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it’s unfair how i have the responsibility to heal myself when i didn’t cause my wound in the first place

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Nobody has ever apologized for the fucked up shit they did to me, they’ve only blamed me for the way i reacted.

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i’m the problem. i’m draining to be around. i turn everything good into something toxic. i can’t stop myself from ruining everything, no matter how hard i try. i’m the only one to blame. i’m poison to everyone around me, i destroy everything i touch

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When phoebe bridgers said “I hate you for what you did but I miss you like a little kid” I was shot through time and space to see 8 year old me with my dad

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I’m sad in a way that’s exhausting and painful

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im tired of being a burden

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It's so frustrating not being obsessed with anything like what even is the purpose of life

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“are you okay?” no i’m not can we please change the subject before i start crying

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I realized today that I have stopped living life. I’m literally just trying to get to the next day, just living in the thought of tomorrow. I‘m not living, I’m waiting. And the problem is, I don’t know what I’m exactly waiting for. I‘m kind of scared for what it might be.

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sucks that i’ve lost my life to mental illness just because some people thought it was okay to treat me like shit

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Hate that I can physically feel when my mental illness gets bad

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I don't know how many times I survived myself without telling anyone.

-V. J.