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The reason I’ve not uploaded any art in a long, long time is that I was spending the majority of my time caring for my father who was ill this entire summer and was just diagnosed with Stage 4 Leiomyosarcoma this week at the Dana-Farber Cancer Institute in Boston.

If anyone would like to help me, please spread my ko-fi page and my arts. All money given to me on my ko-fi would go to helping my college debt repayment bills and the house’s food/utility bills as I can’t work right now. I won’t have open slots due to how busy I am helping my family right now, and with him entering hospice care? I rather be there while I still physically can for him during his final days. Thank you all for understanding.

#Please help my friend!!

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From: Industrial Spy: Operation Espionage (aka Espion-Age-Nts)

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Twilight Syndrome: Kyuumei-hen (PS1 1996, Human Entertainment)

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So tired so tired so tired of people only wanting me around when it’s convenient to them or benefits them

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“There was a you before this There will be a you after this” Needed to see this a lot

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yuri jesus

#art #fear and hunger #funger #nosramus

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spark

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The Lady with the Dog

#art #funger #fear and hunger

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"how could my son be gay if he has a big picture of a beautiful woman in his room?"

the picture:

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Hopefully this will be my last vent post for a while

I am tired of being in a position where I’m left to feel unwanted and only wanted when someone stands to gain something or when it’s convenient for them.  I’ve been left by a variety of family members at different points of my life, sometimes more than once depending on the person.  I’ve been tugged, pushed, pulled around by everyone as a tool and weapon to use against others, constantly fought over, constantly used as a means to make others feel bad and/or guilty.  I’m going to be 30 in less than a month and I still don’t quite know what it’s like to feel entirely wanted and what’s worse, most of the time when someone likely tries to provide this - I feel as if I’m in danger.  Is it because I’m expecting it to be untrue and the person intends to hurt me?  That’s possible.  Is it because it’s not what I’m used to?  That’s also possible.

I want to no longer feel like a person that is fundamentally broken.  I want to believe I’m wanted, I want to believe I deserve things.  I don’t know how, I don’t know where to start, I just don’t know.

These last 7 months have been very likely the worst and most difficult ones of my life, well ok - maybe not most difficult considering but still....

#Vent

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In the dark

#art #funger #fear and hunger

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Saw that post about transmascs and how ppl need to talk more about vaginal atrophy and how it's easily treatable with estrogen cream without affecting your HRT and it got me thinking about how none of us transfems seem to talk about dick atrophy either and how it's also easily treatable with topical testosterone cream provided you're not taking a T blocker (so on a GnRH agonist, estradiol monotherapy, or have had bottom surgery). Without T you don't get that passive tissue maintenance so unless you want to get hard every other day for the rest of your life to keep it healthy you're kinda screwed and erections can become really painful, let alone the change in length/shape. So yeah ask about topical testosterone.

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my experience with fear and hunger throughout the years. also these gonna be sticker designs

#art #funger #fear and hunger #funny

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Nosramus

#art #funger #fear and hunger