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I’ve literally gotten about a week’s normal sleep since April. I don’t know if it’s because my baby has colic or if everyone with a newborn feels this way, but living on survival mode for weeks on end is breaking down my body. Sometimes it’s even difficult to walk across a room or speak without slurring, and I’m just in disbelief that parental leave is so hard to come by. This is not fun. This is not simply for “bonding.” This is pure survival, just like medical leave would be

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Snapper - Gentle Hour (1993) 

Yo La Tengo’s superb version is all over tumblr, but here’s the original by Peter Gutteridge and Snapper.  With David Kilgour on guitar, it’s worth mentioning that the Clean also covered this wonderful tune.

And I couldn’t have done anything else

#with a bottle in hand currently doing Music Education

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One good morning walk with a breeze and iris blooms and the smell of gardenia and everything’s okay again

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Drown - Smashing Pumpkins

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Parenting a newborn is the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life and I’m only three weeks in. I wish this was discussed more…I guess nobody wants to be seen as weak..but maybe if it was new parents would get more help. There is just no other comparison in life in terms of intensity and honestly just around the clock suffering despite being filled with so much love

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Billy Liar - North of Cornwallis 

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#having a baby has pushed me into such a nostalgia hole #this particular one is 15 yrs old too heavy eyeliner the suburbs of tampa

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Sweetie

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Today is the first day I’ve really felt in control of motherhood after almost two weeks of chaos, tears, overwhelm…feeling comfortable in our family’s seclusion, moving from simply surviving each hour to having enough peace to savor little moments

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My baby’s here 4 weeks early with the strongest feistiest grip any preemie’s ever had. We’re going to be okay!

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One thinks one has cut oneself off from the world, but it is enough to see an olive tree upright in the golden dust, or beaches glistening in the morning sun, to feel this separation melt away.

Albert Camus, in a diary entry written c. January 1936, from Notebooks 1935-1942

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I’ve finally gathered the courage to write out the idea for a book that came to me in a dream in January, after the title also appeared in a dream last night

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3 of my friends in this city are moving away this summer, and I only have 4 here……💀I’m so tired of long distance friendships

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My Mabel as 1920s silent film star…

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We have something in common right now…

#5 weeks to go