scary but you’ve got this, okay? I believe in you <3

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Fighting against a restrictive ED doesn't just mean eating more healthy things.

Sometimes it means being bold enough to buy (or cook) unhealthy things. An example from just now, at the shops: I hesitated for a long while over heavily discounted cupcakes of a type that's one of my favourites.

In the end I said - out loud, mind you - "I will not let this control me!" and bought the cupcakes.

From an outside perspective that may seem like giving in to unhealthiness. But it's not: not always.

#there was more in my bones and in my soul before i started writing this out in words and it has slipped away #i haven't been posting here very much bc i relapsed badly #but i WILL eat the cupcakes and i WILL enjoy them and SO THERE #im literally near to tears and full up with defiance

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People who act aggressive and negative as fuck and then when you’re like “hey can you stop” they’re like “I’m going through some stuff 🥺🥺🥺” like damn dude that’s crazy me too - for example right now I’m going through YOUR behavior.

#or new people #please don't misunderstand me - I'm just saying that sometimes two people through no fault of their own simply don't mesh bc their needs #and their boundaries cannot coexist #....rereading the post I think I am missing the point a little bit sorry

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(somewhat tw: block the tag #not recoverer, if you don't want to see posts that go into my mental state as somebody still trapped by this hellish disorder)

Part of me wants to recover, and part of me wants to relapse badly... staring at the timer on my screen that says '51:00:50', I think the relapsing is winning right now. In part because I feel horrible right now because I ate too much - and all of it after 5pm. All I ate before 5pm was a single cup of coffee that made my head spin, at break at work. Possibly because I barely ate the previous couple of days.

All the same, why am I doing this to myself? Why am I punishing myself for eating slightly more than what should be a normal intake (granted, in rather unhealthy form) by saying 'okay now we must not eat'? What am I getting out of this? Why?

It's like I only just realised, this is an addiction. I'm starting to lose the reason I even started with this whole problem, and all I'm left with is the addiction and the compulsion and the need for control. I want to be healthy. But I can't shake the feeling that I have to be somehow 'bad enough' to get healthy, even while my brain is telling me girl you're already underweight why are you trying to lose more weight. Honestly, I've almost certainly decided to seek help for this before the month is out, it just depends when.

My brain is a mess right now. This is worse than it's ever been before, because I have the chance to be more controlling than ever. ...And also actually seeing the nice little numbers (I do so love numbers and graphs!) trot nicely down as the days go past is positively euphoric.

It's like I'm sort of seeing the danger here, but also, it's - I don't want to call it fun because it's not, but yeah, it's euphoric. To perhaps borrow a drug name... it makes me ecstatic.

And also, I'm aware enough as a nursing student of what to look out for in case things go too far and I urgently need medical help. I'll be fine; don't worry about me, in case anyone's reading this. (Genuinely.)

And if you are reading this - please go get a glass of water (I'm gonna get one as soon as I hit 'post now') and make sure you're eating properly, and please get enough sleep. I love you. I want you to take care of yourself, and if there's anything I can do for you, please tell me.

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I intend to only rarely use this tag (#not recoverer) but while I deliberately didn't want to associate it with any of the actual tags, I also wanted to just vent, I suppose, but in a way that could be triggering for others more so than my vent tag. If this will be a problem for you, please block the tag.

#not recoverer #please note that in my timezone it is past 10pm so things are slightly worse than they might otherwise be in more sane hours #and anyone who knows my main blog? i think it goes without saying that you don't mention any of this to anyone else who knows me? #(this is literally bc im pretty sure the one person who would most be bothered by it isn't following this sideblog) #(and at risk of sounding cold or uncaring also i would like to mention to those who know me that i would not like comment on this post #please and thank. i mean encouraging me to eat more or smth is very unlikely to help bc i am stubborn and stupid. #i appreciate it usually but at this point i think it would make it worse. i love and appreicate you! #and if you wanna be praying or generic good wishes or whatever do feel free! but no specific tips pls and thank you if that makes sense #love you <3 )

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Reading helpful blogs with positive advise is INCREDIBLE!! Instead of saying “I CAN’T break my fast” I’m saying “I CAN break my fast any time I like” and I haven’t felt like I’ve needed to, because I am not mentally denying myself - I want to tag the blog, but I know they’re careful on what they - but THANK YOU!!

#hey there i only rb or post pro-recovery stuff if you wana check out my blog! #if ive misunderstood you im sorry! #:)

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I am also trying out another tip which is to find the parts of yourself you like right now and focus on them, not the parts you hate and want to change. When I’m hating myself, it can lead to so many self destructive/sabotaging behaviours. Now when a “I hate my….” thought comes in, I see it like a bus. I can choose to get on it and go on that ride or I can stay where I am.

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hi psa

weight gain is so good

take it from a guy who uh just found a picture from a few months back when i was struggling with an ED

it feels really gross at first, but it’s worth it, TRUST me

slow progress is progress

2 steps forward 1 step back is still 1 step forward

love you <3

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u deserve to eat even if u think you've done something bad

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being happy makes me prettier, not starving myself

#reason to recover

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Reminder:

Eating is good

Three meals is not too much

It’s okay to eat “unhealthy” foods

You do not need to purge to feel better

Eating is healthy

You deserve to be healthy

Eating is good.

#reason to recover

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Frank Bidart, Half-light: Collected Poems 1965–2016

#fascinating #the boy #with people he knows better there is a specific angle at which he will stand - generally facing the same direction and rarely making eye #contact. i love it as a method of interaction and it's part of why i got to know him in teh first place bc i feel so much more comfortable #in that way rather than facing directly. idk i have Feels about this because of him #feels in a good way tho