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Can small jimmy and tango have a little tea party? :))

Day 81: smol tea party 😌

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more and more of the hermits videos feature like. wandering packs of roaming hermits in groups of 2-4 as they go and bother each other, and it brings me SO much joy.

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anyone know what kind of frog this is? sorry i stacked them

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my number one skill is being sooo cute and my number two skill is the ancient curse

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when I see something dated 2019 I think “oh that’s not too long ago” and then I remember that 2019 was not only five years ago but those five years have somehow contained several lifetimes

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Not to be a Boomer but your social media should be your own space, not something employers are allowed to look at to judge you beyond the qualifications stated in your resume and cover letter

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Had a thought: Grian, if we go with his common fan-interpretation as an avian (i.e. a bird-human hybrid of some variety), wouldn’t have an instinctual fear of heights the same way humans do (because humans + heights = danger of death). For a fully-grown avian, there is no danger. They can fly. Even young ones wouldn’t have much of an awareness of any inherent risk, in the way that toddlers have no concept of their own mortality and give adults heart attacks all the time. 

Now imagine Avian Grian in Third Life, his wings bound or made inaccessible in some way to put him on even footing with everyone else. Maybe he doesn’t even remember he has them. Think of how, in a world where death is around every corner, he doesn’t have the same awareness of risk that his compatriots do. Falls are one of the most common causes of injury, and even a sprained ankle could cause some serious issues in a death game. 

Maybe he made Scar scared for him with his unawareness. It’s so natural to Scar to be aware of heights, and Grian is just not. Is just different.

Maybe he got confused the first time he took fall damage, having expected - something else. He doesn’t know what, but something.

Maybe he saw that crevice in the desert that Scar died in and it just didn’t register. 

And maybe, even at the end, at the edge of that cliff, his instincts wouldn’t let him feel afraid. Maybe he tipped over, knowing that his death was coming, but unable to even touch base with that natural fear all living beings share. Unfeeling.

Maybe he felt a bit like a monster for it.

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I think the saddest part about secret life Joel is just how futile all of his actions are in that season. On a surface level i mean stuff like all of his more careful gameplay being cancelled out by a singular failed tnt trap but on a deeper level i specifically mean how that character contrasts with last life Joel. Joel is undoubtedly at his lowest point in the life series in Last Life. He goes down to red in session 2 and spends the majority of the rest of the season alone (and when he does have allies it’s only bc of a shared bloodlust). The red bloodlust completely takes over and this festers for nearly *8 sessions*. Not only that but the one time he is given a chance to restart and go back to yellow his old alliance member goes to red, leaving him alone again, and he is made boogeyman the next session. This, overall, has lasting consequences (he actually wanted to be fairly friendly at the beginning of LL, a stark contrast to how bloodthirsty he was at the beginning of DL or Lim L), and gained him a reputation that has never fully gone away. This is especially bad bc most people agree that LL was the most violent season (despite the lower kill counts in comparison to LimL) and was generally the worst and most traumatizing experience in the games for most people involved. Compare this to secret life, which everyone agrees was definitely the happiest season for Joel (or at least the most normal. His life is a tragedy no matter the season.) he has allies that (for the most part rip mumbo) stick with him until the end, he is friendlier with a larger group of people, and when he initially has to deal with the loss of some of them he has people who can ground him (bc as much as I adore the bad boys, grian was not qualified to do that). He was so hopeful that season, and was generally in a much healthier place mentally. And yet, despite how much he seemed to have grown, those 2 seasons ended so similarly for him it was almost comical. Joel engaged in a fight at the end, watched his ally get killed by scott, and is then forced into a 2v1 against Scott and another player that results in Scott taking his final life and him finishing 5th overall. I was describing both of those seasons here. After everything he did to grow, after all the improvements he had made, everything ended *exactly the same*

Making this about the bad boys for a second (because I’m me) they kinda suffer similar fates. Grian learned in the most tragic way possible that his allies were doomed to fail as long as he was with them no matter what, that this was not something that he could control by simply avoiding killing them himself. Even when he actively tries to save them (“let Tim do it he needs the time” “Joel you can kill me!”) he’ll still lose them in the end. I think this realization is also what made him stop trying to fight it, which resulted in him killing or almost killing his allies from previous seasons immediately afterwards (stabbing scar in the back and that one scene where grian kinda ominously jumps with a sword like he was about to crit and kill bigb after finding out he had 50 seconds left on his timer). It’s sorta like a way of telling the universe “fine. You win”

Similarly Jimmy. Well. I don’t think I need to explain that one. Even when he was given hope that things could be different, that he could break the curse, he died only a few minutes later. I still hold on to the narrative that the watchers only allowed that to happen to give Jimmy false hope that things can be different only to rip the rug out from under him and drive home the point that he is in a losing battle because by the time of secret life Jimmy was one of the only few people who genuinely still believed he had a chance. Obviously this is not something that can fully be a reality until he goes out first next season so if he doesn’t that’s a little awkward but just work with me here

TLDR; here is reason number 672 on why I believe the bad boys are the most doomed motherfuckers on this server and their alliance is a modern tragedy

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anxious pringles man

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Height gap romance except the shorter one is frequently depicted in situations where they are contextually taller. The taller one sitting while the shorter one looms over them. Both of them lying in bed with the taller one’s head pressed to the shorter one’s chest. The shorter one straddling the taller one’s lap and leaning down for a kiss. The taller one on their knees as the shorter one tilts their head up. Please, it makes me go feral

#ethubs ♡ #(<- prev yeah <3)

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Watching Tango from Tango’s perspective is like “yeah redstone! Yeah cool steampunk builds! Yeah friends!”

Watching Tango from anyone else’s perspective is like watching a wacky cartoon character placed into the real world and given no instructions.

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the one issue about the hermit post system is that when you receive mail, the shulker box doesn't state who sent the mail, unless the sender wrote their name down on a piece of paper. because of this, hermits are able to frame other hermits by sending mail using another hermit's name, while the real sender is left anonymous.

while joel is away in japan for two weeks, it's a perfect time for pranking!.....etho

-on stream, cleo said that they are planning on filling joel's mailbox with love confessions from etho. for example, "this made me think of you" and "do you like me? check yes or no."

-someone left a "love joel x" sign at iskall's base. as a response, iskall is spamming joel's mailbox with love letters and flowers, saying "hi x" and "thinking about you x". the thing is... iskall didn't leave his name on any of the notes he sent.

alongside cleo's love confessions from etho, it is very likely that joel will think iskall's love letters are also from etho. it's boutta be the "joel xo" and etho statues all over again

anyways, the hermits are having too much fun with the mail system, which is great because pearl, etho, and tango worked really hard on it. all i know is that when joel comes back online, he's gonna have a big surprise waiting for him lol

#wait what do you mean iskall hasn’t been signing his name huh 😭😭 #like i knew about the letters but 😭😭😭 my man oh my god #this is gonna be a mess i can’t wait

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I huave to go home.

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"people in real life: hey man how's it going" is a killer phrase. instantly neutralizes whatever insane discourse you find online. gonna start using that from now on

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It’s fine because I’m actually using a secret technique called writing it in my head and nowhere else.

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You'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling

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in the desert again