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why are we still doing this like it even matters

you can think what you want of me i know i've murdered who i was to you many times over but so have you

i gaslighted you, you gaslighted me, even if neither were in a purposely harmful manner, i never sought out to make you feel crazy or lied to i was trying to be who you wanted me to be for you

i left to grow and move on bc i knew i couldn't in your company and we're still arguing like we're in the same room together so what distance have i actually put between us anyways

ive had many feeble attempts to remove the hold you seem to have on me and none have made any progress i don't know what to do anymore we just keep screaming that we cared about the other more and it was all their fault

i don't even know what my plan was here i was just gonna take time and try to be better and i did it out of anger bc i knew if i talked to you abt it i would stay even if you didn't try to convince me to so i left when i felt i could and the timing haunts me i know you hate me for that

you can think i'm crazy and better off gone and count your blessings to feel at peace but while your telling your side of the story and getting mad to yourself, know the hardest part of it all as a whole has been dealing with hurting you and staying away not that you would let me back anyways it seems

i loved you, i love you and sometimes the emotion switches but keeps the same strength and i guess i can never apologize enough for that and if we never speak again i hope you can see this bullshit we entertain on this app as what it is and remember me how i was before the feelings grew like mold and were killing me from the inside out

this is at 3:23 am just woke up from a bad dream and went on my phone to check because that's how much i still think about you, ive been scared of you viewing me as weak or laughing at my seemingly unending infatuation the length of our time together, almost as deeply as i love you

love and fear made me into what i am to you right now, but hey atleast were communicating honestly now

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i deserve better than caring what you think of me after all you put me through

at least i won't be drowning is self written fairytales

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The wind in the trees. 1898. Cover art.

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Old article about Lana Del Rey in Lake Placid News (click to enlarge)

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Face Jug 19thC

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Poisoned purity

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Kupa river (Culp fluss) - etching from the book The Glory of the Duchy of Carniola (Die Ehre des Hertzogthums Crain) by Joann Weikhard von Valvasor, published in 1689 by Moritz Endter in Nuremberg.

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Tumblr isn't social media, it's a habit. Like smoking. We're all gathering by the dumpster in the cold, reblogging posts.

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Rock crystal statuette of the goddess Bastet in her form of sacred cat

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hole pretty on the inside album ad 

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