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I am working on the plot of “Seven Days in N.Y.C” and I can’t think straight. I can’t develope a character. I think I need to go out tomorrow and explore things out. It might help me think through.

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Today’s Josef’s birthday and I have the reason to DM him. I’m quite doubting actually, maybe he’s just bluffing about his birthday but I don’t really care. Lmao but idk, imma delete my message later.

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“Life is suffering. It is hard. The world is cursed. But still you find reasons to keep living.”

Princess Mononoke (1997) dir. Hayao Miyazaki

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I asked for a sign last night that If I dream about Josef, imma go get over him. It was so vivid that it hurts me because it will never become true. I woke up feeling heart broken and I felt so sad but I went back to sleeping hoping the dream would appear again but no. It’s a false hope.

#Josef

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Why are you even in my mind?

I know the answer to this question but I keep on denying it. I can’t be in love with a person whom I met online and doesn’t even give a fuck about my whole damn existance. So am I inlove with him?! Uhmmm... yes? Idk and wtf. I can’t live a day thinking about him.. I feel like he’s living in my mind rent free and I’m okay with that? I think?

I’m happy and sad at the same time. If this feeling is just temporary, when does this end? I can’t wait.

#Midnightshit

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I love it here. No one knows me and the shit I’ve been posting.

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Why do I constantly think about Josef? The feeling sucks. And why am I doing this? This ain’t twitter lmao

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I am so pressured. I feel like I am going to failed this 2nd semester and I don’t want that to happen but I also don’t wanna do my homeworks...... so... WTF

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josef

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Tumblr is so cool unlike twitter. So public....

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Dear Josef Jenkins,

I like you so much. Like so so much.I’ve been thinking about you ever since we talked and it’s quite fascinating why I ended up liking you so much and you often appear to my dreams smh. I thought it’s just a simple social media crush but now I’m stuck like I’m in the middle of dessert.You’re a beautiful creature. I appreciate your existance and I am grateful that I met you even though there’s no chance of meeting you, so unfortunate.

#hopelessromantic

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Navigating a mapless life

#life Navigate annoyance wtf hate idgaf

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Like I am rn

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Mirror

I regret looking myself at the mirror today. I looked terrible, I looked messed up. My acne isn’t going anywhere and it makes me feel so sick. I wish I could just wipe out my face and get a clear skin immediately.

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Love never fails, so if it fails then it's not a love at all

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“I struggle finding meaning in life when everything is defeating me. I struggle finding any purpose to existence but I’m determined not to exit. Maybe it’s the simple things that I’ve got to focus on. Like the adventures, road trips, breakfast’s with friends. Rather than searching tirelessly to try be someone I am not.”

— @fidds6