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THIS BLOG IS NOW AN ARCHIVE ! FIND ME AND SAM OVER @edgedglory !

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to new followers: this blog is going to be moving! if i followed you back recently, rest assured i will be following on the new account!

#i just gotta redo some graphics #then its all set

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---- working on edits for the new blog

#a rat- #i just hhhhhhhhhhhhhnnnnnnn #he owns my brain cell

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sam and i are no longer vibing with this blog. i will be moving in the coming days.

#its not gonna take me long #i just yeah gotta bounce #everything is bothering be about this blog rn

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Richard Siken

#❪ musings ┊ ❝ you are down on your knees‚ begging me for more . ❞ #oh - #okay #SOUNDS ABOUT RIGHT

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just a psa, i can tell instantly if you haven’t read my rules or even my pinned post.

#/there is content i will not be writting/ #if anyone comes looking for it they will be blocked

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i’m the sexiest bitch in this therapy waiting room

#stop 😭 #samcore af #that is…. you have to get him to therapy first #lmao #❪ musings ┊ ❝ you are down on your knees‚ begging me for more . ❞

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i choose you. && i’ll choose you, over && over && over again. without pause, without doubt, in a heartbeat, i’ll keep choosing you. 

#❪ ship ┊ ❝ if we make it through today‚ say you’ll stay with me tomorrow‚ theo graves . ❞

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sam only gets on his knees for theo graves thank you.

#fuck canon okay #sam is whipped #pre ‘the body’ incident sam would have done it with zero hesitation #hell he still would now #just not as fast #lmao

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send ⑁ to sit on my muse’s lap

alternatively, send ღ for my muse to sit on your muse’s lap

#i dare y’all #kahsjshdjd #meme tbt.

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@theartistseye asked : you have nothing to prove to anybody.

── pretty words wrapped in sympathies ; sam knows theo means well , but just a simple affirmation is not going to quell the need. cigarette poised in hand , the only thing sam could take guilt free anymore. he's relapsed once already , in the span of one month that has passed since fire island. at least there was no more secrets , no more cloaked lies. but where there was once a protective shield , now laid the fragile state of vulnerability. it is a feet sam has never been forward with ; a fact of why things escalated to the point they had.

vacant eyes stare out across the balcony , watching the dips in the sky as the sun begins to rise on the skyline. right hand nervously tugs on the sleeve of his robe trying to cover the bandage underneath. that had been unhealthy copping mechanism number two , it's been a long time since it last happened. however with everything much to loud , & no drugs to calm it down , it was a last resort. an agonizing emergency room visit got that idea of the table right quick.

❝   you keep saying that ,   ❞  stars simply as the smoke swirls into the air. elbow rests on the railing , sam is not making eye contact. ❝ as if it means anything at this point.   ❞  ash is tapped off the ledge , another breath taken in as the tremors start in his hands again. eyes close as head tips back , another few deep breaths , it's all so overwhelming. ❝   i know you mean well ,   ❞ words hushed as sam finally turns around , skittish in appearance , once more tugging on his sleeve , discarding his dead cigarette on the ground. ❝   but with everything i have been through from birth till rebirth , yes , i do. hence the rebirth part. i cannot go back there theo. i won't go back there.  ❞

#theartistseye #theartistseye : 007 #❪ verse ┊ ❝ this is the last time i listen to the voices inside my head‚ closed au . ❞ #self harm mention tw #oooof this got pretty dark #sam in recovery is..... a lot

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@theartistseye asked : maybe i’ll see you in another life—if this one wasn’t enough.

── pulse beats rapidly , he's acutely aware of his back which is now pressed incredibly hard against the opposite end of the couch. silence decorates the room , only joint breathing of them both can be heard in the deafening beats. that was a mere few minutes ago , right after theo pulled away from him. after sam dared to take a leap of faith , & hope he wasn't wrong , as if all the endless calls & texts meant nothing. all the i love you's never said , should have been enough. foolishness brought him here & it was that same foolishness that had caused the tear tracks that were now on his cheeks ; against the silent stream still going. peace has been said , & a countless array of sorries & words wrapped in a perfect little bow. ── just when he thought it was over : " maybe i’ll see you in another life — if this one wasn’t enough. " lip quivers involuntary , a reflex at this point , as words catch in his throat , struggling to come out. ❝ how can ... how can ... how ... you say .... that. ❞ a string of incoherency , absent of his usual dialect. : take my heart out , watch it bleed. would that finally give you peace ? :

❝ if  ❞ he stresses hands failing out in punctuation , ❝ if   ❞ louder in volume , expression pained , eyes still watering. ❝ how could this be enough ?   ❞ voice cracking , words barely choked from his throat. the shakes return , as sam mulls over the words. the dagger that they have driven right through his chest. after everything they have been through , after how it all came crashing down. with how sam ran here after all those countless reminiscing nights. after all the words he said now , could think for one second sam was happy with the ending. ❝ there is no if theo.   ❞ forcing himself to speak , ❝ don't insult every memory we ever had by implying it was enough. don't you fucking dare. ❞ he cuts himself off, a brief moment to fight off the tears , but to no avail.

❝ i didn't chase you across the country because i was content with how things were. and i didn't tell you there was no one else because i was happy with how we turned out. ❞ sobs take over sam now as he wills himself to get off the couch, ❝ i hope to god there is never another universe where i am standing in your apartment declaring i love you on bended fucking knee ; screaming at you for daring to assume you meant that little to me in any life time. ❞ standing on his own two feet now , sam stands there with his arms crossed , eyes closed , head downward ❝ if there is a reality where... i am happy with you just out of my reach .... i don't fucking want it. ❞ of course it wasn't enough.

#theartistseye #theartistseye : 005 #❪ verse ┊ ❝ are we gonna be more than a memory‚ no matter how lame my apology‚ closed au . ❞ #i based this on their “accidental” kiss during sam's visit that we talked about #and i am very upset

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just a psa, i will be blocking personals on sight now.

#if your a moot and you follow from your personal - please tell me #otherwise i will block you #personals are stealing my gif sets and i am tired of it

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RANDOM QUOTES FROM TUMBLR PROMPTS (3/?)

ₓ ˚ .   ୭   ˚ ○ ◦ ˚     as always, some triggering content may be present! change any pronouns to better suit your muse(s) needs!     ˚ ◦ ○ ˚   ୧   . ˚ ₓ

flowers grow back even after the harshest winters, you will too.

at your absolute best, you still won’t be good enough for the wrong person—at your worst, you’ll still be worth it to the right person.

the more people i meet, the more disappointed i am.

love can make up for a lot.

maybe i’ll see you in another life—if this one wasn’t enough.

one of the hardest lessons in life is letting go.

don’t wait until you’ve reached your goal to be proud of yourself.

give me all your stress and worries, i’ll take it all just to see you smile.

don’t ask yourself what the world needs, ask yourself what makes you come alive.

we are products of our past but we don’t have to be prisoners of it.

what would i do if i weren’t afraid?

there is a strange warm grace in not being alone.

closing your eyes and plugging up your ears won’t make time stand still.

i learned not to trust people.

we cannot simply sit and stare at our wounds forever.

it is possible to lie, and even to murder, with the truth.

i think i might always be in some kind of love with you.

we fight to hold on and we fight to let go.

i find that music is so much more attractive than love.

if you light a lamp for someone else it will also brighten your path.

i thought i could imagine how much this would hurt, but i was wrong.

deep in my heart, i know i am a loner.

they lash out because if they can see that their words hurt someone else, it makes them feel as if they aren’t completely powerless.

you have nothing to prove to anybody.

what the world needs is people who are alive.

people don’t want to hear the truth because they don’t want their illusions destroyed.

you have to do what’s best for you—not what’s best for somebody else.

do you say what you really mean?

tomorrow is another chance.

have patience with all things, but first with yourself.

keep moving forward.

the less i know, the better.

don’t listen to yourself—listen to the advice that you give others.

becoming fearless isn’t the point. that’s impossible. it’s learning how to control your fear, and how to be free from it.

people will say terrible things when they’re scared..

you deserve someone who answers.

you can’t fix me, let me have my bad days.

we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.

i knew this was going to happen.

the truth is often a terrible weapon of aggression.

you alone are enough.

millions of people can believe in you, and yet none of it matters if you don’t believe in yourself.

the love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences.

are you really how you're perceived to be?

i just want to be your peace.

i’m afraid that if you look at a thing long enough, it loses all of its meaning.

falling in love doesn’t always lead to heartbreak.

eyes are blind. you have to look with the heart.

i have always known life damages us. we can’t escape that damage.

there is no way to happiness: happiness is the way.

sometimes you just have to jump.

change is never easy.

keep your eyes wide open, only a coward closes his eyes.

sometimes you make choices in life, and sometimes choices make you.

you can’t always wait for the perfect time.

to live is the rarest thing in the world, most people exist—that is all.

there's no shortcut to forgetting someone. you have to endure missing them until you don't.

it is the things you cannot see coming that are strong enough to kill you.

nothing’s going to disappear just because you can’t see what’s going on. things will even be worse the next time you open your eyes.

you started caring too late.

that’s the kind of world we live in.

it’s never too late to change the direction that your life is going in.

i take much pleasure in being alone.

appreciate those who don’t give up on you.

when your head lays on my chest, i want you to forget the world and all it’s problems.

only a coward closes his eyes.

however rare true love may be, it is less so than true friendship.

you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do.

bad ideas make the best memories.

telling you to "go fuck yourself" is considered rude in most social situations.

if i had a flower for every time i thought of you, i could walk through my garden forever.

it’s all too much and not enough at the same time.

some hearts understand each other—even in silence.

be nice to yourself.

we can be mended, we mend each other.

any goodbye makes room for a hello.

survival is a talent.

never confuse your mistakes with your value as a human being.

allow yourself to hope and believe again.

you need to distance yourself so you can discover what you want out of life.

god gives every bird its food, but he does not throw it into its nest.

remind yourself that it’s ok not to be perfect.

people will never forget how you made them feel.

soft hearted people know what people did to them, but they forgive them again and again because they have beautiful hearts.

don’t allow the past to spoil the present—or to rob you of a future.

#meme tbt.

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i’m losing it over this-

asexual 👏🏻 sam 👏🏻 dash icon

#there is a whole list of them #if anyone wants it ! #but i’m #kahskdhdjd

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asexual 👏🏻 sam 👏🏻 dash icon

#its so important okay

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tag drop.

#❪ ship ┊ ❝ some believe in love at first sight‚ but this is just lust on the first night‚ john henry moore . ❞ #❪ verse ┊ ❝ you and me are like drugs and candy‚ closed au . ❞ #❪ verse ┊ ❝ are we gonna be more than a memory‚ no matter how lame my apology‚ closed au . ❞ #❪ verse ┊ ❝ i’m so starstruck‚ baby‚ ‘cause you blow my heart up‚ closed au . ❞ #❪ verse ┊ ❝ it was‚ enchanting to meet you‚ closed au . ❞