Well. I woke up sick. I took a rapid test and it's not covid, so that's good at least. Waited a while after waking up to make sure it wasn't just early morning stuff and it's not. I don't want to risk getting anyone else sick so I cancelled my trip. I've spent like the last 15 minutes crying, ran out of them long enough to contact/cancel everything I could. I really hate being a responsible person because if I was just my well-being at risk I would definitely still go! But I don't want to risk getting anyone sick, so I just can't.
Anyway I hate my stupid body for getting stupid sick and causing me to have to miss most likely my only chance to see my favorite show live. I mean, during the Tinlightenment campaign I held that I'd rather them be able to put on the production and me not being able to go vs them not doing it at all but now I'm crying again. I know I never believe things I'm looking forward to are actually going to happen until they're happening, but it's still just really disheartening
Okay, it's late enough and I'm tired, fingers crossed I can ride this sleepiness wave to falling asleep at a reasonable time unlike last night. G'night!