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from-aina-to-zulaikha · 2 years

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2022 resolutions ^-^

1. get a scholarship every semester

2. travel, travel and TRAVEL. seek for more experiences. step out of your comfort zone.

3. fix my imaan, focus in my ibadah

4. focus in your own self, your future, your goals. think and manifest. make yourself your priority.

5. sedekah more this year. RM1 a day.

6. exercise and lose weight, eat healthy.

7. read Al-Quran every night after maghrib.

8. kejar lah keredhaan Allah berbanding dunia, Aina. semoga Allah lindungimu dari apa jua keburukan.

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from-aina-to-zulaikha · 2 years

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RECAPPING THE ULTIMATE YEAR 2021

now lets go back to the resolutions that ive made last year:

1. MEET STRAY KIDS IN PERSON <3333 | LMAO BITCH U THOT

2. GO TO STRAY KIDS CONCERT!!!!!!!! <3333 | 2022 INSHAALLAH

3. go to edc/escape halloween/umf korea ooOOhhh | LMAOOOOO

4. get scholarship every semester in hanyang university!!! MORE MORE MONEY | ONE SEMESTER RECEIVED!!!

5. i WILL get a korean boyfriend ;-) | try harder....

6. lose 10 kgs.....constantly 2 kgs/monthly.......eat healthy and constantly exercise! hal su isso!! | bitch really u should actually work on it

7. jaga solat everyday, recite Al-Waqiah, Al-Mulk, Al-Kahfi everyday. | still trying...

8. may i glow more in 2021 <3 be more happy <3 more self reward <3 self love <3 | alhamdulillah im grateful for what ive had in 2021

9. get prettier!! flawless <3333 using k-beauty products hiho | alhamdulillah!!

10. sit down, be humble -bang chan my husband 2020. always be grateful with blessings given by Allah, astaghfirullah | still trying..

11. never stop and keep going <3 to achieve what i want <3 | inshaallah

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alhamdulillah, im now in hanyang university, seoul, majoring in mechanical engineering.

alhamdulillah for everything that ive received throughout 2021, but only god knows what ive went through.. a lot of lessons and pain that ive went through all by myself.. a fresh heart learning to love, stepping in the adult life, but unfortunately someone broke it. lets not talk about him that much, bcs he doesnt deserve to even be talked about. yes, i did looked up to someone like him, i did think greatly of him, but turned out it was all a sham. it was fake. it was beyond my expectations. it was unreal. it started around april 2021, before mid terms, we went out that night strolling along jungnangcheon and cheonggyecheon.. it was fine, texted for days, went out at night, we hugged, held hands, said i love you to each other, but well, it was too good to be true anyways. the one i loved for so long actually became mine? wow. i thought it was that easy. but lol, he broke me. ghosted me just like that. i didnt give up, i tried again. i tried reaching back out to him, but it was still the same. it didnt result to a good end. apparently, he went back to his ex, but his ex ghosted him again i guess, then he found someone else, then he broke up again with her. ffs i dont even know what the fuck is wrong with him. his mind is not in a good state i can see that. but who the fuck cares now right? lantak ko la bodo. blocked him in every social i can see him. and we just un-know each other. good bye. ciao. i thought we were good friends since unikl, but turns out it was THAT easy to be betrayed on, it was that easy to be stepped on, well fuck you. still fuck you. i just hope nobody ends up with you because NOBODY ever deserves, to be treated as an option. i did hope someday he will come back to me but i take that back. I NEVER WOULD WANT TO SETTLE WITH SOMEONE LIKE HIM. EVER. and im sorry to myself, for letting my heart breaks, sorry for ever begging for someone’s love and affection when it’s not even your priority, im sorry for making myself look like such a pathetic young girl who’s BEGGING for somebody’s love and validation. that night i had anxiety for the 2nd time, i couldnt sleep, and i couldnt think, it was hard to breathe, i felt suffocated. it was so hard for me to actually think properly. im glad i went through all that. im glad it all ended. but i will never put myself in such situation again. ever. in my whole life. there’s no good in forcing things, there’s no good in liking and making the first moves, there’s no good in trying to get close to someone and call it effort when that person has no same feelings towards you. so just stop. its hard for me to even like someone else now. i just think that my heart’s closed off, i just think that nobody ever deserves my love and attention anyways, so why should i? all men are the same lol, trust them when they say that though. they ARE the same. from now on i would never ever try to even like somebody, because i just think that the best for me is not this hard to achieve.

i think it was early july that p-guy confessed to me pulak. aiyo. this one also the same. he confessed at the muhak yogo bus stop weh. hahahah lmao. i literally went silent i went speechless totally like i couldnt think. i never liked him. i never thought of him being my significant other. so yes, i’d never accept him though. he’s not my type. he has the looks, but i dont like his personality. totally not my type err. idk man. i dont even have a type anymore so. hahaha. i just dont get attracted to men that much anymore.

and now, since 16 september 2021, i knew mahmud hazique. he’s soft, he’s lowkey, humble, and good to me. he’s affectionate. he loves me. and i trust him. he loves me the way i want him to. he wants to heal my damage. he heard me cry. he knows my bad and my good. he wants me. he misses me. he’s funny too. he makes me laugh everytime i talk to him. he’s someone that i would never get sad with, he’s someone that i would always love laughing with. i honestly dont know where this would go but, i just hope, it all ends well for us. if we’re not destined to be together then, i hope the both of us, will get someone better. but i would always love him even if i’d end up with someone else. im always grateful for what he’s done to me. and im grateful that i found him. we still dont know the future, but im thankful that he’s there for me. i just hope it all ends up with the best, and the way i wanted. (yes i cried while writing this paragraph)

so thats the end of my 2021 heartbreak-love story. so now looking at my own self this year.. alhamdulillah for what ive achieved, cool friends, foreigner friends, korean friends, went to free trips, received a scholarship for the spring semester, alhamdulillah. i just hope for 2022, more rezeki would come to me. aamiin.

tbh, 2021 wasnt the best year, but ive had lots of ups and downs. maybe bcs im stepping into the adult life. handle rumah sendiri, paying bills by myself, sewa rumah naik 70k, bil gas mahal, bil elektrik mahal, penatnya. banyaknya nak guna duit kat korea ni. honestly its hard, even when im under mara scholarship. its not enough. im just hoping and praying that i get scholarship every semester and i hope that everything goes well for the rest of the years of living in seoul. im just looking forward to gain more experiences and know more people. looking forward to try new things, ticking off my bucket lists, and i hope Allah gives me the strength to kuatkan iman and my taqwa to Allah whilst studying here. ive seen so many temptations to do this and that, even there are seniors who actually ‘tried’ things but i just pray that i can still control myself, bcs i want redha Allah. as long as Allah redha, i will always receive the best things in life. insha Allah. aamiiin. may Allah avoid me from all maksiat, and all bad things and actions that are prone and near to me. may Allah guide me and keep me in the right path. because i really need your blessings ya Allah. humble me through life, help me achieve what i want, give me the signs when i do bad or good, guide me through the hardships and difficulties that i’ll be facing. panjangkan umur kedua ibu bapa dan keluarga ku, murahkan rezeki mereka, ampunkanlah dosa dosa mereka. moga Allah redha.

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from-aina-to-zulaikha · 3 years

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2021 new year resolutions

1. MEET STRAY KIDS IN PERSON <3333

2. GO TO STRAY KIDS CONCERT!!!!!!!! <3333

3. go to edc/escape halloween/umf korea ooOOhhh

4. get scholarship every semester in hanyang university!!! MORE MORE MONEY

5. i WILL get a korean boyfriend ;-)

6. lose 10 kgs.....constantly 2 kgs/monthly.......eat healthy and constantly exercise! hal su isso!!

7. jaga solat everyday, recite Al-Waqiah, Al-Mulk, Al-Kahfi everyday.

8. may i glow more in 2021 <3 be more happy <3 more self reward <3 self love <3

9. get prettier!! flawless <3333 using k-beauty products hiho

10. sit down, be humble -bang chan my husband 2020. always be grateful with blessings given by Allah, astaghfirullah

11. never stop and keep going <3 to achieve what i want <3

a note to 2021 aina: it doesnt matter if things go rough, if you dont get what you want, remember that you are already at the best place. you already are thriving. remember that you can do anything. effort is always the key. along with doa, Allah will provide to you what you want. be happy always princess.

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