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Good morning, you have to be the thing that saves you

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I will entrench myself in literature this year no matter what the fuck it takes

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I sit beside the fire and think of all that I have seen, of meadow-flowers and butterflies in summers that have been; of yellow leaves and gossamer in autumns that there were, with morning mist and silver sun and wind upon my hair. I sit beside the fire and think of how the world will be when winter comes without a spring that I shall ever see. For still there are so many things that I have never seen: in every wood in every spring there is a different green. I sit beside the fire and think of people long ago, and people who will see a world that I shall never know. But all the while I sit and think of times there were before, I listen for returning feet and voices at the door.

J.R.R. Tolkien, from The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring

#i genuinely can’t wait to go to bandung. #the mountains and paddy fields #the train ride!!!!!!! #i need june to come by faster

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how do i get out of freeze mode what the hell 🤣☹️

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fyodor leaves little sticky notes all around the house for u to find with lil sweet nothings abt how he loves you and things that remind him of u and when he’s gonna be home and and and he just cares so much and wants u to know he’s always thinking abt u

#whyd i think of fyodor dostoevsky ??? #and why did i agree that he would ????

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world's brainfoggiest girl trying her absolute hardest to complete a simple task

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Romanticizing studying/education

While I am not currently enrolled in college, something I found incredibly helpful when it came to studying and taking notes was fully romanticizing it. And by that I mean going all the way in— I would put on a classical music playlist and set my LEDs to a warm orange tone and pretend I was a young scholar in ye olden days studying by candlelight, and a couple hours later I’d have half a notebook filled with color-coded notes. Another time I put on some film noir jazz and rain ambience and imagined I was a tired, grizzled detective working tirelessly on a cold case that just wasn’t making sense. And sure enough, I would have pages upon pages of notes and work completed by the end of the night. It sounds really silly but I shocked myself with how well it worked, and I wanted to share my experience with it in case it can help anyone else!

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I love grandma activities… sleeping early, drinking tea, knitting, buying ugly sweaters and tacky clothing, gardening, feeding all the neighbourhood cats, sewing… Im all abt that!

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made some friends everyone say hi

#film #pretty horses

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i am a big believer in letting music (and other media) come to you when you're ready for it. you may only know vaguely of an acclaimed beloved artist and suspect that you'd be into them but just... not ever get around to it. and then in 15 years one of their songs just hits you the right way and what a gift to suddenly have all of their works to explore! there is no hurry; what is good is always good.

#ok me but with murakami #hated norwegian wood 2 years ago but i love it now ???

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2024 must be a sexy year. there’s no other choice

#can’t wait for my bali + bandung trips #also means i have to study #ugh. #😞

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eternal sunshine of the spotless mind; 2004 kate winslet as clementine

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Also self care SUCKS most of the time. Like it’s not fun at all. It’s doing the stuff you don’t want to, like cleaning your room, submitting that form, going to the gym that first time, having that conversation you avoided or making that call. It’s doing stuff that lets you unwind and stop worrying, and most of the time, that involves confronting and overcoming something you really would rather avoid.

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ideally i would be making a dress pattern and sewing, realistically i’m doom scrolling

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people will still love you despite it all!! they will love you with some pimples on your face. they will love you if your stomach is bloated. they will love you if your legs aren’t shaved. they will love you even if you stutter or if you’re weight has fluctuated or if you aren’t the best version of yourself. they will love you despite it all.

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I literally send a paragraph via email groveling for my very existence only for professors to send “kay” back