MORGAN I SCREAMRF UR VACK ANF FOR KIDULT HELP tbf i disappeared so hard 😔 IM SO GLAD YOU GET TO SEE THE UPDATE it gives me so much motivation!! how have you been?!?
i have been alright !! im thankful u tagged me in it !! i always told u i would be a kidult fan for life vae !!!! im also glad it gives u motivation 🥹 im so ready to see the whole thing when u release it !! we rlly need to connect again and talk some it’s been far too long ! how are u as well ??
SYNOPSIS : changmin loves you. the happier ending to kidult
PAIRING : daycareworker!changmin x genderneutral!reader
GENRES : established relationship, daycare au, angst, fluff, features the boyz as children
WARNINGS : mentions of car accident and child neglect
TEASER WORD COUNT : 329
ESTIMATED WORD COUNT : 7-10k
ESTIMATED RELEASE DATE : within the next week
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A/N : to all the patient people who stuck with me for two years and waited for this very moment. i never thought this was going to happen, but here we are. jeonghan's teaser will release twelve hours from now
K. COLLECTION [J.CM] ONE | TWO
Tears began to stream down your face, unable to hold them back, and you were thankful Changmin missed it, but when you heard him apologize, you turned around and snapped at him.
“What the hell do you even want?”
“I want to talk to you.”
“You had two weeks to talk to me!” you yelled, fighting the loudness of the rain. The stream of tears ran faster down your cheeks as you brought a hand to your forehead, shielding the rain from getting into your eyes.
“I tried!”
“By knocking on my door for an hour straight at two in the fucking morning?! You could’ve called! You have a key!”
“Well it’s not like you tried either—”
“I got hit by a car!” you screamed, storming towards him as the sky reflected your mood. The thunder was just as loud as the pounding in your heart, and the rain poured just as much as your tears. You pushed Changmin, and behind him you saw a crack of lightning. Your vision started to blur as you didn’t hold back your sobs, wanting to show him the pain he’d inflicted on you ever since he left.
“I got hit by a car, Changmin! What about you? Were you hit by a car?! A truck? Perhaps a plane?” You forced out a manic laugh before continuing. “Wait, no, don’t tell me. Let me guess,-”
“Y/N—”
“-mauled by a bear?”
“I can explain-”
“Tell me I’m goddamn overreacting.” You took a step forward, and instead of pushing him again, you stared, making him look at the pain he created. “Tell me I’m overreacting, Jichang. Look me in my eyes and say it loud and clear.”
“I knew you’d be there for me.”
“I missed you, I needed you-”
“I know.”
“The day I lose you is the day I lose myself.”
“I don’t want you to wake up and realize I’m not the one for you. I don’t want that for us.”
it isn't a vae fic if there isn't angst Y'ALL AREN'T ESCAPING 👹👹 if i take longer than a week with this fic, i'll post a second (happier) teaser
it's been two years guys!! i'll be surprised if anyone sees this at all. if you do, please reblog and share, or even give me some support/hype in the comments. i want everyone who wanted a happy ending to see this <3
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꒰ synopsis ꒱ seven years of unanswered calls, but hyunjae refuses to give up on leaving voice messages in hopes that they'll be listened to
꒰ pairing ꒱ ex-daycareworker!changmin x student!hyunjae (platonic)
꒰ genre ꒱ angst
꒰ warnings ꒱ references mcd, profanities
꒰ word count ꒱ 0.5k
‘ author's note!! 🍃 — a new series for the kidult collection! contains very slight spoilers for the fic kidult. also this is only the beginning, it gets angstier from here
Hello, you've reached Ji Changmin. Thank you for calling, but unfortunately I can't answer your call at the moment, but please do leave a message! I'll try to get back to you as soon as I can.
hey
again
it's hyunjae
well, that's a given
you've been ignoring me for the past seven years, so of course you know it's me
even if i call you with a completely different number, you'd wait for someone to speak before hanging up once you realize it's...me
my voice
[pause]
do you, like, make a mental note of the phone numbers i call you on?
because you never block them
and i know this because i'm still able to call you on the same number i've had since you've left
it kinda makes me wonder
you having my number unblocked
is it a sign that i still mean something to you?
do you even listen to my voicemails?
i hope you do
i know you use this phone number on your website and promotional emails, so i know you're well aware of my calls
i'm very smart, you know
very, very smart
[pause]
clearly not smart enough if i keep calling you like this every month
fuck this is so dumb
mom even says it's stupid
like
why call someone that doesn't care about you anymore?
[pause]
but you still care about me, right?
because
[pause]
because i still care about you
anyway
i don't want to grow up
i'm already in high school
scary shit, i tell you
i probably shouldn't be cursing to the guy that watched over me when i was a kid
[pause]
you know
i think about what if you hadn't saved me
and some days i do wish you hadn't
because maybe
life would've been better that way
okay wow
hyunjae dark era
anyway
change of topic
i, uh....
uhm
i hope you're doing well
i am, if you're wondering
[pause]
i always wish that one day
you'd be so busy that you won't even notice the caller id on your phone
and then you'd pick up
and
i'd get to hear your voice
we're basically strangers now though
we both moved on
but i can't act like you weren't part of my life
i can't act like i don't think about you every once in a while
wondering if you're okay
wondering if you're happy
wondering if you have someone to love
and
and i can't act like you weren't like a father figure to me, okay?
[pause]
i'm sorry
i didn't mean to
snap like that
i swear i moved on from everything
i just
can't act like you're gone because you're not
you're not gone
you're here
you're alive
and i really want you to pick up
i want us to reconcile
to learn the people we've become
but since you refuse to interact with me in every way possible
i still see you as the teacher that held my hand when things got hard
the one that gave me all that courage to be myself back then