hope this isn't super odd to say but i always appreciate the feeling i get while scrolling through your blog and seeing your posts. it's the "vibe" i get i guess?
it's difficult to put into words but i could compare it to how it feels to be outside in my favorite type of weather. a pleasantly cool day with a gentle breeze. cloudy but not humid or rainy. could wear most outfits and probably be pretty comfortable. a day where it feels just a little easier to breathe.
idk if i'm making any sense, very sorry if not lol. but yeah uh the tldr is i like your vibes and seeing you around makes my brain go YIPPEE!
That’s really really sweet of you to say and I’m flattered. Thank you
Hi Blue. I'm currently waiting for a thrash metal show to begin and can't wait to get in the pit. Also there's a tornado watch going on so that's extra fun!!! Hope you have a good night.
That honestly sounds so amazing I wish I was there. Have fun!
oh also! as someone trying to actively work on my art and then put it out in the world it's super fun to see you getting into drawing! anything you've worked on lately?
Aw thank you. All I’ve been able to do lately is sketch but I’m still happy that I’m sketching. You know? These drawings still hold a lot of emotion for me. It’s a good outlet
your addiction recovery has been a bit of a spark of hope for me. I'm a functional alcoholic. a few people close to me have mentioned that i "drink a bit much", but they dont know the extent. I can still keep up appearances, but the cracks are starting to show. I know alcohol is not as dangerous as the stuff you used to have, but it reassuring to see someone else make that turnaround and how open youve been about the struggle to resist. I feel like I'm either going to fuck everything up or find a way to recover soon. all I know is that the scales are going to weigh one way or the other soon cause they wont stay still much longer
Hey hey hey. First of all. I strongly disagree with the notion that alcohol isn’t as dangerous as drugs. Even the drugs I was on. Even heroin and meth. Let me tell you I was in rehab with dozens and dozens of alcoholics and their stories were just as brutal as mine. Alcoholism kills and the withdrawal is brutal and I just wanna say that first because I don’t want you undermining your own demons in comparison with mine
That aside. I feel you. I really do. I was able to keep the mask on for a long long time when I was using. I still had a job, still graduated college, still kept up appearances well enough that my loved ones didn’t know what was happening until I hit my breaking point and everything started going nuts
It’s a lonely and scary place to be. I’m sorry you’re there right now. But it’s good you recognize it. It’s important that you recognize that there is a problem
Obviously I encourage you to get help and seek recovery but also I know that’s a lot. And I know it took me a long time and a lot of relapses to get here. Remember that too. Relapses happen
I don’t know how much you’re drinking but be careful if you ever plan on going cold turkey. The withdrawal is genuinely dangerous and you may need to either ween yourself or seek medical detox
what’s your favorite adventure time song? Just finished watching the main series for the 3rd time, 1st for my partner so it’s on my mind and Finn always makes me think of you now :]
aw that’s sweet thank you …..
My fave song is a Finn song! “What Am I To You?/My Best Friends In The World”