grimmhavens

[grimmhavens]

🦆

I found the duck :^)

#mineshaft feed #afieldoftrust

[grimmhavens]

I won’t tell you what to believe, but I will tell you that as far as I know, I AM selfish, and sure I’m conceited too, but I’m doing that paperwork, and the cleaning, and stocking the kitchen for you until you figure out a way to keep me the hell out of your HQ and your mineshaft. I don’t have a right to do those things, but I’m gonna fucking do it anyways because I want to.

But I won’t tell you what you do and don’t deserve, not again I guess.

Llyr we live underground. There is probably SO much dust, and possibly chewed up paper. Warden, is the kitchen stocked?? I'll check on that too, uuurggghhh

it’s not actually that dusty.

#mineshaft feed #Fucking whatever knows what I am now #You don't know me and neither do I #good luck keeping me out.

[grimmhavens]

I know. 

Just because I haven’t been here doesn’t mean that it’s suddenly you don’t deserve it, you never did. It just means we did fuckall to stop it from happening. And because I’m frankly the biggest asshole of all of us.

Llyr we live underground. There is probably SO much dust, and possibly chewed up paper. Warden, is the kitchen stocked?? I'll check on that too, uuurggghhh

it’s not actually that dusty.

#mineshaft feed #and forgive me #or not #but I'm taking one more selfish act #and I'm going to help regardless #because it's what I want #regardless of what you do

[grimmhavens]

That’s.. fair. 

And nah, I’ve been homeless for like 5 months now. I mean I could maybe build a new one, I like how those spanish style houses, but besides that, the mineshaft is home, that was just a house in the woods. And I’m an admin too, you know? You shouldn’t have to be the only one doing your job, you don’t deserve that burden.

Llyr we live underground. There is probably SO much dust, and possibly chewed up paper. Warden, is the kitchen stocked?? I'll check on that too, uuurggghhh

it’s not actually that dusty.

#mineshaft feed #I think I promised that I wouldn't drift away. #Everything is so hard to remember #but if I did #did I break it?? #I want to at least try to keep it. #It's the one kind thing left that I can do.

[grimmhavens]

Shower thoughts except I’m not in a shower, what if the cafeteria had a subway. 

I might be a little hungry.

#mineshaft feed #hmmmmm #sandwhich.

[grimmhavens]

ren what the fuck

was anyone gonna tell me washing machines are meant for clothes or was i gonna have to learn that all on my own

#mineshaft feed #aren't you way older than me? #WHY DIDNT YOU JUST TAKE A BATH OR HOP IN A RIVER OR STREAM??

[grimmhavens]

I will do that, I have not been to the town in a very long time.

You know I’m heading into town anyway to pick up something for the greenhouse wanna tag along? - Raeva

(enthusiastically) yes yes yes yes yes yes

#mineshaft feed

[grimmhavens]

You know I’m heading into town anyway to pick up something for the greenhouse wanna tag along? - Raeva

(enthusiastically) yes yes yes yes yes yes

#mineshaft feed #I will eavesdrop and hear so many things

[grimmhavens]

The girls are fighting againnnnnn /gn 

...

Anyways, I need to find something to do with myself, I feel like rock getting worn away to sediment sitting idle here.

#mineshaft feed #I'm about to start going into town and eavesdropping on gossiping teenagers for enrichment #Kind of weird how I miss life being hectic

[grimmhavens]

what have you been up to recently?

Paperwork and documentaries, trying to keep busy now and like.. not walloe.

#mineshaft feed

[grimmhavens]

Yeah. I shouldn’y disappeared, I’m incredibly sorry about that.

 I can help with any paperwork in a language I can understand, I was kind of. Face down in a field for a while. Raeva said it was 3 months or more I think? 

Is something wrong? What did dave do?

-Grimm

all of the paperwork notes tick left behind are in a language i’ve never seen before and cannot get any kind of results on through research. what the actual fuck.

[grimmhavens]

Maybe I could use some social interaction, so sure.

Hi long time no see Grimm -Raeva

Oh, hi raeva.

Uh, I guess it has been a while? A couple of months? I kind of lost track. My comm is surprisingly NOT super dead.

#server carg #afieldofrust #I'll message you my coords

[grimmhavens]

If they’re bringing back the color theory we should bring back ALL the good memes ………………..slime man

[grimmhavens]

Im fine, still very immortal so no death here. Kinda bored though. I think I went into a sort of hibernation state for a little bit so that nice, woke up with plants growin on me though.

Hi long time no see Grimm -Raeva

Oh, hi raeva.

Uh, I guess it has been a while? A couple of months? I kind of lost track. My comm is surprisingly NOT super dead.

#server carg #afieldoftrust

[grimmhavens]

Oh haha yeah um-

Ive actually been just laying in a field this entire time- its been as good as that can be though.

Hi long time no see Grimm -Raeva

Oh, hi raeva.

Uh, I guess it has been a while? A couple of months? I kind of lost track. My comm is surprisingly NOT super dead.

#server carg #afieldofrust

[grimmhavens]

Hi long time no see Grimm -Raeva

Oh, hi raeva.

Uh, I guess it has been a while? A couple of months? I kind of lost track. My comm is surprisingly NOT super dead.

#server carg #afieldoftrust

[grimmhavens]

Ploink

>open your eyes

It’s raining in the field. A frog just hopped into the puddle nearby. It looks to be enjoying itself. You rouse a bit, and notice plants have started to grow around you, some even wrapping around you.

How long have you been out here, weeks? months? You hadn’t been roused once by your communicator, and you know that you neglected to mute it. 

>It briefly crosses your mind that it was either dead or that no one even noticed you were gone.

You’ve no idea how you feel about that notion. And in all honesty you don’t know how you’d go back, shame and confusion blazes in your gut like a pyre after however long you’ve been out here stuck in your own head. Thinking.

The beginning, crown, those first nights where everything was so tense and everyone was growing to know one another- HQ. The mineshaft. Jack, Dave, Donti, Ren, Jay, Kate, Llyr, Syd, and everyone-- 

>Jack

You don’t think you were ever actually close to him in any way. But even he ended up taken right? even he left. 

>Dave

Dave hates you. Dave fucking hates you so much and honestly you don’t blame him. Why would he like you?

>Donti

Ah. You’re certain you’re never going to see them again, you hope that they’re happy. You hope.

>Ren

Oh warden, Ren. They hate you too, you wish they didn’t but how could you say anything after what you did. Of course they hate you, they should they should they should! Nothing you can do can fix that. 

>Jay

You really don’t want to think about it. You don’t. You never even gave them the gift you made, they’ll probably never get it now either.

>Kate

Hopefully Kate feels better, and that they come back but after what happened with syd you have your doubts that she will. At least somniloquy is gone. 

>Llyr

They remind you of the original warden now. Not the- not the anger- the tiredness and exhaustion. You remember arc being so bright and happy at one point. You remember a lot of people being like that despite everything. You should have tried to help somehow. Did you promise arc something? If you did, you’ve certainly broke it. 

>Syd.

Oh how heavy it weighs on your mind. Arguably one of the first who felt family, and the one you’ve been in denial about. You held out hope for so long but day by day it dwindled. Syd isn’t going to come back. Syd is gone. 

>blink

What are you going to do with yourself, you idiot? Most of the only people that are left HATE you. You’re certain you don’t even like yourself now either.

Oh.

Oh.

...

When have you ever?

#mineshaft feed #lowkey #TW self hatred #tw self deprecation #an organization of how crimm feels about everything #and theirself #wherever they are. #server carg