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i do not consent to my uterus being a blank check for the government. i do not consent to getting pregnant. ever. i do not consent to giving birth. EVER.

i don't care if i don't have the right to refuse consent. i will never consent to being a surrogate mother to the state.

why are there millions of afabs living in this country whose uteruses are currently a blank check to the government against our will and our society is moving on like nothing happened? everyone in america is just okay with forcing afabs to have babies against our will? this whole country just continues on like nothing happened? i'm sick

i have been paralyzed by fear for the last few days. i can't do anything. i'm terrified to out in public. most of the fear is caused by the fact that i do not have the right in this state to choose whether i have children or even choose their father. i'm too scared to live because any and every man in this country has a PROTECTED RIGHT to forcibly impregnate me against my will and i don't have any right to not give birth to his child. and i don't even know what i can do about it because i'm too scared to try to platform my fears because i would have to publicly announce my biggest vulnerability with the caveat that i have no right to protect my biggest vulnerability i know many men will take advantage of the information. i will never be safe if i don't advocate for myself but advocating for myself would only make me even more vulnerable. to a horrific degree i don't know if you understand just how scary it is living my life knowing any sick piece of shit is entitled by law to use me to make him babies. so i am fucked if i don't advocate for myself but literally fucked if i do. why i no one protesting this? why is everyone letting the powers that be get away with this? afabs have no rights and everyone is complicit?

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i have been paralyzed by fear for the last few days. i can't do anything. i'm terrified to out in public. most of the fear is caused by the fact that i do not have the right in this state to choose whether i have children or even choose their father. i'm too scared to live because any and every man in this country has a PROTECTED RIGHT to forcibly impregnate me against my will and i don't have any right to not give birth to his child. and i don't even know what i can do about it because i'm too scared to try to platform my fears because i would have to publicly announce my biggest vulnerability with the caveat that i have no right to protect my biggest vulnerability i know many men will take advantage of the information. i will never be safe if i don't advocate for myself but advocating for myself would only make me even more vulnerable. to a horrific degree i don't know if you understand just how scary it is living my life knowing any sick piece of shit is entitled by law to use me to make him babies. so i am fucked if i don't advocate for myself but literally fucked if i do. why i no one protesting this? why is everyone letting the powers that be get away with this? afabs have no rights and everyone is complicit?

[iturmom]

I've seen several sites mention this, it's real.

Do not make the MISTAKE of thinking you need to put your side forward. The Guardian is transphobic as fuck, and will twist your words. DO NOT ENGAGE.

By the way, this is in the aftermath of the Cass Report, and the goal will be to make Trans DIY something that needs to be regulated or stamped out. DO NOT ENGAGE.

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here's a big happy 18 to neil banging out the tunes - he can vote now

[iturmom]

happy april 13th !!

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my only condolence is that i can see it with the naked eye bc of the clouds. would have been nice to see totality tho.

#i'm seriously so sad about this eclipse

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guys why the fuck aren't we talking about what's happening in the uk right now

nobody outside the uk is talking about this. why is nobody talking about it

[iturmom]

imagine being that fucking rich and that fucking careless.

#but it's a good thing i'm fucking homeless and suffering immensely in a horrific homeless shelter #sick as a dog from likely preventable disease if they only properly cleaned anything! #so that these two assholes can have the most selfish and offensive romance in history #offensive as in they are actively engaging in an offensive against the health and well being of billions of people

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the solution for taking care of "unsightly" homeless people is to house us. that is the only solution. if you can't stand the look of someone living on the sidewalk, you shouldn't stand for them being put into that situation to begin with. housing us is the only answer.

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it's tuesday, tuck him in.

#it IS tuesday. #tuck him in!

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there were christmas festivities today at the homeless shelter. they were handing out stockings and when i went to get one they asked me if i'm male or female!! but there was a lot going on and i legitimately had no idea what they were saying so i asked what and they repeated and i said what and they said female 😔 but it's cool that they couldn't identify me for at least a moment. idk how tho bc i'm wearing leggings and i had my feminine bag (my friend gave me for job interviews bc my huge dirty backpack would make me look too homeless i'm sure) but i had my hood up so that's probably what it was. IT'S GOOD ANYWAY. AND THAT'S NOT ALL!! so for the christmas dinner they had volunteers serving us the food. so i was sitting with my partner and a man comes to our table and asks "gentlemen, would you like some cookies?" GENTLEMEN. PLURAL. as in ME. as in I'M gentleman. my partner would have never heard the end of it either if he didn't go take his stocking to his bed and lay down.

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thinking about this again. some people on here have sent me resources online that may help with my homelessness so i figured there's a shot. even though i've posted about it multiple times and no one has told me anything, but i haven't asked yet.

a lot of people here at the homeless shelter are here because of irresponsible decisions they've made. they seem to get the most help. the parents get $250 in (texas grocery store) gift cards for doing the same classes that i have to do but i don't get food for it. i'm hungry. i am an antinatalist because this world is not safe for my descendants. i made the choice to devote my womb to the orphans like me who have been fucked over by their parents and society. i made the conscious choice not to have kids because i could not guarantee that i would not become a victim of this society and i didn't want to bring an innocent human being down with me. sure i have made mistakes in my life but i have not made any mistakes that force anyone else to suffer along with me. i have not made any catastrophic enough mistakes to deserve this. i am here because i am a victim of multiple violent crimes including two unrelated attempted murders, one of which was at the hands of my own mother. where is the help for victims? does anyone have any resources for people who are sympathetic to victims of violent crime? does anyone know of anyone or anywhere i could ask that could point me in the right direction? people who choose to be in a homeless shelter get so much help but people who are homeless as a direct result of being a victim of violent crime get thrown away and forgotten like trash. where is the help for victims? do i just deserve to suffer because people attacked me and tried to kill me? society just thinks that i deserved to be murdered? i wish she would have just done it believe me. i wish my mother had succeeded but it's not my fault she didn't kill me. it's very obvious to me this society would have preferred if she had succeeded but it's not my fault she didn't.

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I don’t have children so take this with a grain of salt but I hate when you can tell people like the concept of their children more than their well-being. Parents like the concept of an all-beige nursery that’s photogenic more than they care about the development of their kid’s brain. They like the concept of a cutely dressed kid in designer clothes more than they care about their comfort and personal desires. They like the concept of a child who never eats poorly more than they care about the happiness that can come from a child eating some candy now and then. People need to stop treating their kids like little dolls

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rich people be losing theoretical money and making it our problem. like imagine anyone not wealthy being like "this is how much money I thought I would be making and since I'm not, I'm taking it from someone who needs it way more than me" and then we call it inflation or rising costs of living

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i am not kicked out. and in fact i am being given housing opportunities that are so complicated my case manager and housing liaison do not even fully understand them. i am still terrified

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today is the day of my appointment with my case manager and housing liaison. i believe i will be kicked out today. i got a job last night. per the rules of the homeless shelter, i got a job before the date of my voucher appointment, which is tomorrow. i have reason to believe that they voided my voucher prematurely and that it doesn't matter that i got a job and followed their rules. if my housing voucher is already voided they are going to kick me out even though i followed their rules. i don't know what i will do. my friend that i came here with who was initially telling me she would put me on her housing voucher said that i should look around on like craigslist etc to see if i can find a cheap room to rent or something. i'm scared that if i find somewhere to live i won't be eligible for a housing voucher. i wanted to get a housing voucher from here so i could get furniture and essentials if i'm ever allowed to have my own apartment. and of course bc the housing voucher only requires 30% of your income which is the realistic percentage of income a person can afford for rent. housing is expensive here. there's another homeless shelter here that is only available to people with children, but i was told last night that they opened a new shelter for singles so i'm going to look into that. but that's just word of mouth i can't be sure that it's really an option. i'm very scared and there is no certainty in my life.

i am going to be kicked out of the homeless shelter because i was fired from my job for reporting transphobic sexual harassment and racism. i got a housing voucher and then got fired the next day. i was told i would have 3 months until my appointment for the housing voucher to find a new job but the appointment came early and because i don't have a job the homeless shelter is going to kick me out. i don't know what i could possibly do now. i don't know what i can do. they told me there's nothing i can do. they also said they don't know when i'll be kicked out or how long i will have to leave. i am so scared. all of this is happening to me because i am a victim of violent crime. i was made homeless by violent crime. i was made disabled by violent crime. i cannot get disability because of the oppressive systems in place. there is nothing i can do i am fucked and i am so scared. my life is over i need to die. if anyone wants to donate money so maybe i could get a hotel room or something i don't know, i can't rent a place without an income. i'm fucked but if you feel inclined to do something to help i have paypal $iturmom and cashapp $ityourmom

but what i need is justice for the oppression and violent crimes i have been a victim of. i still don't have a plan for that but i have been working on writing my experience to appeal to the masses for help with like gofundme and reddit or something. i've been working on it but i don't have it yet.