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depression be clappin my ass a lil bit less these days so i’ve been kinda around

#ooc. the e in elex stands for emo #perhaps one day i will also be active on here again but...For Now #i'm elsewhere sometimes or dying in docs for a fuckboi

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every day i say i wanna get onto one of my blogs but the rat in my brain just gnaws on the wires completely ignoring the blaring red lights of my executive dysfunction slowly driving me mad

#this is in large part due to switching over to new medication tho im just crabby #and need this shit to hit Now or Else #also not to @ myself but what if i made a new blog for a chara from some fighting game lololol #i only know fighting game combos and insomnia these days #ooc. the e in elex stands for emo #tbd.

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its 12am and i just woke up who wants a dumb ask

#ooc. the e in elex stands for emo #my dead brain be like oh boy 12am!! *decides to log on to here finally again*

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since i am trying to get my shit a bit more Together this year i’m gonna try and use my online time to writing stuff on here, @diseasedgrace​ and possibly @godhoarder​ cause i would like to spend it focusing on ocs atm for that sero tone in

#the latter blog is old and hasn't been touched since like 2019 december so to say #it needs to be updated is an understatement rdtfy #but yeah 2021 year of my heretical ferals cause reasons #i say as if every oc i have written ever wasn't unhinged in some way #also may pull a joker and make.....a blog...........for caster limbo from fate they infest my brain and soul so much #ooc. the e in elex stands for emo

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palevein·:

MOONLIGHT TREATS HIM WELL,    even should its heart be shrouded and mantle waned beside darkening nimbus clouds.   from between sharpened cracks,  harsh corners,  and an even harsher ambiance,  the stars seem and feel so very distant.  one smear along the sky is enough to chase them off,  their own light a mere blurred mummering when compared to the thousands upon thousands of lights set about the city. 

❝  i take it morbid things are to your liking ?  ❞   he is as subtle as a slip of silver.  a blink and he may be gone,  or perhaps he was always a trick of the light.  voice kept low,  shoulders neatly tightening as he marks his own approach.   ❝  you will find no shortage of them in these streets,  i assure you. ❞  

♱    @maiminglight·, 

the lights shift and morph under their gaze, wispy and ever moving. edges softening into lines, color losing it’s value till it’s all one orange hued blur. flames. they always see flames. even when they’d rather not. if only the stars were brighter, free from the mask of the clouds. “one could say that, yes.”

they do not turn to look at him. their response the only indicator they even knew someone was near. a back against another was oft considered a sign of one’s guard lacking, a free ‘hit me’ act, to the people they knew once. they had shed much of the thoughts and beliefs of their home, but sometimes they were plagued with remembering. “it would seem my company for the night is also of the morbid, no?”

#palevein #verse i / canon #property damage and tax evasion of course

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bloofer·:

*    ۵    @maiminglight·    /    sᴛᴀʀᴛᴇʀ  .

𝐒𝐇𝐄  𝐌𝐀𝐊𝐄𝐒  𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐄  𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘  𝐀𝐑𝐄  𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐁𝐋𝐄  𝐀𝐒  𝐂𝐀𝐍  𝐁𝐄  𝐀𝐓  𝐇𝐄𝐑  𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄  .   something  like  this  —   for  neither  survival  or  sustenance  is  very  special  ,   she  would  rather  them  not  in  pain  .   and  goodness  knows  they’ve  felt  enough  of  it  already  .

“    𝚒𝚝  𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕  𝚋𝚎  𝚊  𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎  𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎  𝚊  𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚜  ,   𝚖𝚢  𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚘𝚞𝚜  𝚘𝚗𝚎  .    ”    she  explains  ,   thinking  it  best  that  they  know  as  much  as  possible  beforehand  .    “    and  i  shall  only  take  a  bit  ,   the  worst  you  will  feel  is  a  bit  of  pressure  from  my  —   teeth  .    ”

lucy  giggles  ,   excited  beyond  all  else  that  they  offered  up  their  neck  as  a  willing  sacrifice  .   it  speaks  of  trust  .   she  pulls  them  into  a  cold  embrace  with  one  arm  ,   lifting  her  other  hand  to  gracefully  tilt  matlal’s  head  to  the  side  to  rest  on  her  shoulder  .

brushing  their  hair  back  ,   their  throat  and  healthy  pulse  is  bared  to  her  .   she  leans  in  ,   brushing  her  lips  against  their  fluttering  heartbeat  .

“    now  ,   are  you  certain  you  would  still  like  me  to  ?    ”

“you ask the silliest questions sometimes.” a laugh is in their voice, soft and gentle, fond even. truly they were brimming with fondness when around her. edges softening into something removed from hostile, growls turned in for purrs and chuckling. the beastly glare of glowing eyes seeking a victim...gone. for once, that eerie glow was not so startling. something like light inhabited that feared gaze.

they could- and would- never look at lucy with anything other than the most blatant of admiring gazes. she was so much different than them. she may have been cold on the outside but was warm in her actions. tender even. tenderness was nothing matlal knew, they did not mourn that which they never had, they could still learn after all. and learn they did in their time growing close with the pristine flower before them, acknowledging yet never speaking of the blood that stained its petals. they were a frozen morgue of a creature, and the blood kept them warm. “besides, i’m actually quite into the act of biting. nothing is prettier than someone who could rip my neck apart but chooses not to.”

#bloofer #verse i / canon #mmmm Gay

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inbox call as i try to finish this doc for another oc

#spooky season be making me think of horror muses Only and Nothing else i gotta exorcise myself #ooc. the e in elex stands for emo

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“do my crimes not offend? horrify? make you sick in any way?” ‘terror’, ‘forsaken beast’, ‘end of all’.  it seemed as though there were two ways one could view them, either with absolute reverence or fear beyond words. the latter had never bothered them and if anything proved to be a welcome alternative to the adoration they’d been drowned in. such...conflicting reactions did seem to eat at their own existence, forcing an ever open wound to bleed more and more. there was no natural love they could ever have, would ever have. only two kinds of extremes. “you’re strong yes, but much kinder than i. so why bother with one so bloody.”  /  @trionfale​​.

#trionfale #verse i / canon #i put them side by side like barbie dolls and sob

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“you have your way, i have mine. and the scion’s are just a bunch of goodie goodies that don’t know how things are really done.” latent and oft acting like the personal maid to eorzea was how the group of lightbarers appeared. sitting on their hands till granted permission to act instead of making the first move, the first bite, the one and only killing blow needed. years of being the so called prophet to a people who knew much about war and power had given matlal many opinions of the societies within the lands of others and their willfulness in the dragging of their feet.

“unlike the majority within this quaint cult of our’s though, i do not take kindly to words that ring of challenge.”  /  @echopulse​.

#echopulse #verse iii / ffxiv #hands aria a rude and mean lizard #idk what happened maybe they got into an argument fcjg #if you'd like something different tho feel free to tell me!!

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me: buys mh: world so i can use the chara creator to make mattie so i have more icons also me, looking at these download times: this is homophobia AND transphobia

#the full download is gonna take 16 hours and to start playing it is 6 #or so it says a min ago it wa sonly 15 and 5 but Ya Know How Shitty Internet Be #so. Yea. guess i crawl onto here to write since im kinda hm w/ my other muse rn #ooc. the e in elex stands for emo

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“don’t you dare touch me, or tell me to ‘relax’, vermin.” words spill like an infectious and poisonous smoke from his maw, pointed lower canines looking sharp enough to cut into his own flesh if he weren’t careful enough. reason for such vehement agitation was simple, violence followed matlal like a guardian angel, only it was not holy nor protective, it burned like a pyre with uncontrollable madness. no way to contain it nor want to at that. “you reek of eras past, i have no wish to smell of dust.”  /  @malefacere​​.

#malefacere #verse i / canon #could be first meeting could not be up to u!! cause either way mattie @ belial like When Will It Die its gross and indecent

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✦･ﾟ  share four songs / pieces of music that represent your muse! repost, don’t reblog!

witch of the vale  /  commemorate ( grendel remix )

palaye royale  /  anxiety

smash into pieces  /  godsent

elegant slims  /  not human

tagged by. stole it

#i have an entire playlist for them and this was hard to limit to four fyg i went with shuffle for at least two of these #ooc. the e in elex stands for emo

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𝙝𝙚𝙮! 𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙡𝙨? what about an artificial angel made out of bastardized science + magic who can make your character some yummy borsch? an angel who embodies all genders like an all-topping pizza, Androu is out trying to find their brother who’d suddenly severed nearly all ties with them——whilst stepping out into a world previously unknown to them; they’re willing to learn and want to make friends (even after almost dying at the hands of a man they thought they could trust——who they may or may not want to hunt down for revenge).

if any of this sounds appealing to you, then please give a like or reblog! (mun is harmless and surprisingly illiterate for being an english major.)

#i hold seraph in my hand like a glass doll cause they are gentle and i love them so much...... #both i and mattie would d word for androu too #promo. anti gods squad

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trionfale·:

Despite the fact that they were discussing the hypothetical notion of consuming him, Androu’s shoulders couldn’t help but bounce a bit with laughter. He steadies himself in a way that would allow Matlal to recline ‘gainst him if they so wished; small and lithe as their form was, they were not nearly as fragile as they looked.  ❝At least I know how to swim, so you won’t be having to pick me out from the bottom of the river. Though that also means I could probably swim away if you threw me in.❞

“you would leave me to the river’s cold edge? how mean!” there is unfiltered mirth in their voice, laughter trailing behind it. said laugh probably ringing in the other’s ear with how they hovered so close to him, almost hugging him as if to trap their companion. “i admit, i am no great swimmer, but i am stubborn. and that could carry me a great ways if it meant ensnaring one so sweet.” how much this chat of their’s was matlal being serious or simply using devouring androu as a metaphor for keeping them close could be debatable. at least for once they were having fun and genuinely showed it. 

#trionfale #verse iii / ffxiv #me soft and maybe a bit soggy cause mattie be care very much for rou......

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 ✦･ﾟ  indie & highly selective original character from original lore. / hewwo it is elex (formerly known as sal) back at it again with the feral ocs!! this one in question was a former ffxiv oc that i gave their own story as latinx coded dragons are nonexistent practically and i have to feed myself. they’re tall, goth, angry and always some form of horny (heh) and ready to kill all the gods cause the divine said fuck them on day one. kindly like or reblog this post if interested in my specific brand of feral nonbinary goth.

#oc rp #fantasy rp #indie fantasy rp #ooc. the e in elex stands for emo

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 ✦･ﾟ  INFO  /  mictlan title.

mictlan is both the name of the tonacatl’s primary god as well as the name given to those who succeed in becoming the chieftain of the clan. those with the title are viewed in a similar way to a lesser god, respected and admired by all tonacatl, seen as victory in war and over death personified. as such, when a reigning mictlan is defeated and killed by another of tonacatl blood, the victor is then made the next leader of the people. as matlal killed and cannibalized their cheiftan and aunt, he knew his people would name them the next mictlan, intensifying an already dreaded belief in him being their long gone silent maker reborn. it is why, as he stood in the flames of the flames surrounding him and his abuser, he choose to run away from the only world he’d ever known. leaving his family and people to panic and stress over who would become their new messiah.

throughout the years he has been away from his kin, he has heard word of their strife over choosing an heir to the last mictlan’s position, with some demanding it remain empty till they return home. though matlal has no intention of ever fulfilling the role their people so desperately want them to pick up, many deem them the only one suitable for it. 

#meta. secrets in the dark / can you feel anything but rage #deletes old meta to start rambling abt their canon meta instead tygtjh #fun fact: there is a 'stand in' mictlan who was not only matlal's only friend within the tribe but also their betrothed #he's very nice and kind and loves mattie very much but knows they don't love him back and he's okay with it

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𝑰 𝑶𝑵𝑳𝒀 𝑵𝑬𝑬𝑫 𝑨 𝑻𝑨𝑺𝑻𝑬 ,    independent & selective roleplay blog for ASTARION from BALDUR’S GATE 3 .  please click the  ♡  or  ↻  to help me search for fellow vampire lovers (  juicebags  )  &  writing partners or if you’d be interested yourself,  thank you !   written by gabby. 

#bro i'm always a slut for vampires #promo. anti gods squad