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“In Vietnamese, the word for missing someone and remembering them is the same: nhớ. Sometimes, when you ask me over the phone, Con nhớ mẹ không? I flinch, thinking you meant, Do you remember me?

I miss you more than I remember you.”

— Ocean Vuong, On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous

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I WANNA BE SOMEONES FAVORITE FRIEND OR FAVORITE PERSON OR SOMETHING LIKE HOW COOL WOULD THAT BE

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I really can’t picture anyone having a crush on me.

I can’t picture someone thinking about me before they fall asleep.

I can’t picture anyone getting butterflies in their stomach because I said hi to them or just smiled at them.

I can’t picture someone smiling at a computer screen or a cell phone when we’re talking.

I can’t picture anyone taking me on dates, or to special places just for us.

I can’t picture anyone loving my company so much they’d want to live with me.

I can’t picture anyone loving me so much they’d want to marry me.

I can’t picture anyone loving me so much they’d want children with me.

I mean like…why would anyone ever do that…

I’m just me..

Maybe at some point I did…but not anymore..

that person didn’t love me the way I loved them…I haven’t felt loved in a long time…and I don’t think I ever will again…

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Dandadan, ダンダダン by tatsu yukinobu.

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Dear diary... (Trigger warning)

I wish I had a button, to just delete myself instantly...

To just disappear, without the agony and pain that comes with death...

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Just because you don’t understand my emotions, that doesn’t give you the right to treat me like shit.

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I’m sorry for being so paranoid

I’m sorry for being so afraid of everything

I know it’s annoying

I’m sorry

I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry

Please don’t abandon me!

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“I feel like clawing my heart out and throwing it away.”

— i don’t want it anymore

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Yeah, I may be ugly and stupid and awkward and annoying- *starts crying* and worthless and useless and disgusting and