lavanda-celeste

[lavanda-celeste]

all of my previous art is back up on aryion (username is the same but without the -), but is only visible to registered users of that page to avoid both haters and minors from looking it up (honestly wish I knew that view option existed sooner...) anyways, I hope those few who are interested enjoy!

#non art #non-art #monday night munchin #monday night munchin'

[lavanda-celeste]

hi ya buncha freaks how's hell going

sorry sorry ill stop being rude to yall now I was just in a really bad place mentally when I made all previous visible posts

I see that a lot of you sticked around even after my account fell apart, thanks for that (even if some people probably jus forgot they were following me lmao) so uhh I'll keep you updated from time to time

(info under cut)

again, as I said before, I'd rather wait until the uh, "founder" (aka foot glove with a clip on it lmao) hits 18 and maybe makes an announcement about allowing nsfw (probably not tho) but don't worry in case theres no announcement or she just says no I'm planning to make ocs based on Wh1tty and Upd1k3 that like, aren't straight rip offs but still have the same vibe if U know what I mean

another thing is that I've definitely decided that if I start drawing again I'll just post to Aryion and no where else, sorry tumblr-only folks, but I've been advised to gatekeep my stuff a little more so dumb kiddos don't come snooping around, and also back when I got into trouble some people reacted to screenshots of my art like I committed murder and gave birth to the antichrist or something (which btw were screenshots of the Endo version of the Wh1tty X Cotoni comic, which is pretty much one of the tamest things you can find on this whole community??? idk man, frickin kinkshamers)

so like, if I stay confined to aryion, not only the site is explicitly said to be 18+ when you enter, but also like, if someone enters there and gets disgusted, it's not my issue man like aryion is literally the v*re website why would you enter it if you don't like it LMAOO (sadly I checked and Aryion art does show up on Google images and there's no way to get your art outta there, oh well, at least it seems safesearch blurs most of it)

Last thing for now I hope is that uh, if you see that my opinions seem to swing or not stay consistent, that's Cuz uhhhh I don't own the brain I'm in LMAO, look I don't wanna falsely claim we've got one of those rare Dissociative Identity disorder stuffs but we definitely got something going on alright

so um using a term from that area because I lack better terms, I'm not the "host" but at least I'm in good terms w them (again), now the issue is their right hand supervisor lady fucking hates my guts man. she won't let me cook in peace fr fr, she even made on us that nasty bloody "tattoo" mentioned in the comments of one of my previous posts, rn I'm writing this very late at night since she doesn't seem to be very aware at these hours lol. it's jus that back in around december-january she fucking beat the shitttt outta me for getting us all into trouble, rn tho things more or less chill but again I'm not really allowed to do much still, jus waiting to see when it's appropriate for me to return to cooking the good shite

oh I might have to change my artstyle to avoid (or at least lessen the probability of) any potential connection to the "host"'s account, yea it's gonna suck having to develop a new one

so yea see ya uhh later in the year in a few months probably, remember to stay sane and do not lower ur standards when consuming v*re content (haha consume lmao)

#non-art

[lavanda-celeste]

might post the rough sketch wip of the rockstar comic i was doing before i trashed everything

i kinda feel guilty for hyping it up so much only to never post it (be aware i only actually drew like 2 colorless panels the rest are jus going to be vague shapes)

no im not drawing anything new, for the moment at least, ill wait until uhh july or august i guess, for reasons ive said before

i kinda wish i could just say i will never draw weird things again and stick to that promise, but something in my mind pushes me to express and illustrate my thoughts, even after all the bad things it has brought to me, artist's nature i guess

[lavanda-celeste]

well uh, now that I calmed down a little I can say that the account isn't dead for certain but i won't be posting again soon either, I've been advised to wait until I become a little more mature before I post anything NSFW related (that includes vore), and if I start posting again the account will be locked and I'll manually check if everyone following is 18+ (does tumblr even have an account gatekeeping feature idk lmao in case not I'll just move somewhere else that allows that like idk Twitter, but tbh i dont like twitter so ill probably just stick to aryion)

I'll also wait if sock makes an statement about lewd content of her characters when she turns 18 cuz tbh it has been kinda shitty of me to disrespect her announcement of not making anything lewd with her characters until she says otherwise, if she remains anti nsfw I'm afraid I'll have to move on from Wh1tty to 100% original characters

ah also if I come back I'll repost my old work again idk if anyone truly misses it tho I doubt it lmao

remember to touch grass ya weirdos

[lavanda-celeste]

welp I got called out anyway, see what I'm telling yall guys just quit before it's too late

[lavanda-celeste]

eh you know what, you're right as always [redacted name], actually, I'm just going to burn it all down, this whole thing brings nothing but problems, who knows what could've happened in a couple of years, maybe a stupid call out that might or might not be justified, but not anymore, Cuz it's all gone at least from the public eye, this tumblr, the aryion, the ao3, all empty, I'm sorry I have caused you nothing but discomfort all these years.

for uhh all my followers unaware of the context uhh LMAO rip I deleted all my art woops, it's for the best anyway, I should just repress this aspect of myself forever, because it just keeps exploding in my face over and over, driving people away or even creeping them out, actually I'm getting hints from everywhere in my life I should go back to being 100% sex repulsed, it's just not worth it at all, and I suggest yall start reconsidering your life choices lol, seriously this kink brings nothing but misery to your life, stop engaging in it, I can't even look in a mirror without feeling disgusted at myself.

Just stop to think about it for a second, you're sexualizing one of the worst possible ways to die, and often these scenarios are unwilling, which is a fancy way of saying not-consented, you see what I mean right? not only that but there are also the freaks who put in these scenarios animals like snakes or frogs or whatever, disgusting

you may think you're okay because you only see endosoma, but just give it a while and you'll start craving the gross stuff, it's better to cut it from the source don't ya think?

eh who am i kidding the chances of me actually convincing someone to heal from this are slim but I'm taking it anyway

so yeah, so long suckers, I'll just go back to improve on my normal, sane, sfw art, thanks for the support but I simply can't go on without destroying my mental health further