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ppls shirts will be like “I’m not antisocial I just hate you.” “I’m not sarcastic you’re just stupid.” bitch i don’t even know you

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perfectly carved, tiny skulls made from pearls

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Vera Cruz, 1987 | © Sarah Moon

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may I ask you, how did you come to heroin? who introduced you to the drug? how old were you? how did you feel after the first blast?

When i was in my early teens i was fascinated by the idea of drug use, i spend hours lurking forums for junkies and also i loved grunge music and culture where opiates have been soooo popular. But in that era i haven’t got any contacts, any plugs. When i was about 17/18 i first started using tramadol and codeine which gave me that fucking „warm fuzzies” i’ve been searching my whole fucking life. Then, by the time pass i started making friendships and contacts with people hooked on opiates. They introduced me to this. First i started taking oxycodone and morphine, at the beginning orally or per os. In my early 19 i started shooting morphine and heroin. But heroin wasn’t my DOC, that was morphine. I loved her as you may love your sister, your family member. That really fucked me up to the moment in my life i was obligated to go to rehab. Now, since January 2022 i’m on methadone and planning to slowly go sober. You ask what i felt by the first hit of H... i think nothing special. I was scared as fuck, worried about eventually OD, but nothing like that happened. I was chilled out, didn’t give a single fuck about what was going on. First by the long time i felt something like happiness, i was really glad. But at what cost, i was to find out soon.

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BTW I don't think I'm made for this world

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You will never understand the hell I feel inside my head

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charlotte kemp muhl

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