lifeamateur617-blog

[lifeamateur617-blog]

The image of knowledge and truth as a light in the darkness of ignorance: I honestly cannot think of any other.

I think that I am not alone in obsession over the idea of fundamental truth - that in some of us it is instinctual, not chosen.

But it seems that it’s mostly procrastination; would we even know it if we found it? The idea of the search is a useful (in a material sense) distraction, just a pass time. The idea that we could put the universe into a box. The longer I look for understanding the more I think I’m bad at it.

A video I watched (from UpAndAtom on YouTube) talked about numbers, and the abundance of each of the sets of numbers. It concludes that the set of irrational numbers , which are essentially inexpressible except for a few special cases (pi, Euler’s number et al), are likely the most abundant. The idea of mathematics being largely inexpressible.

I’m a bad philosopher, but what I know says that if the universe is logical, then there must be a first cause or an infinite regress occurs.

What if universal truth is inexpressible? Is what cannot be expressed the solution of infinite regress? Are the only fundamental truths inexpressible?

I will admit, I have vested interests. I want to be someone else but I don’t want to change. I want to be true, but I can’t explain why. Is the fact that my reasoning never reaches the horizon of an inexpressible feeling proof that it’s real or am I just procrastinating?

#procrastinating #infinite regress #irrational numbers

[lifeamateur617-blog]

Whenever I have to write something for work I start with the section heading “scope and motivation “. It’s reassuring and useful, to me at least, to talk about what will and won’t be discussed and why we’re even bothering. Context is another way of looking at it. I’m prone to rambling, and despite spending a lot of time talking and writing, I’m not confident that I can really communicate at all.

That’s what the point of this is, to learn to communicate. The idea of being really seen causes me anxiety. So I’ve got journals full that I don’t want anyone to ever read. But I want to know if the questions I keep asking have answers, so writing them somewhere that they _could_ be read - but no one will ever really know that I wrote them! - appeals to me.

If nothing else, putting writing out there is good practice for a career change, if I can ever fix myself enough to make one. If no one reads it then I suppose that’s also an answer to my questions.

I’d like to be good at writing, and I’d like to be able to express myself; I’ll have to see if I’m willing to do the work.

#scope and motivation #context #what am I doing here