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Charlie Heaton, As You Are BTS

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Charlie on drums with The Shadowboxers covering the 1975

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n1rvanal1ves​:

Jack wasn’t as fast as Mark by a LONGSHOT. He tried to keep up as the two ran, but it was u s e l e s s. Jack looked around as they ran, recognizing the area. It was far away from the school, and there wasn’t a person in SIGHT. Perfect place to get blazed and talk.

He finally made it to the bleachers, collapsing to one of the seats. He flipped Mark the bird, laying back and looking at the b r i g h t, BLUE SKY. It was perfect weather; not too hot, and not too cold. Perfect.

Jack looked over to Mark, a smile on his face and an eyebrow raised. “Is this the something SPECIAL? Bleachers?” He fucked with him, grinning and shaking his head.

     Mark had already  h a p h a z a r d l y  tossed his bag to the side, a light thump across the metal benches. Its not like there was much in there, a notebook or two. Maybe a pen. His board was still at his dad’s house, otherwise he would have brought it.

     Not soon after, he’d DUG into the outer pocket, pulled out an old tin, and settled himself onto one of the seats. Supplies in lap. He’s already got a couple joints rolled, from last night, stashed away until now. And one that was rather large too, which he took out.

     “No-  a s s h o l e , ”  a roll of the eyes as he kicked out in Jack’s direction, not close enough to make impact. The thinly, pristinely, rolled paper is pinched between fingers and brought up to his lips, the other hand flicking the lighter as Mark got it started. Once the tip was a glowing ember, and a soft smoke began to drift, he held it out to the other boy, a smirk lifting across Mark’s lips. “HERE.”

#n1rvanal1ves #| . good hadn’t been in a long time ; v. winter’s dream . | #;; first time cut #drugs tw #drug use tw #drugs mention tw #marijuana tw #Smoking tw

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Mark was skin and bones. But he was f a s t . He'd always been. Better for running away from all the assholes that weren't too keen about his impulsive REMARKS.

Soon enough, they'd made it to the edge of the schoolgrounds, out by the field, where a w e a k set of bleachers sat on the perimeter. It was late fall, and he knew none of the phys ed classes would DARE to come outside. Not particularly gloomy or rainy. But still a cool, overcast day.

Mark jumped up to the first couple rises with a c l a n g of thick boots upon the metal. Then turned, waiting for the other to catch up. "GOD, you're so fuckin' slow!" He called out with exaggerated annoyance.

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“My mom is always home, asshole.” Jack replied with a l a u g h as he was shoved backwards. He supposed he was right, though. If they only did it a few times, they’d be fine. Just one class…right? Besides; this was Mark he was with. Everything would be fine. He trusted him (maybe a bit too m u c h).

A LAUGH left Jack once they stepped outside, Mark’s gesture making him GRIN. He shrugged his backpack off to one shoulder, looking around and just BREATHING in the f r e s h summer air. He looked to Mark (he looked really, REALLY nice in the sunlight), tilting his head some. “So…what now?” He asked as they walked, dragging his feet as the school got further and further away from them.

“Don’t worry about it, DUMBASS,” Mark teased, giving another friendly shove, only this time from his elbow and in to the other’s side. Then bouncing around behind Jack, taking him by the shoulders and directing him forwards.

“Oh, just you WAIT,” he grinned a wide goofy grin. “I’ve got something s p e c i a l for you,” and then he’s running forwards, feet itching to get off of the school grounds. Or at least far enough away from the building that they wouldn’t be noticed.

#n1rvanal1ves #| . good hadn’t been in a long time ; v. winter’s dream . | #;; first time cut #{ mobile . }

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loverslanetm​:

She gave a soft smile at his joke , she could see how swollen his eyes looked….he probably was crying. Not that she would mention it to the other. “ Yeah the music’s not…my style also..way too loud” She then closes the door behind her as she steps in. “ My Cousin convinced me to come…but i don’t think i’m made to enjoy parties.” She sits down on a chair that stood in the corner of the room to give the other some space. “ I’m Kim..by the way.”

     Eyes quickly dart away - and down. She’s staring at him. And Mark can feel it. She’s probably judging the rough red edges of his eyes - even without the crying, he’d had enough weed to make them swollen. A head ducks over to glance back to the door, now shut, and the ramble of a party happening on the other side. “Mhm,” he nodded, nonchalantly, still keeping up the act. “ ... who’s your cousin?” As if he’d know them. Mark hardly knew anyone. “Um ... Mark,” he finally replied back, a hand coaxing rough strewn hair to flatten. And stay hanging over his face.

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“My mom is always home, asshole.” Jack replied with a l a u g h as he was shoved backwards. He supposed he was right, though. If they only did it a few times, they’d be fine. Just one class…right? Besides; this was Mark he was with. Everything would be fine. He trusted him (maybe a bit too m u c h).

A LAUGH left Jack once they stepped outside, Mark’s gesture making him GRIN. He shrugged his backpack off to one shoulder, looking around and just BREATHING in the f r e s h summer air. He looked to Mark (he looked really, REALLY nice in the sunlight), tilting his head some. “So…what now?” He asked as they walked, dragging his feet as the school got further and further away from them.

"Don't worry about it, DUMBASS," Mark teased, giving another friendly shove, only this time from his elbow and in to the other's side. Then bouncing around behind Jack, taking him by the shoulders and directing him forwards.

"Oh, just you WAIT," he grinned a wide goofy grin. "I've got something s p e c i a l for you," and then he's running forwards, feet itching to get off of the school grounds. Or at least far enough away from the building that they wouldn't be noticed.

#n1rvanal1ves #| . good hadn’t been in a long time ; v. winter’s dream . | #;; first time cut

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                         ❛ but tonight, you belong to me ❜

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"Only if someone's HOME to answer," he shrugged. And even then, his dad - when home - would be too p i s s e d drunk to answer. Probably unplug the phone. "And besides," he continued with an uncaring shrug, "they only really call if you do it like ... A LOT of times." How should he know? Plenty of experience.

Mark laughed again, stopping his stride briefly, only to shove Jack b a c k w a r d s teasingly. And then he was backing up into the door, pushing it open. An outstretched arm to beckon and welcome Jack into FREEDOM. Eyes quinting out into the morning glare of sun. Ah, fresh air. Soon to be replaced in his lungs by the sweet d e s i r e of Marijuana leaves.

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“No way, you’re a fucking liar!” Jack said as him and Mark walked through the halls of the school. “That’s not even their best song, and you know it.” He said, but a dumb s m i l e was still plastered on his face. He loved bickering with Mark about anything, really; music, film, who’s shirt is who’s. He loved all of it.

As the two got to their first period class, Jack began to turn, but noticed that Mark kept walking forward. Eyebrows furrowed, he caught up with him, looking around as students went to class. “You passed our class, Mark.” He pointed out, nudging him some. They were heading towards the exit. Where were they going?

#n1rvanal1ves #| . good hadn’t been in a long time ; v. winter’s dream . | #;; first time cut #{ mobile . } #[ bout to head off to bed #so replying from my phone #bc i cant resist these doofuses ^-^ ] #drug ment tw #marijuana tw #drugs mention tw #drug use tw

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@noblecide​​ :     [ 📞 ] ‘ hang on, i’m coming to get you. ’

     “I- I just-” Just  n o t h i n g .  He had no more excuses. The story was always the same. And by now, Tate knew it all too well. For himself, too. A shaky hand tried to keep the phone still, up against sweaty hair and sticky skin. His heart is pounding FAST within his chest. And he’s still jittery,  o n  e d g e  .  “Don’t- ... don’t come HERE.” he stated, finally. Unable to say it before. “I’ll ... I’ll meet you at the skate park.” It was better that way. S a f e r  that way.

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     Mark couldn’t help himself but just  LAUGH  at Jack’s expense. The overexasperated effort of opinion. Mark loved to see the other get riled up, especially over the most  s t u p i d  things. Really, PROVOKING  anyone was kind of his thing, the only way to get the attention he was constantly seeking. The attention he was constantly refused. At least with Jack it was a less toxic interaction than the  u n d e s i r a b l e  audiences Mark usually sought out.

     Sneakers spin on the toe, a SQUEAK sent across the hard tiled hall floor as he spun around to face Jack now, continuing backwards with little effort. But an unusual bounce in his step. “Uh, yeah-”  d u h .  Mark nodded, a furrowed shift of eyes, assuming Jack was joking. 

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“No way, you’re a fucking liar!” Jack said as him and Mark walked through the halls of the school. “That’s not even their best song, and you know it.” He said, but a dumb s m i l e was still plastered on his face. He loved bickering with Mark about anything, really; music, film, who’s shirt is who’s. He loved all of it.

As the two got to their first period class, Jack began to turn, but noticed that Mark kept walking forward. Eyebrows furrowed, he caught up with him, looking around as students went to class. “You passed our class, Mark.” He pointed out, nudging him some. They were heading towards the exit. Where were they going?

#n1rvanal1ves #| . good hadn’t been in a long time ; v. winter’s dream . | #;; first time cut

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SOFT(ish) ANGST PROMPTS

“  i thought you were gone.  for good. ”

“  you left and—  i thought you weren’t coming back.  ”

“  i miss you.  i know i’m not supposed to,  but.  i just had to see you.  ”  

“  please don’t scare me like that again.  i can take a lot of things,  but not losing you.  ”

“  i can’t even take the very thought of you getting hurt.  ”

“  you could’ve gotten yourself killed! you could’ve— fuck!  you scared the shit outta me.  ” 

“  yes.  i am telling you what to do.  i’m telling you not to pull something like that again because—  ‘cause fucking hell.  i care about you.  okay? ”  

“  i found myself driving home and then.  well i was on my way here.  ‘cause i guess…you’re still my home.  ” 

“  please,  tell me why you’re upset.  tell me who did this?  ”

“  you don’t have to come over here and take care of me you know.  i can clean up my own messes.  ”

“  don’t talk.  just get the fuck over here and hold me.  ”

“  loving you is like having my heart just out in the world.  outside of my body walking around.  every time i see you hurting,  it kills me.  ”

“  i made you cry.  and i hate myself for that.  i swore i wouldn’t be one of the people who left you hurting.  ”

“  you really hurt me this time.  but i want to let go of that.  i really do want to forgive you i’m just scared you’ll hurt me again.  ”

“  i know you’re mad at me right now,  but i’m the one who’s here.  let me be here.  let me help.  you can be angry later.  ”

“  i’m here now.  i know i wasn’t before.  but i should’ve been.  and i’m not going anywhere.  i’m not gonna let that happen again.  ”

“  it’s time to come home now.  ”

“  that’s enough.  you’ve got your revenge.  let’s go.  ”

“  i know you’re hurting.  and i can’t fix that.  but i can refuse to let you hurt alone.  ”

“  i’m never letting go of you.  i missed you so fucking much.  ”

“  look at me,  you’re safe.  and you’re not alone.  and i’ll never let you be alone again.  you understand?  ”

“  i broke my promise to you once.  i’ll never do it again.  ”

“  i don’t need you to go white knighting and fix all this.  i just want you here.  with me.  that will make me feel better.  ”

“  just stay still and let me hold you.  ”

“  you don’t have to hide your tears.  let it out.  then we’ll move on,  together.  ”

“  i just.  needed to talk to you ‘cause.  somehow you always know what to say.  ”

“  don’t bury your feelings.  sadness.  hurt.  rage.  feel it.  acknowledge it so you can decide what you want to do with it.  not what it will do to you.  ”

“  i miss your smile.  and not that sad one you try to fool everyone with.  the real one.  the one you used to show me.  ”

“  come here.  i’m taking care of you tonight.  and you’re gonna let me.  ”  

1) our muses reunite after sender thought receiver was dead. 

2) our muses reunite after receiver thought sender was dead. 

3) sender shows up at receiver’s house drunk after they’ve broken up. 

4) receiver shows up at sender’s house drunk after they’ve broken up. 

5) our muses are on bad terms but reunite after one of them nearly dies. 

6) sender finds receiver crying and approaches,  clearing the tears with their hands while demanding to know what happened. 

7) receiver finds sender crying and approaches,  clearing the tears with their hands while demanding to know what happened. 

8) our muses haven’t been speaking,  but sender rushes to take care of receiver after they’ve been injured or fell ill. 

9) our muses haven’t been speaking,  but receiver rushes to take care of sender after they’ve been injured or fell ill. 

10) sender hurt receiver in some way,  which led to receiver doing something reckless and sender shows up to stop them/or deal with the aftermath. 

11) receiver hurt sender in some way,  which led to sender doing something reckless and receiver shows up to stop them/or deal with the aftermath.

12) our muses are in a fight,  but cuddle anyway because they don’t like sleeping alone. 

13) receiver wakes sender from a nightmare. 

14) sender wakes receiver from a nightmare. 

15) sender wakes up in the hospital and finds receiver at their side,  who is in the same clothes as the day they were admitted because they’ve refused to leave their side. 

16) receiver wakes up in the hospital and finds sender at their side,  who is in the same clothes as the day they were admitted because they’ve refused to leave their side. 

17) our muses are currently on the outs,  but receiver goes through something traumatic and sender pushes past their friends to get to them. 

18) our muses are currently on the outs,  but sender goes through something traumatic and receiver pushes past their friends to get to them. 

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An Extremely Self-Indulgent Meme

Physical prompts based around some of my favorite tropes / physical actions in threads. Send this   + reverse   to change which muse does which action.

tw for implied violence in some

❰❰ PIN ❱❱ sender pins receiver during a fight/training

❰❰ HURT ❱❱ sender is hurt protecting receiver

❰❰ CARRY ❱❱ sender carries receiver bridal style

❰❰ LIFT ❱❱ sender carries receiver over their shoulder

❰❰ MEDIC ❱❱ sender bandages receiver’s wounds

❰❰ SUPPORT ❱❱ sender comforts receiver after a loss / traumatic event

❰❰ THREAT ❱❱ sender holds a weapon up to receiver as a threat

❰❰ SAVE ❱❱ sender saves receiver’s life

❰❰ CRY ❱❱ sender cries in front of receiver

❰❰ DANCE ❱❱ sender invites receiver to slow dance

❰❰ HAND KISS ❱❱ sender kisses receiver on the hand or wrist

❰❰ CHEEK KISS ❱❱ sender kisses receiver on the cheek

❰❰ HEAD KISS ❱❱ sender kisses receiver on the forehead

❰❰ EMBRACE ❱❱ sender embraces receiver

❰❰ HANDS ❱❱ sender’s fingers graze the receiver’s fingers

❰❰ CUDDLE ❱❱ our muses cuddle

❰❰ BED ❱❱ our muses share a bed

❰❰ BRUSH ❱❱ sender plays with / brushes receiver’s hair

❰❰ GAZE ❱❱ our muses make extended eye contact

❰❰ ALMOST ❱❱ our muses almost kiss but don’t or are interrupted before they do

❰❰ ARGUE ❱❱ sender ends an argument with receiver with a kiss

❰❰ ARM ❱❱ sender puts their arm around receiver

❰❰ PULL ❱❱ sender pulls receiver close to them

❰❰ BACK ❱❱ sender touches receiver on the back

❰❰ SHOULDER ❱❱ sender touches receiver on the shoulder

❰❰ LEAN ❱❱ sender leans against receiver

❰❰ CARESS ❱❱ sender caresses the receiver’s cheek

❰❰ HAIR ❱❱ sender pushes receiver’s hair away from their face

❰❰ TILT ❱❱ sender tilts the receiver’s chin with their hand

❰❰ CHIN ❱❱ sender tilts the receiver’s chin with their weapon

❰❰ LEG ❱❱ sender’s leg touches the receiver’s leg under the table

❰❰ FOOD ❱❱ sender feeds the receiver

❰❰ WALL ❱❱ sender pushes the receiver against a wall

❰❰ FREE ❱❱ sender frees the receiver from restraints

❰❰ TACKLE ❱❱ sender hugs the receiver so hard they almost fall over / do fall over

❰❰ DYING ❱❱ sender finds the receiver near death

❰❰ PANIC ❱❱ sender comforts the receiver as they have a panic attack or get overstimulated

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things said: assortment.

a meme about things said in a variety of situations, for when you want to get that feeling. some light trigger warnings apply for implications of death, injury, arguments, pregnancy, and sexual situations. 

things said: in the moment.

❝ i will never forgive you! ❞

❝ we have to go! we have to go now! ❞

❝ why can’t you see that all i want is you?! ❞

❝ you have entirely bewitched me. ❞

❝ get out of my sight! ❞

❝ i slept with someone else. ❞

❝ come here. ❞

❝ you are terrible and awful and perfectly horrid and – and mine. ❞

❝ it never meant anything to me anyway. ❞

❝ you broke my soul, ___. ❞

❝ i regret every moment that we spent together. ❞

❝ hate me as much as you wish, ___, but i will never stop loving you. ❞

❝ then marry me, for god’s sake! ❞

❝ now look what you have done! ❞

❝ i despise you! ❞

❝ what the fuck does it matter what they think? you’re the only one i love! ❞

❝ there’s no time for this! ❞

things said: the morning after.

❝ thank you for staying with me, last night. ❞

❝ mmmh, i think i’ll stay here for a little while longer. ❞

❝ i don’t want to get up just yet. ❞

❝ breakfast in bed? gosh, i am lucky. ❞

❝ beside you, i slept better than i ever have on my own. ❞

❝ i liked what you did when you – ❞

❝ i don’t regret a second of what we did together, just so you know. ❞

❝ so much for being ‘just friends’, haha! ❞

❝ i’m going to be late for work, but i don’t want to leave you. ❞

❝ thank you for seeing me. the real me, underneath. ❞

❝ i was just thinking how beautiful you are. ❞

❝ do you want to – y’know. go for seconds? ❞

❝ where’s my shirt? i don’t know where i dropped it. ❞

❝ soooo. what next, hmm? are we together now? ❞

❝ what are we going to say to everyone about where we went? ❞

things said as they turn to leave.

❝ i’m sorry! i didn’t mean to say it, it just came out! ❞

❝ don’t come back until you’re sober. ❞

❝ can you pick up some milk on your way back, love? ❞

❝ have a good day at work! ❞

❝ you’ll be fine, i know it. ❞

❝ wait, there’s something i wanted to ask you – ❞

❝ just promise me you’ll come back in one piece. ❞

❝ please, let’s just talk about this! ❞

❝ oh no, you are not wriggling out of attending this party so easily! ❞

❝ what do you mean, you’re going out? ❞

❝ hey, you’ve forgot your keys again! ❞

❝ aren’t you forgetting something – like the lunch i’ve made for you? ❞

❝ you are not leaving this house dressed like that, are you? ❞

❝ why do you always walk out when we have a fight? ❞

❝ don’t expect me to still be here when you come back. ❞

things said when you can’t bear it.

❝ there’s something i haven’t told anyone. ❞

❝ i couldn’t keep it a secret any longer. ❞

❝ i’ve held my silence for all of these years for your sake! ❞

❝ it was ripping me apart inside. ❞

❝ i’ve done something terrible. ❞

❝ i think you might need to sit down for this. ❞

❝ they didn’t make it. i’m so sorry. ❞

❝ i really, really need to tell you something. ❞

❝ please don’t be mad at me, but – ❞

❝ it was meant to be a surprise. ❞

❝ so, i have to tell you what happens in episode 5 – ❞

❝ there’s something hanging over my head and i have to tell someone, so here goes – please don’t hate me, but – ❞

❝ do not tell them i told you! they swore me to secrecy!! ❞

❝ darling, what i’ve been meaning to tell you is – i’m pregnant. ❞

things said when time runs out. 

❝ what do you mean, only one of us can leave? no, no, i’m not going without you! i can’t leave without you!❞

❝ you said we would always be partners in this. what’s changed so suddenly, huh? am i not enough for you anymore? ❞

❝ but i loved you with every bit of my heart. did you ever love me? ❞

❝ no, no, stay with me! tell me what happened, tell me how i fix it! ❞

❝ what are you saying? are you – are you breaking up with me? ❞

❝ woah, that was rough, wasn’t it? ___? ___!!! ❞

❝ s– sorry, __. ❞  ( collapses. )

❝ just go, don’t worry about me, okay? the most important thing is you get to safety while you still can! ❞

❝ don’t forget me, ___. ❞

❝ it’s just a scratch. ❞

❝ how long have you been hiding this from me? no, come on, stay awake, it’s alright – you’re going to be alright – ❞

❝ you were meant to be my happy ending. ❞

❝ please stay with me. please, please stay. ❞

❝ you made my life worth living. ❞

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@noblecide​​ :   “you wanna stay a while and jam?”

YOUNG ROYALS . accepting .

     MARK lifted his head, a sweep of long gangly hair still hanging past the forehead and hiding his eyes. Staying here would be better than heading back  t h e r e .  He could wait a while longer. “Yeah, man-” He pushed himself off of the floor, fingers coming through bangs to get them (mostly) out of his face. “Let’s make some  NOISE . ”

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The boy is back.

#wire #finally remade one #after it was being all finicky #go bother my dumbass boy

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     Mark looked up quickly as the door opened. If it were possible to give yourself whiplash, he was close. He quickly shifted, knees settling to hang over the edge of the bed. Instead of where they’d previously been up to the chest. And a hand runs past bangs under the dark hood - also discreetly wiping across his eyes. “No, it’s-” a short cough to clear the throat, away from any squeakiness of emotions or awkward tensions. “It’s fine.” he pulls his sleeves far down and over the back of hands, fingers almost wrapped inside the fabric. “Don’t like the bullshit playlist, either, huh?” he asked, an attempted joke to distract.

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Sitting on a chair in the corner of the room she was quiet , even though this was supposed to be a party…it was supposed to be fun. People were supposed to have fun at these…right? Kim on the other hand just observed…the music was already overwhelming her, too loud to really be enjoyable..and all the smells of the dancing folk..she felt so out of her depth. She decided to make for one of the bedrooms to have some peace and quiet , opening the door she hoped she didn#t barge into anyone but she did..kind of. But they were alone. “ Sorry i didn’t mean to just come in..” She adds in  a soft tone , almost inaudible over the sound of the music. “ Just wanted to get away from the music…”

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