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CAUSE IM A REAL TOUGH KID I CAN HANDLE MY SHIT THEY SAID BABE YOU GOTTA FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT AND I DID

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clara bow being described by one of her directors as “pitifully eager to please everyone” and taylor calling herself a “pathological people pleaser” in you’re losing me. clara bow being a very famous 20s star, a personification of the roaring 20s, and taylor who’s arguably the artist of our generation… oh my heart. MY HEART, TAYLOR.

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chenford + the music industry: dress

Flashback to my mistakes My rebounds, my earthquakes Even in my worst lies You saw the truth in me

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i can do it with a broken heart ✨ 💃 💔 🕺 ✨

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I'M FUCKING SCREAMING WHAT IS THIS????????

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sick of dating apps i wanna meet someone the old fashioned way (a bartender gives me cryptic advice and i look up what he said and find a 3 hour lecture and the speaker sparks an interest in philosophy and ethics in me (and wow he's kinda cute) so i get on a 20 hour flight and barge into his office and he offers to teach me ethics in his down time because a librarian gave him cryptic advice)

#ughhhh #that’s ideal actually

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cause I know that it's delicate

“You know you’re the biggest idiot I’ve ever met, right?”

Tim turned his head when he heard Angela’s voice beside him as she slid into the booth next to him.

“What?”

“You’re an idiot!”

“Thanks.”

“She was happiest with you, you know?”

“What are you talking about?”

“Oh, come on. Lucy. I’d never seen her as happy as she was with you. And she would’ve stayed to help you work through whatever you’re working through.”

“I know, that’s exactly why I walked away. She deserves better than to have to deal with my issues.”

“You didn’t even give her a choice, Tim. You just… walked away without asking her what she wanted.”

“It’s what’s best for her.”

“Is it, really? It’s best for her to be heartbroken over you? She’s been by your side through your worst when she was just your rookie, so what’s different now? Why can’t she see the worst of you now?”

Because now she wasn’t just his rookie anymore. Because now she was the person who mattered most. Because now she was the person he loved more than he ever thought he was capable of. Because he felt ashamed of who he truly was and he didn’t want her to see that side of him. Because her light didn’t deserve to be tainted by his darkness.

But he didn’t say any of that.

“I’m tired, okay? I’m gonna go home.”

He fished out a few dollar bills to pay for his beer and threw them on the table before sliding out of the booth.

“G’night.”

“You’re a coward, you know that?”

Yeah, he knew. And maybe in a perfect world, cowards didn’t exist and he could work through everything with Lucy by his side. But this wasn’t a perfect world, and he was a coward. And even after almost three months of therapy, he still felt lost. Maybe he always would and he could never find a way back — back to himself, and hopefully back to Lucy — and that hurt, because he’d love her with everything he had for the rest of his life and she would always be the best thing that ever happened to him.

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#this is pure magic

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holy shit???!?? …. Holy shit

#SO GOOD

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“You swore that you loved, me but where were the clues?/I died on the altar waiting for the proof/You sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days”

#i adore this song

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genuinely the way taylor clearly falls hard and fast and hopelessly in love every single time is very endearing. writing "this happens once every few lifetimes" and "no one's ever had me, not like you" on the same album that covers the breakdown of two relationships that were also seemingly destined and life changing and unmatched by anyone else is exactly what makes her so good at writing about relationships. if a songwriter doesn't feel everything with their whole chest and throw their whole being into it then I don't want it

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which ttpd song and why is it florida!!!

#i hate how much i love this song #it’s SO GOOD #but i hate that it’s about florida #i’m so torn by it

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Okay, they're doing this on purpose to us

6x02

6x07

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I'm so excited for lucy to ride with grey next episode because ITS A NEW COMBINATION and I can mark it on the spreadsheet I made of the pairings and call signs for each episode 🫠🫠

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6.07 | Crushed

#EAT THAT UP

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Every facial expression in this picture is priceless

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Nothing will ever be funnier than that scene when Orla showed James her drawing and says “I ran out of brown so your eyes are red” and he just looks at it and says “ My eyes are green”

And then she says “ now you tell me” and cries a little

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OBSESSED with how My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys is SO chenford coded!!!!!!! timmy is so scared of himself and being happy that he self sabotages any chance he can get 😭

“the voices in his head called the rain to end our days of wild”

“cause it fit too right, puzzle pieces in the dead of night”

“i’ll tell you that he runs because he loves me”

“there was danger in the heat of my touch”

“he saw forever, so he smashed it up”

“i felt more when we played pretend than with all the kens”

“told me i’m better off but im not”

#taylor swift #chenford #my boy only breaks his favourite toys #MBOBHFT #lucy chen #tim bradford #is it healthy? #absolutely it is not #i still love him though #i’m not healthy either #the rookie #the tortured poets department