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[kuratm]

What is the Path you stride on Honkai: Star Rail ?

the nihility path.

"You may gaze deep into the vast grandeur of the stars, but do not glance at the abyss of the void... for it holds nothing except for the ability to make mortals lose all reason and thought." Among the diverse paths that exist, there are those who follow the enigmatic "Nihility" Path, admiring laziness, exhaustion, and embracing meaningless behavior.

tagged: @scarlxtleaves thanks for tagging me! tagging: @crownshattered @destisea @aetherose @zorkaya @kurotm ... and you!

#♩ 》 ( character study. ) // about the queen of goths. #i mean...yeah. wow. what a shocker #(sayu who is a nihility unit in hsr verse) WOW WHAT A SHOCKER YALL!!!! #girlie be playing her tunes so good that it makes enemies debuff fr fr #ok but legit i aint planned for this like? damn. i rlly picked a good path for my girl

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settling in was accurate, though for those who never actually visited penacony...sayu, herself, wasn't one of those people. having to step right back in familiar territory, one which never felt safe and sound, was unnerving enough, but immediately finding trouble? it seemed himeko was right - wariness was necessary in order to go through such a place as smoothly as possible. regardless, aventurine's response was understandable, though the girl following path of nihility remained skeptical.

amethyst eyes narrowed ever so slightly. ❛ informal meeting, huh...? ❜ she repeats his words, almost subconsciously. their encounter was anything but informal, if she were frank...almost as if everything was purposefully planted, akin to bread crumbs for the express to follow. ah, no point being overly paranoid, sayu supposes.

❛ well... i guess it'd be rude of me, if i didn't properly introduce myself, so... ❜ with a soft nod, sayu looks up at the man - her expression tad softer, albeit still showing that no, her guard didn't waver. ❛ my name's sayu...as you can tell, i'm also a member of the astral express. ❜ and no longer shackled by penacony's chained dreams. ❛ and, well...i hope this "friendship" won't falter. ❜ was this sayu's indirect way of saying "i don't trust you, but i'll remain civil and get along"? absolutely, but politeness has always been a thing sayu managed to maintain - years of working in music industry.

In the world of fools, it was always rather beneficial to make friends, even more so when such friends weren't dumb or naive. Of course, the Astral Express came with its own stories and sense of wonder - he'd be foolish to simply ignore this chance, would he not? A simple greeting was all that such a gesture was used for, but the girl's defensive nature only helped to heighten that incline he'd had. These folk could be useful.

"I believe it was your navigator who proclaimed that we were now friends. Is it not a natural reaction to therefore get to know one another?". He chuckled softly, a small shake of his head given, "I much prefer this type of informal meeting, do you not?".

There was much to do, with very little time. He could almost feel the net tightening around him, though such discomfort never crossed his features, instead looking rather relaxed, as though he belonged there - when that was as far from the truth as it could get. "Ah. Apologises. You've only just arrived - of course you need the time to settle in first".

#♩ 》 ( ic. ) // simple yet pleasant conversation. #♩ 》 ( verse. honkai star rail. ) // path of nihility. #diverse-hearts #sayu vc: hahahaah sure hope this def not shady dude cant tell i actually used to live here :)))))))) #DAMN these two are alr being. Interesting fr fr #♩ 》 ( queue. ) // crying at the goth rave.

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somehow, sayu could immediately tell where the "treasure" came from, especially from the smell - aeons above, it was foul! while it was in par for trailblazers to seek out truth in every aspect of universe, perhaps not everything needs to be explored...stelle, however, didn't seem to get the memo. with a small frown on her face, sayu crosses her arms and looks down at a pair of socks - eyes clearly showing disgust - before sighing and looking back at the taller girl of two, now feigning a "disappointed mom" energy. why such fascination for trash, in first place? ❛ stelle...i thought i told you to stop rummaging through trash cans. that's extremely unhygienic! ❜ to say her patience was almost saint-like, despite countless of times she scolded stelle for this, was an understatement.

“Look, found treasure,” well… Treasure was being extremely considerate considering Stelle had found the so-called ‘treasure’ inside a trash can buried beneath like two or three closed plastic bags full of smelly food. Some rocks for her collection and a pair of socks, the latter definitely needed to be washed and cleaned to hell and back but hey, free socks!! “Now I will have five pairs of socks once I clean these bad boys at the Astral Express.” || [ APRIL STARTERS ] || @kuratm

#♩ 》 ( ic. ) // simple yet pleasant conversation. #♩ 》 ( verse. honkai star rail. ) // path of nihility. #peachiiihearts #2 seconds in this and sayus alr tired of stelle LMAO #jenna marbles vc: IM A VIRGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 #♩ 》 ( queue. ) // crying at the goth rave.

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cutely places this for mutuals to add me on discord. touches fingers. please add me. ❤ if you do add me, please lemme know in replies of this post!

#♩ 》 ( ooc. ) // shut the fuck up pluto. #does a little dance #im not dead im just busy w life #and 99 percent of the time im on discord anyway #(unless im not...then. does a shrug)

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out of everything that happened to sayu, from witnessing her former manager's palace, unleashing herself from the bat's mask to even joining the infamous phantom thieves, the group's leader suddenly whisking ... "guitar" noises, so to say, was certainly not on the list of expectations. regardless, she tried her best not to suddenly burst laughing, finding this amusing and...oddly adorable. alas, only small bits of giggles escaped ebony colored lips as she clears her throat. ❛ pfff...a-ah, ahaha...well, er... ❜ she falters, awkwardly scratching her cheek. ❛ you...sure seem to have "bit of rock star" in you. ah, although, maybe work on the "guitar" noises. it'll look more convincing...th-than it already is, of course! ❜ who would've thought the sleek and cunning "joker" could be ... this dorky?

“I think I got a bit of a rock star in me,” and, to demonstrate, Akira Kurusu mimicked the lead guitarists he saw on Youtube. The air guitar, the head banging, the ‘guitar’ noises, the facial expressions… Yeah, he looked like more of a dork than usual, if that was even possible. But that thought never crossed his mind as he stared at the actual musician in the room after he was done with that demonstration. “Well??” || [ APRIL STARTERS ] || @kuratm

#♩ 》 ( ic. ) // simple yet pleasant conversation. #♩ 》 ( verse. persona 5. ) // you are a slave. want emancipation? #peachiiihearts #can u tell shes trying her best to be nice SOBBING #even tho hes being SO DORKY SMKEFMKMGTGM #sayu rlly said 'ok but work on ur guitar bro' LMAO #♩ 》 ( queue. ) // crying at the goth rave.

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sayu only pondered for a minute, finger gently tapping against her chin whilst makoto's words rung in her head. truth be told, maybe the two weren't so different - albeit obviously living drastically different lives, one thing seemed to connect the two, and it's being forced to grow up since childhood. the death arcana understood the high priestess's turmoil, hence her questioning whether makoto ever attended a concert. ❛ i see...well, in that case... ❜ the j-rock idol perks up, the gentle smile returning on her face. ❛ would you like to attend one of my concerts? a-ah, of course, you'll have a vip pass, so you don't need to mesh in with the crowd. they can get...a little rowdy, ehehe... ❜ besides, sayu needed to get closer with her fellow phantom thieves.

“Well… No… I’ve never been to a concert before,” somehow, despite admitting it out loud at last, Makoto Niijima still felt rather bashful about it. It felt like another reminder of how she had a different upbringing to most of her age. There was no time for distractions, she had to excel in all subjects and not be a burden to her older sister. Makoto was thinking of the future so she seldom used her free time to do anything of leisure that didn’t involve reading. “So, as you can probably guess, I don’t know what the environment of one is like.” || [ APRIL STARTERS ] || @kuratm

#♩ 》 ( ic. ) // simple yet pleasant conversation. #♩ 》 ( verse. persona 5. ) // you are a slave. want emancipation? #peachiiihearts #look at these girlies - theyre abt the be book besties i just KNOW it #(or yknow - maybe makoto can learn the wonder of j rock LMAO) #♩ 》 ( queue. ) // crying at the goth rave.

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@utsubotm asked: " i'm surprised you didn't bring grim along. " he comments aloud, breaking the momentary silence between them. jade wasn't ungrateful for the time alone with sayu, but the feline seemed to go just about everywhere with her. " though i suppose he's definitely voiced his complaints about these hikes plenty before. " flashing a pleasant smile, as he adjusts the pack on his back. " grim or no grim, i am glad you came with me however. if that wasn't clear. " / jaaade

jade's sudden comment broke sayu out of her own train of thought, amethyst eyes looking up to meet mismatched ones, small giggle following his curiosity regarding grim, before adjusting the small bag on her shoulder. ❛ do i have a reputation for bringing grim everywhere? ❜ she asks, albeit in lighter tone, suggesting she was joking, before continuing with a light sigh. ❛ well...i decided to let grim have ramshackle for himself, just for today. like you said, he definitely would've complained about joining in on these hikes... ❜ honestly speaking, sayu would like at least one day of peace and quiet - without a constant, looming worry whether grim, ace and deuce would stir up trouble or not.

sayu pauses, slight bashfulness taking over when octavinelle's vise housewarden expresses elation with her presence, before smiling tad softer. ❛ ehehe...i'm glad, too. actually, that's why i didn't bring grim. i, er...wanted us to enjoy this, together. these hikes are really fun, if i can be honest. ❜ were her cheeks beginning to turn in lighter pink? yes, absolutely.

#♩ 》 ( answered. ) // text messages. #♩ 》 ( ic. ) // simple yet pleasant conversation. #♩ 》 ( verse. twisted wonderland. ) // we will show you a happy ending. #utsubotm #this is v v v fuckin late but are we surprised at this point #it dont matter LOOK AT THESE TWO! #theyre...having a quiet date....dont interrupt them #♩ 》 ( queue. ) // crying at the goth rave.

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@diverse-hearts asked: ❝ … i guess i'm just scared of losing you. ❞ - Kalim

something within her dropped to stomach after scarabia's housewarden expressing his fear, making sayu's frown ever so sadder. she couldn't imagine the anguish kalim must be going through, having to learn how his vice-warden, his childhood friend, truly felt, and witness that very friend's descent to overblot. backstabs were always too painful to swallow, especially when living in ignorant bliss - the magicless prefect understood that feeling. despite that, kalim remained upbeat and positive...such traits which sayu admired, yet made her worry. pushing it underneath bright smiles wasn't going to solve the problem - pretty rich, coming from her - so hearing him be more vulnerable relieved her, yes, but only made the conflict within her mind intensify.

pausing to mull over her thoughts, sayu forces herself to smile - although it's obvious it held sad connotations - before moving one hand to gently place it on kalim's shoulder. ❛ ...don't worry, kalim. i'll be here, whenever you need me...even if i can't use magic, ehehe~. ❜ perhaps she shouldn't feed into the cliche "always being by someone's side" trope, but truth be told, sayu wasn't sure of her own outcome. if finally given an opportunity to return home, to her own dimension...could she be able to accept it?

#♩ 》 ( answered. ) // text messages. #♩ 》 ( ic. ) // simple yet pleasant conversation. #♩ 》 ( verse. twisted wonderland. ) // we will show you a happy ending. #diverse-hearts #kalim my poor bby boy ;;;;; #its the way sayu is most of the time that one 'i will kill everyone if u harm this man' meme w kalim 😭 #good ole sunshine boy n goth girl trope thooo #♩ 》 ( queue. ) // crying at the goth rave.

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@diverse-hearts asked: ❝ you're amazing, you know that? ❞ - March 7th

to say sayu wasn't used to sudden compliments would be an understatement. yes, she knew her own worth and yes, she knew her own knack for creating thrilling yet shocking music - literally - but having someone else come in and note just how "amazing" she actually is? honestly speaking, who could blame sayu for getting a little bashful? besides, all she done was practice a little melody on her signature guitar, mostly to check if the wires were correctly adjusted. alas, her humbleness would prove to be her greatest enemy.

march's bright and upbeat attitude didn't falter, only intensified when sayu's timid nature strikes. who would've thought the two, polar opposites would end up getting along this well? she supposes the term "opposites attract" was true. ❛ a-ah, um...gee, march, that was out of nowhere... ❜ nervously chuckling, the gothic trailblazer sets her guitar by it's stand before amethyst eyes look back at march. ❛ i-i appreciate it, don't get me wrong, it's just... i think the tune could be better, is all. ❜ it had to be better, for all her hard work and exhaustion would be for nothing.

#♩ 》 ( answered. ) // text messages. #♩ 》 ( ic. ) // simple yet pleasant conversation. #♩ 》 ( verse. honkai star rail. ) // path of nihility. #diverse-hearts #maaaarch dont just stay stuff outta nowhere like that LMAO #♩ 》 ( queue. ) // crying at the goth rave.

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@diverse-hearts asked: ❝ i was kind to you because you looked like you needed a friend. ❞ - Jamil

somehow, sayu found it hard to believe. maybe this school and its' students were influencing on the magicless girl - having to practically deal with a bunch of unhinged boys really was testing her patience, after all - but she was skeptical. then again, sayu was never the type to immediately believe people easily, given her life in another world and the experiences she needed to learn the hard way. regardless, her arms were crossed as her head tilts, looking up at scarabia's vice-warden with slight brow furrow.

❛ well...i guess the more accurate term would be "needing one day of peace". ❜ she speaks with pure honesty, followed by a small sigh. speaking her own thoughts out wasn't up her forte, having always preferred keeping it to herself, but after all the overblot incidents? sayu couldn't exactly keep the bitterness towards these situations - not to mention crowley continued sweeping them under the rug. pausing to take a seat, sayu smiles in jamil's way. ❛ but, thank you, regardless. er...want to join me? you need a friend, as well. ❜

#♩ 》 ( answered. ) // text messages. #♩ 》 ( ic. ) // simple yet pleasant conversation. #♩ 》 ( verse. twisted wonderland. ) // we will show you a happy ending. #diverse-hearts #shhhh....the virgos are communicating....... #♩ 》 ( queue. ) // crying at the goth rave.

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trailblazing brought nothing but trouble. such was the lesson sayu learnt since joining the astral express, but was harshly reminded of during their time in penacony. who would've thought a meager trip to investigate internal manners of the family will end up drastically changing a course within the dreamscape? surely, things weren't always as they seemed, but to the girl of nihility, even her own thought process was challenged. her life was in grave danger...she could've lost herself in "death", itself. no, she could've lost her friends - her real family. never again, she thinks to herself - i won't ever allow myself to hesitate.

of course, what snaps sayu back to reality is caelus' offer as her eyes shoot up to see his arm extended her way. one glance through the parlor's window will show they've arrived at their destination - a brand new planet to explore and find its' inner truth. ❛ o-oh, we're already here...? ❜ was the first thing she uttered, amethyst eyes taking in the planet's beauty before looking up at the taller of two and smiles. ❛ i guess checking this place out won't bring any harm. besides...somebody needs to keep an eye on you.~ ❜ of course, the last bit was a light tease, evident by the giggle. ❛ i digress...what do you think we'll find? ❜ as sayu asks, she moves closer as one hand extends to take hold of his forearm.

It’s been awhile since the incident of Penacony..it was a planet that brought more things into perspective. Jarilo-VI reminded him of his mortality and Penacony taught him the value of enjoying life with others because like his own life their time is 𝙛𝙡𝙚𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 and it could be stolen in the blink of an eye. Never again would Caelus take so much for granted..not his friend, the family he’s made or his beloved. This new planet from the looks of things looked like nothing but a large jungle, however, Dan Heng assured them there is a intelligent civilization which could be found with just a few moments of exploration.

━━   ❝   𝐇𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭..𝐰𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐠𝐨.  ❞ Caelus raises an arm to volunteer exploring the place and of course choosing his beloved at the power to accompany him. They’ve both gotten stronger in both mind and body over the course of their last grand expedition. “IF it gets too much for us to handle we can make our way back.” His words were soft as he faces Sayu.

𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄𝐃 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐀 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 | @kuratm

#♩ 》 ( ic. ) // simple yet pleasant conversation. #♩ 》 ( verse. honkai star rail. ) // path of nihility. #scarlxtleaves #♩ 》 ( queue. ) // crying at the goth rave.

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i'm tired and plan on continue with asks (and probably replies) either tomorrow or during my extended weekend - aka the day after tomorrow - so, i'll pop back on my phone, BUT. to my beloved mutuals, if ya'll play hsr and (potentially) twst, please feel free to add me! my accounts are below read more.

hsr: 600998847

twst: fpxu7ytN

#♩ 》 ( ooc. ) // shut the fuck up pluto. #id share my genpact acc but...im in asia server so. :standing emoji: plus i dont rlly. play genpact anymore (besides for itto) #so theres that LMAO #does grabby hands. pls be my friends for my 5 stars are OP and shall support yall in ur endeavors <3 <3 <3 <3 #(well i kinda have to work a bit more on my dan heng il but shhhhh its fine)

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so, i never divulged too much in sayu's backstory in h/sr - just that her home planet was destroyed by the antimatter legion - but now that penacony is out, i'm thinking that she used to be part of the family - particularly the iris family - but left it once the express came there, saw her situation and offered her to join them. it's still kiiiind of a work in progress, since we gotta wait for the next update.

for now, all i got is she used to be a musician for the iris family but the higher ups abused her talent for shady reasons, and she had no choice but to oblige. it's why nowadays, she's so passionate abt making music for the sake of people - bc once in her life, she was forced to make it for bad reasons. the express visited, saw her situation, helped expose the crimes of the people responsible and offered her to join the express and become a trailblazer - which she agreed to.

this might be changed - again, gotta wait for the next update and see where this is going - but yeah. tldr; sayu just wants to make sweet tunes, let her live

#♩ 》 ( character study. ) // about the queen of goths. #♩ 》 ( verse. honkai star rail. ) // path of nihility. #no wonder shes nihility - this bitch is fuckin tired all the goddamn time LMAO #someone give her... a bit of cake... snuggle her in blankets #she overworks sometimes just for her passion and it sometimes comes to a point she doesnt sleep for some time #😫she feels responsible for what her managers - ppl who were supposed to help her - done to ppl w her music #so she exerts herself to make up for these mistakes #girlie take a chill pill its fine

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i don't rlly vent, mostly bc i dont want to bother my friends and mutuals w my irl problems, but man. i have to now bc today was not a good day.

so, we have an exhibition tomorrow at my college, some of my work was selected to be put up, and we had to come in earlier today and prep everything up bc why not make the students do all the fucking preparations for exhibition, right? well, my day started by me running around the whole city, printing out my stuff which was selected by our professor AND hurriedly write up an "artist statement", for some goddamn reason. that alr overwhelmed me enough but then, when i got to college (i was one goddamn hour late bc i was printing my stuff, btw), i realized that the prints WERE INVERTED, because I PUT THEM IN WRONG FUCKING COLOR MODE. that p much threw me in a panic attack :) my adhd kicked in, i was lost, confused and overwhelmed by all of this - didn't help that there were loud noises and ppl talking over each other - so much so that my friends insta noticed and were like 'oh shit, she's going thru a mental breakdown' :')

i was lucky enough that said college friends insta dropped everything and helped me put my stuff up bc i just, could not do it in the state i was in. that, and the professor...didnt seem to give a shit, but still...jesus fucking christ, this bitch was going through it. i felt bad later on, when i finally calmed down, that my friends had to p much do my work, but they told me not to worry abt it and just let them help me, which made me so grateful :') yall, if my homies weren't there, i would've ripped everything off and cry in a corner, p much

tldr; why do colleges love to destroy their students' mental state?

#♩ 》 ( ooc. ) // shut the fuck up pluto. #vent / #negative / #i guess? #in the end my friends told me to just ditch classes and go home cuz they could tell i was not there mentally lol #im doing fine now dw #but good god - today was a shit day overall #at least everything turned out alright? yippie? #anyway sorry to throw this all of a sudden - i dont want to seem needy for attention or w/e #but i just needed to let this out a lil bit

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@diverse-hearts asked: [ hand ] sender kisses the back of receiver's hand. - Aventurine

penacony, land of festivities...or so it was, up front. to majority of people in vast galaxy, this was a go-to place in order to escape reality and enjoy sweet dreams but to sayu? this was a land of nightmares. while she could've opted out to stay at the express with dan heng - hell, himeko and mr.yang even offered that option, knowing full well she had a not so pleasant past with this particular planet - sayu felt that would be akin to running away from the past. if there's anything she learnt during their time spent at the xianzhou luofu, it's not to do exactly that. she needed to face it, even if it meant staring directly at the nightmare, itself.

she watches almost apathetically as the ipc representative kissed the back of her hand, brows furrowed in skepticism. sayu knew very well that in a place as penacony, you couldn't put your trust easily in anyone. schemes and backstabs were almost akin to saying "hello" to one another, so she held her guard up. aventurine, however, was different...he was charming, sure, but it was a front...for what reason? she didn't know.

either way, she quietly moves her hand as amethyst eyes look up at aventurine. ❛ it's nice to meet you as well, mr. aventurine... ❜ she says, remaining polite but clearly keeping her guard up. ❛ thank you for the help at the checkout, back then...but, why the sudden interest? ❜ she couldn't help asking. it was rather sudden, after all.

#♩ 》 ( answered. ) // text messages. #♩ 》 ( ic. ) // simple yet pleasant conversation. #♩ 》 ( verse. honkai star rail. ) // path of nihility. #diverse-hearts #not sayu insta going 'tf u want mate' LMAO #she does NOOOOOOT trust this man whatsoever #then again she trusts literally nobody in penacony XD

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@diverse-hearts asked: [ tea ] sender makes receiver a hot drink. - Epel

sometimes, sayu couldn't help but wonder if there was ever a moment of peace and quiet in this school. sure, she loved spending time with ace and deuce - they pretty much became her closest friends ever since she winded up in this situation - but ... honestly, their antics tired her out, most of the time. for that reason, she opted to sit in the cafeteria by herself, trying to enjoy this moment while browsing through her phone - at least crowley was 'gracious' enough to hand her one.

from her peripheral vision, she spots familiar, lilac locks. once looking up, she's taken off guard by epel offering a warm cup of tea. amethyst eyes blink for a moment or two before smiling and setting her book down. ❛ oh...thanks, epel. ❜ she greets with a gratitude as she accepts the cup, scooting to the right so the first year at pomefiore could join her. ❛ how're you holding up? let me guess...vil-san made you overwork, again? ❜ by now, she knew everyone's quirks and habits, and this didn't exclude, well...epel and vil's squabblings.

#♩ 》 ( answered. ) // text messages. #♩ 》 ( ic. ) // simple yet pleasant conversation. #♩ 》 ( verse. twisted wonderland. ) // we will show you a happy ending. #diverse-hearts #man im ngl these two would be v good friends #theyre both smol SOBS let them be smol but fierce in their own ways

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@lumoire asked: ❝ sayu your journey is nothing short of extraordinary. despite the darkness of your own past, you continue to make a positive impact on the world. ❞ from argenti!

to say sayu was left stunned would be an understatement. she knew galaxy was vast and held many types of people - from a little weird to straight up bizarre - but somehow, argenti managed to subpar her expectations. was it because she wasn't so used to compliments or the flowery language which he expressed such praise with? she couldn't tell.

either way, sayu only peered up at the knight of beauty for a moment or two before suddenly clearing her throat and averting her gaze, one finger gently scratching her cheek. ❛ umm...ehehe, i-i think you're exaggerating a bit, sir argenti... ❜ it felt right to refer to him by the title - part of manners, right? ❛ it's true i want my music to be able to help people, b-but i don't think i'm making, er...a positive impact, really... ❜ perhaps she sold herself short...curse her humbleness, she supposed.

#♩ 》 ( answered. ) // text messages. #♩ 》 ( ic. ) // simple yet pleasant conversation. #♩ 》 ( verse. honkai star rail. ) // path of nihility. #lumoire #this post is just a psa that sayu MUST BE COMPLIMENTED MORE #SHUUSH HER UP W THAT ATTITUDE!!! im w argenti on this one SMFH #if u want to continue it PLS FEEL FREE TO! 👉👈 #me going grabby hands at u HARD