foreverdolly

[foreverdolly]

sorry for not posting, guys! they’re doing a pinball tournament and the other director dropped out. i’ve been TDing this entire weekend until almost twelve at night 😅

#so so sorry!

[foreverdolly]

dolly announcement:

i just want to thank each and every person that has checked on me over the last eleven days. life has been crazy and i’m still very much in denial over everything. the loss of my father has changed me fundamentally… however i have never felt more motivated to make a life for myself that he would he proud of. with that being said i would like to gain back some semblance of my former life. writing has always been my passion, my escape and a way for me to connect with others! so my blog will go back to normal as of today!

i will also be updating/posting some fics very soon:

“savage bonds”: update will be on thursday at ten o’clock est. adult themes will be included in this chapter, so please read the special warnings before delving in.

“i just ride”: update will be saturday at ten o’clock est. adult themes and minor angst will be included in this chapter so please check the special warnings (the smut is sweet and loving though… unlike the fic above)

i will be introducing a new knight!austin butler x princess!reader mini series next saturday at ten o’clock est. it will comprise of four full length chapters. teasers for the first chapter will be posted up until the official day to get you all excited.

i am also working on a paul atreides oneshot that will be posted the saturday after next.

if i make any tweaks or additions to this fic schedule then i will let you all know before hand!

love love love you all.

-xoxo dolly

#fic updates #foreverdolly #we’re so back #we’re so fucking back #savage bonds #savage bonds fic #dune #dune part two #feyd rautha #feyd rautha smut #austin butler #austin butler smut

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i could fucking cry. personal thank you to scout, @abswifey and myka for the gifts to my venmo. genuinely overwhelmed by the love and thoughtfulness. if you give me your @‘s i would love to link you all in this post so that you get all the follows and recognition you deserve for your kindness and selflessness.

#overwhelmed by your kindness #thank you so much for making the financial part of this hardship easier

[foreverdolly]

One thing that helped me with the aftermath of dealing with family members passing was people who brought meals. We obviously cannot bring you any but do you have a Venmo account we can send you $$$ so you can order food or something?🤍

i live two hours from home, so i've been eating out every night to be honest hahaha.

this is the most thoughtful thing anyone has ever sent to me. i'm so sorry for your loss as well, especially if it was a grandparent or parent. a lot has happened to be in my life and i've always been naive enough to think "this can't get worse. no pain can be worse than this", and it truly does get worse. someone messaged me on here and said "it hurts so bad because you loved him so much" and it's making me feel a lot better. my dad was always my favorite parent, despite his addiction. i hope that you've found peace with your loss as well, and one thought that is calming me is knowing that he isn't truly gone. i fully intend on making him proud, and i know that you're doing the same with your loved one.

please do not feel pressured to send me anything at all. i know money is tight for everyone right now because of the shitty economy, but my venmo is "Sunny-Doll". anything would be truly appreciated since i had to call out of work thursday and friday ;;-;;

#thinking about dad #sweet nonnie #thank you eternally

[foreverdolly]

I am so sorry hon, I can't imagine what youre going through right now. sending you all the love and support in the world ❤️❤️

thank you so much for thinking of me and messaging. this is so hard but having you all during this time is truly a blessing. much love to you, angel.

#thinking about dad #thank you so much #sweet nonnie

[foreverdolly]

just wanted to post a little update for you guys.

from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for all of the well wishes, condolences and kindness as far as my dad's spirit or my family and i's healing process goes. i am genuinely blown away by the level of support i have received. not only that but i am truly touched about all of the messages i've gotten where people can relate to my dad's addiction. i had no clue so many other families struggle with this as well, and being a daughter/child in it all is horrible. i truly wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy. i was crying to my sister and let her know that i've been getting so many messages of people relating to me, and she was quick to say that "they no longer feel alone in their experiences either now", which is truly beautiful.

I'm about to go through and try to respond to each and every one of you as well as answer the asks that have been sent to me during this time. the first thing i thought of when i woke up this morning was if he was having a good dream before he passed. ironically, he spoke about how weird his dreams were during our last phone call. he had frequent nightmares and dreams about still being with my mom, and i pray that he was at peace that night in his resting thoughts and feelings.

god, this doesn't feel real. the day before yesterday i was talking to my mom on the phone about something i remembered from early, early childhood. my mom couldn't remember if i was right and so the thought "let me call my dad and check" immediately popped into my head. i can't call him. not ever again.

please hug your loved ones close. no matter how busy you are, call your parents and check on them. i wish so so deeply that i had called him a few more times before he passed. the last thing we talked about before he hung up was how hot my house was and that i need to call my landlord. hahaha.

#thank you everyone #genuinely you make me feel better #I have teared up reading some of your messages

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this is a self pitying post and i’ll probably delete it later- but when i’m sad i tend to write it out. i’ve used this blog like a diary of sorts for the last two and a half years. i’ve developed a relationship with a lot of you on here and i appreciate all the love i’ve received so far on my last post. my friends that i have in real life, no matter how long i’ve known them, don’t know too much about my upbringing or my parents. i hate the idea of trauma dumping- it’s uncomfortable for other people: so don’t read this if you don’t want to. i wouldn’t blame you.

my dad died from cirrhosis due to alcoholism. he died miserable and alone. he had no friends. his family was sick of him. i tried to call him as often as i could but sometimes he could be mean if he was drunk. i knew not to call him after 11:00 in the afternoon because he would start to drink. he lived in his youngest brother’s basement and almost never came upstairs because he was embarrassed. i haven’t seen him in three years because he lives fourteen hours from me, but i tried my hardest to call him every week and keep him involved in my life. he never saw any of my homes, never met any of my friends, and never even saw me drive a car (i’ve been licensed since i was eighteen). i cried to him almost every week, begging him to get sober.

he never recovered from my parent’s divorce, and for that i feel so sorry. he called my mother his soulmate and always spoke in past tense- talking about when me and my brother were little. he would tear up when talking about the first time he ever saw me in the hospital after my mother gave birth, and he was vocal about the fact that i was his favorite. we shared a lot of the the same interests and always had fun when talking.

when my mom made a suicide attempt two years ago he was there for me almost everyday, calling me despite the demons he was battling with himself.

the last time i spoke to him was thursday- a week from the day he died. he told me that he almost called a treatment facility but he got tired and took a nap instead. his doctors appointment was today at one and he was going to ask to be admitted and then go to a rehab facility. i told him i’d send him money while he was in there- he hasn’t been able to hold a job since i was still in high school.

my dad was a chef. a damn good cook- classically trained in french cooking. he had the loudest laugh i’ve ever heard, so much so that it used to make me cry when i was a baby. we used to wear matching costumes and he’d sign me out from school on halloween and call me out the day after. he took me to my first concert, but he couldn’t afford both the gas and the tickets (so i paid for the gas with my pocket change at the age of thirteen). he wore adidas strictly- shell toe was his favorite.

when i was little my dad was on night duty while my mom was away: tucking us in, reading us books. he refused to read to me and walked out the door but not before saying “bed bugs and stuff”. i thought it was so funny. it became our saying. every night we spent with each other we said “bed bugs and stuff”. so that was my last send off to him. i hope he’s finally resting well and isn’t depressed, ashamed or lonely anymore where he is.

he died in his sleep. they found a solo cup filled with vodka next to his bed and i can’t stop thinking about the fact that he was going to get help today. he was yellow due to jaundice. what a cruel world.

#i genuinely don’t know what to do

[foreverdolly]

hey guys, my dad just died. no update tonight. not sure what to do or how to feel. i think i’m disassociating.

[foreverdolly]

How many parts will Savage Bonds have it is incredible 🙌

i honestly haven’t sat down and counted out how many parts i think is doable with this fic. probably ten? nine? it’s not ending any time soon if that’s what you’re wondering! ;)

thank you for your question, baby cakes!

#savage bonds fic #sweet nonnie #dune #dune 2

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I have a question about savage bonds (feel free not to answer if the answer is spoiler-y)

Do plan on following dune 2 canon? No hate if you do, I just wanna be able to brace myself for an unhappy ending lol

this is a wonderful question. i tend to shy away from sadder fics myself- when things end badly i tend to get really fucked up over it, especially if it’s a multi-chapter affair.

i do not plan on following dune 2 canon in the ways that you’re thinking. spoiler: feyd does not die in this fic!

there is going to be some angst, but nothing too bad for emotional readers. this is a dark romance, not a tragic one :) thank you for your question, lovie and for giving me the opportunity to give everyone a heads up.

#sweet nonnie #savage bonds fic #dune 2

[foreverdolly]

savage bonds should be up sometime tomorrow around midnight est! i’ll be posting some teasers to get everyone excited tonight!

#savage bonds fic #fic update #dune #dune part two

[foreverdolly]

working for one of the biggest pinball distribution companies in the world means i get to go on daily elvis hunts.

#elvis presley is my lover #he’s so precious #but they did him so dirty here #elvis presley

[foreverdolly]

Austin Butler for Yves Saint Laurent

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Savage bonds got me acting like a monkey in captivity about to rip someone’s face off😭😭😭 it’s literally sooo good!! Bless your mind and hands fr😩

this genuinely has me cackling out loud at work. thank you so so much for the laugh, baby! chapter four should be up any day now! just need to finish up the last scene and edit it ;) i hope you keep this same energy throughout the series. things are about to get a bit crazy!

#thank you so much #interactions #morgue-bunny #savage bonds fic

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wildly prying at the bars of my enclosure—ur telling me i’m not only being feed prime feyd content but cowboy!austin too?!?

honeybee, i’m putty in the palm of ur hands & i’ll ride at dawn for u any day PLS

man, i have so many wips in my google docs, it’s insane. chef!austin, cowboy!austin, cult leader!austin… the list goes on.

i intend to always keep you well fed. a strict diet of smut with a side of debauchery!

i’m constantly in a frenzy over this man- straight up doing backflips off my walls.

i adore you 💗 also your username is absolutely amazing.

#interactions #cowgirl-disco

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Okay, I know this is MadTV and they don't always have the best standards for comedy, but seriously; why do comedians ALWAYS have to make fun of E's weight and drug addiction towards the end of his life? I know there were times he didn't look well or act right, but this just feels tasteless.

Like, how would you feel if someone made fun of your family member who was going through problems like this? I just can't understand it.

https://youtu.be/LD7grOl3-ZM?si=b5_fA4E2RLWvhtIr

everyone always chooses to go for the low hanging fruit, especially shitty comedians. it's absolutely disgusting that people still manage to poke fun of his illnesses, weight gain and addiction after his death- but to know that he suffered through jokes about his weight gain during he was alive? god, makes me want to cry. i remember watching an interview where one of the Memphis mafia members (I can't remember who it was at the current moment), and he said that elvis was watching a comedian that he really enjoyed. the comedian randomly started making fun of elvis and his weight on live television, and poor e had to hear that coming from someone he really liked :(

#interactions #arianatheangelgirl #elvis #i just love him so much #he’s our baby fr fr

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Hey, I hope it's okay when I just ask a little question. Have you finished the Fake Dating Fic? Because it isn't in the master list but there is a preview in your feed.

PS: I loooove the fic. I actually love your hole work (: <3

hey there, angel!

a few people have asked about “fake dating” since my return, which is completely understandable. i’m happy to answer your question!

so no, i haven’t finished “fake dating”. i was originally going to post the final chapter and then an epilogue but have decided on just combining them into one long chapter rather than making anyone wait for more “fake dating” content. i have a few thousand words written for the last chapter but absolutely detest how it reads! i think it’s because the whole thing feels… forced to me. i want the finale to be worth the wait, and what i have? it ain’t cutting it!

i will definitely give everyone a heads up when it’s about to be posted, but i’m currently focusing on other things that i’m inspired for and that make me happy. i’m about to post the final chapter of “i just ride” in the next few weeks! thank you for your support and love. i don’t know what i would do if i were to wake up one morning and no longer have this account and all the friends i’ve made along the way. you’re amazing <3

#interactions #butterblumenwiese #fake dating series