🐝 * ― 𝑷𝑹𝑨𝑰𝑺𝑬 𝑲𝑰𝑵𝑲 𝑷𝑯𝑹𝑨𝑺𝑬𝑺.
❛ that's it. that's my good girl / boy. ❜
❛ what a perfect pout you have. ❜
❛ you have the perfect lips for kissing. ❜
❛ i can't stop thinking about your ass. ❜
❛ i love the way you moan for me. ❜
❛ you always know just what i need. ❜
❛ i'm going to show you off to everyone. ❜
❛ take it for me, i know you can. ❜
❛ you really know how to use your fingers to get me off. ❜
❛ you have no idea what you're doing to me. ❜
❛ who's my beautiful girl / boy? ❜
❛ i'm so proud of you for taking me so well. ❜
❛ i love the way you look when you're on your knees. ❜
❛ you're such a pleasure to use. ❜
❛ you're so beautiful when you struggle for me. ❜
❛ look how hard / wet / aroused you get for me, perfect. ❜
❛ you take my cock so well. ❜
❛ one more for me, you're doing such a good job. ❜
❛ your body was made for me. ❜
❛ you want to be a good girl / boy for me, don't you? ❜
❛ what a sweet little treat you are. ❜
❛ you're doing so good. keep taking it ... just like that. ❜
❛ look how beautiful you look all spread out and ready for me. ❜
❛ you're such a good girl getting all wet for me. you're all mine, aren't you? ❜
❛ you look so precious when you're needy. ❜
❛ that's it, just let go. let yourself feel good. ❜
❛ i can't get enough of you and how you make me feel. ❜
❛ the sounds you make when i fuck you are so hot. ❜
❛ you give the best head i've ever had. ❜
❛ i can't believe how good you are at that. ❜
❛ there you go, just like that. ❜
❛ that feels good, doesn't it? ❜
❛ you're doing such a good job. i can't wait to fuck you. ❜
❛ don't hold back. let me hear how much you love it. ❜
❛ i'm going to come if you keep doing that. ❜
❛ say my name, i love the way you say it. ❜
❛ you're all mine to use, aren't you? ❜
❛ you can do it, just a little more. ❜
❛ now be a good girl / boy and come for me. ❜
❛ damn, you look so amazing right now. ❜
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A bone deep ache settles within her flesh, the tendons of her wrist screaming for relief despite having been released to some degree and were Miriam in a far better mindset she'd likely recognize the beginning signs of some sort of danger approaching, or her mind would assume as much anyways. Nobody ever touched Miriam, two years of no affection, not even a simple handshake or pat to the back, a grip tightly clasping upon her hand was the opposite of what she'd spent so long yearning for and the brief primal panic settling into her heart hadn't even had the chance to fully be registered. Not when she feels blood soaked spikes against her arms, not while she sobs and clings to the boy who simply sat and did nothing.
It does little to quell the ache in her heart, her mind screaming for reprieve, to be free from her own employer and kicked to the streets because even whilst homeless she at least had someone to soothe her when she'd wake from nightmares, she didn't have to patch her own wounds because she had Gebel to tend to her whenever she'd nick herself whilst cooking, perhaps she did not have a bed nor her own private quarters back then but she was at her happiest even despite having nothing. Eventually her sobs die into nothing more than sniffles, numbness settling in as she remembers an all too familiar voice begging to see her smile once more, to not grieve something she has no control over simply because what good would it do? She lingers for only a moment longer, icy eyes clouding over before slowly pushing away from the boy, features still stained by the tears she'd shed before she's knelt right back down before the emperor.
Trembling hands are slightly sturdier, less shaky than they had been before yet they still held a slight tremor as she silently prepared another rag. There's no hint of a smile upon her features, fake as it often was when she had to tend to others, there was merely nothing. Crimson taints her face, her uniform, everything feels sticky with an ichor that she knows will linger long after she bathes and washes the fabric adorning her body. Memories would continue to haunt her, the metallic tang of blood would still linger within her nose for the days to come and she'd be powerless to stop it. She's an adult now, Miriam needs to act like it regardless of how terrified she feels. Tears continue to sting her eyes but still she maintains her silence.
Vaguely a sense of bitterness washes over her, thinking about the fact that she should be back with Gebel tending to him instead, he would appreciate the tenderness with which she works, her experience would not be brought into question because he would be grateful she was able to help him to begin with, he would not insult her for minor things or look down upon her for doing the less than desirable work that nobody else in this godforsaken place would do. Icy blues narrow ever so slightly, fingers swiftly wiping away at the boy's body once more, still gentle but far less careful and thorough. There's still an effort to not further irritate the lacerations upon his body but the warmth in her gaze has faded, why offer her compassion to someone that saw her as a mere bug.
How embarrassing to be seen in such a vulnerable moment, her grief having been so palpable she felt as though she could die and if she lingered far too much on that thought alone she'd likely scare herself with how tempting an idea that was. She's practically an adult now, adults do not weep over their work, adults do not allow others to witness their grief. Miriam is an adult now, adults led their decisions with logic, not their feelings nor their hearts and she figures perhaps now is the best time to fully have that lesson settle in. The lead scientist will be thrilled with her, perhaps he won't be pleased with how gentle she remains but those feelings she's struggled to bottle for so long have been released and with that she has emerged from her cocoon, an empty husk ready to do as she's told and perhaps no longer argue.
“ I apologize for my outburst. It won't happen again. ” She manages finally, voice quiet yet lacking while she backs away, grabs the sullied rags and her kit then stands up, gaze down turned while she silently awaits a dismissal. With how rushed Weiss's grip had been earlier she knows he won't give a damn if she'd done a good job or not, he wanted to leave and while she couldn't blame him, she also couldn't ignore the concerning and frankly ugly feeling of indifference slowly creeping upon her. Briefly her gaze flickers to the boy's features and while typically she felt some sort of caring warmth towards him, there's just an empty void.
It's for the best, soon he'd grow into an adult too, he wouldn't need her assistance any longer and then she would likely never see him again; Best to grow detached she supposes.
𝐮𝐩 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧, 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐬, exerting forceful motions as it rests atop hers. despite the age gap, his hands are almost oversized compared to hers, his grip firm enough to blanch her skin . . . it's a rare occurrence for the younger boy to reach out and touch miriam, let alone anyone else for that matter. but when he does, it's never with gentleness— a reflection of the harsh environment in which he was raised. even with the roughness with which he cleans himself, weiss's hand retains a surprising softness, the callouses from endless hours of fighting healing as rapidly as they form.
he pays no heed to pain nor to the discomfort his actions may cause the blonde woman. for a long moment, his indifference is almost palpable. he disregards her cries, unwavering in his task, showing no concern for her pleas of desire to handle things her own way. it seemed as if weiss would have continued until he deemed himself clean without care, but when he finishes one side, the cloth is thoroughly soaked, so he finally relents, releasing his grip.
as he prepares to issue more commands, to demand a fresh cloth or to state that he'll handle the task himself, his multicolored eyes lift from his abdomen to meet miriam's gaze. however, before he can utter a word, he freezes, startled by the sound of her loud sobs ringing in his ears and the sudden embrace of her arms around him. despite the shock of the unexpected gesture, weiss remains immobile, his expression still flat. all his mind manages is a comparison of the sensation of her soft, warm embrace to the cold, bony arms of nero to which he had grown accustomed. her skin against his feels suffocating, the fabric of her standard - issue deepground uniform only exacerbating the discomfort gnawing at his stomach. itching.
an idea of pushing her off or simply attacking breaches his mind, but as he realises his dominant hand is suddenly sandwiched between them, he breathes a resigned exhale and lets the impulse dissipate, allowing his arm to relax. it's a familiar action, one that has always been for nero's benefit rather than his own. weiss has never minded offering this comfort; he finds solace in the feeling of his brother's deft fingers digging into the fabric of his top, the sound of nero's sobs as he struggles to regain composure, the darkness that encroaches upon his pale flesh. yet he feels none of that now; only the lingering annoyance from before lingers.
his usually flat features finally betray a hint of emotion as a frown pulls at his lips, listening to her pleas. she couldn't do it herself; she had entered the room trembling and shaking, clearly ill - equipped for the task at hand. rosso would have been a better choice, weiss muses silently. at least she knows what to do without caring about the method. then weiss could leave — he wants to be with nero, not here pressed against helpless miriam. with the restrictor out in the hall, weiss wonders if the man would kill him for hurting this girl . . . probably, and he needn't give the man an actual reason to retaliate — when simply being a nuisance is enough to incur his wrath. ❛❛ . . . ❜❜ her cry, a question laced with desperation, hangs in the air, met only with absolute silence and contempt from weiss. it's a response most are accustomed to from the white - haired child, one he has never bothered to change. after all, he has nothing to say — so why waste his breath on a mere human ?
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Hiccups are next to wreak havoc upon her body, silent yet still clearly making her form jolt and twitch while her vision blurs; How pathetic, how embarrassing and mortifying because she's sixteen and she's practically a grown up now and weeping like a child wasn't going to finish this job, sobbing isn't going change the fact that this was her duty and it certainly isn't going to convince anyone to cease this non sense. The tears continue to flow much like the blood lapping upon pallid flesh and staining it a deep crimson; The color was once something she found comfort in, red being something she associated with Gebel because it had been his favorite color and her older brother had the best tastes so of course red would be her favorite too up until she became more of her own person, found she much preferred the mellow tones of blues and purples compared to the loud boldness of red and yet she loved the color still.
Loved, now it was simply just another sight that left her ill and wary because red never signified anything good, not anymore. Her silence is a rarity but what could she talk about that wouldn't feel wrong? Tales from the surface hardly felt appropriate at the moment but then again so did speaking in general and even then Miriam isn't sure she could speak properly to begin with. The blonde had never done well under pressure regardless of the circumstances, she had no reason to fear for her safety simply because the boy never gave her a reason to yet for some reason being completely alone left to his mercy while trying to tend to him left her on high alert, nerves singing with distress because she's heard of what's been done to Weiss, doesn't want further irritate him should be be in a less than pleased mood.
( So much for that though... )
He was always indifferent, unresponsive to some degree and while she typically didn't mind it, now only left her on edge with how quiet he is. She should have noticed from the tensing in his arm that he was going to make a grab for her and yet still she freezes like a deer in headlights, wide crystalline eyes staring up at the blood covered boy and she barely registers the way her hand shifts away from where she'd been originally wiping, hardly realizes just how close to an injury her fingers rested and then she simply shuts down, the tears that never stopped only continued onwards and left angry red trails beneath her gaze. “ Stop. ” Her voice whispers, “ Please, just let me... Let me do my job my way, please. ”
And despite her begging, the sobs wracking through her small frame, she can't force herself to pull away from Weiss's grasp. It isn't until he stops forcing her hand that she drops the rag, body lurching forward to gently wrap trembling arms around his body and she sobs and sobs and sobs until her voice grows raw and her lungs burn from trying to breathe. Crimson cakes over her once pristine uniform, taints her blonde hair into a disgusting orange and yet she doesn't care one bit. The constant fear she's experienced for the last two years has finally caught up and she couldn't continue to push it deep deep down until it would be forgotten about only to arise at the next incident she'd inevitably be forced into. She hates it, hates the feeling of being watched despite knowing there was nobody to observe her and yet it still lingered beneath her skin and the rot of feeling as though it should be her laid upon that table with her ribs ripped open and bare for uncaring fingers to dig into only heightened that hatred for herself.
“ Please... I can do it myself, just let me do it myself I promise I'll do a good job, you don't need to help me. I'm not.. I'm not incapable, am I..? ”
𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐜𝐡𝐨 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐩𝐬 𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐝𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐭 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬, the metallic clang of her medical kit, each of her knees thudding as they bang against the stained tile — all amplified by his heightened senses. she isn't being loud, not by any means but enhanced ears pick things like that up, every little thing, to the hum of electricity, the beating of his heart . . . and even the unsettling scurry of tiny incest legs as they crawl among in innards. it forced a dull ache to pound into his skull, but to what the adults around him may view as peculiar, it doesn't hurt. unlike nero, who often succumbs to sobs that wrack his frame, or rosso, who scrunches her face and groans in pain, weiss remains stoic. but that's simply due to the fact their time within this room does hurt, while his experience always fails to elicit the same response. perhaps because what's done to them is worse . . . but they're weaker than him, so it isn't really a fair comparison.
more indifferent thoughts flow past him as weiss remains inattentive. nothing manages to anchor his attention, not when the wet feeling of damp cloth presses against his incision site. weiss may not need first aid, but they wanted him washed before kicking him from the labs. yet the boy was blasé to the state he returned in; he hardly cared for his own appearance. it was only blood, after all, everyone was used to it. but the idea of worrying nero kept him compliant; he silently acquiesced all given to him rather than protest, simply for his brother's well - being, not his own. how he yearned to close his eyes and retreat to their little shared room. where they owned nothing but a small bed and chest, filled with a deepground uniform and a standard issued blade. though those items and everything else contained by metal walls didn't belong to weiss, he had nero, who was his — the only thing the boy truly needed, more so than the air he breaths . . .
white brows furrow at the girl's words as they shatter his reverie, they ring loud in his ears and interrupt the thoughts of nero — probably huddled in the far corner of their room, patiently waiting. had anyone else entered through that door, this would be over; they wouldn't waste time carefully dabbing away blood when the boy didn't complain if a bucket of water was dumped atop him with zero concerns of delicacy. yet, he harbours no animosity for the human on her knees before him; his disdain is reserved only for the way she dwindles. i don't want to bring you any more pain; she said as if he could feel it as if the way her hands continuously shook weren't causing irritation.
the to - be emperor only squints, white hair, now a mix of white, reds and pinks, falling down his shoulders, obscuring his face more so than his bangs usually do. he contemplates allowing her to work; weiss doesn't mind the silence, and perhaps had it not been so long since he last saw his brother, he wouldn't mind the speed. usually, the time spent with this particular scientist is all right, stories of the surface spilling from her lips as if she were there mere hours ago, but now the boy holds no patience. lifting his hand from his side, nails still caked in blood and tissue alike; he reaches for the cloth she delicately holds, forcing both her hand and the fabric firmly against his toned stomach, worryingly close to the still - opened wound. with a single word, he swiftly starts to guide her hand, roughly rubbing at bloodied and irritated skin. ❛❛ there. ❜❜
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“ Intelligence wasn't a big factor in the matter; It was communication and understanding that would have solved many of the problems we'd had. Perhaps had I been less vain and more brave things would be different but... ” There was no changing the past, only learning from his mistakes and understanding how to continue forwards with that new knowledge. Pain and anxiety had driven Genesis to biting his tongue and in doing so it cost him dearly though the more he lingers upon it, what could he have said? Zack had been merely a teenager with a dream he hoped to achieve and were Genesis to just come and announce that ShinRa, the company known for producing heroes and being so terribly incredible ( yeah right ) was actually the enemy and he should leave while he could? The ginger knew were he in the younger man's position during such a scenario he would laugh it off, think the deliverer of the message was insane and brush their warnings off, perhaps even share what knowledge he'd gleaned with those in charge.
It's ridiculous though to stew upon the matter, nothing could be done about it now.
As it lingers more within his mind, Genesis recalls many discussions held with those he cherished most over the years and a new grief washes over his tranquil features; He's lost everyone and it had been by his own doing, pushing Angeal to joining his cause despite knowing the honorable man would rot in his guilt, pushing Sephiroth further over the edge over something so foolish and ridiculous just because of his spite and arrogance.
“ That's where the strength comes in. A weaker man would give up and allow ShinRa to rend through his flesh instead of continuing onwards, you might not think it a symbol of strength but I certainly do. ” It could also be seen as incredibly foolish depending on the man but then again courage walked a fine line between bravery and lunacy, there was not much either of them could do aside from play into the hands of the Goddess or risk her ire by going against destiny itself.
Auburn tufts flow with the breeze, sage eyes flickering to Zack's features curiously before he laughs softly, brings a leg to his chest to rest his chin upon with a soft sigh. “ Then when you leave I fear I'll either return to the planet or be taken back by that damned Hojo. I am content with what is to become of me Zack, don't force yourself to babysit me merely out of duty. ” There's a brief, thoughtful pause. “ Though I'm more than happy to answer whatever it is that eats away at your curiosity; Whatever it is you feel the need to ask I'm sure I'll have an answer, that's what 'Geal always said about me anyways. ”
Eyes shut for merely a moment, an amused hum thrumming through the older man's body. “ Philosophical questions, I'm afraid, are too convoluted even for a man of my caliber, I think the meaning of a soul is whatever you make of it; Just the same as there's no such thing as truly good nor truly evil, unless of course your name is Hojo and you have a grating laugh in which case true evil certainly would apply. ” Then a subtle tilt to his head, “ Had things turned out differently I think perhaps I'd have enjoyed working alongside you. ”
"If I was a smarter person, I would have understood how you felt earlier." 'Course, opening the mouth and speaking those feelings out loud would also have helped. Not that Zack imagined he would have understood even if the road was mapped out clearer. There were a hell of a lot of 'what if' scenarios that ran wild through his mind. A natural respond to the trauma of the situation. It was only human to feel like something more could be done, as though their super abilities could extend to combating fate too.
If they couldn't achieve the impossible, what good were they really?
Genesis wasn't the only one he blamed for leaving him in the dark. He had a lot of ill feelings for Angeal too. His friend, his mentor, leaving him in the dust and then asking HIM, of all people, to put an end to it.
"Not sure about strong, Gen, but I have no choice but to keep going forward." Because the only other option was to turn back and that was no choice at all. There were people waiting for him and he wasn't going to disappoint them. He was gonna rise again in whatever capacity that meant.
He abruptly lifted his eyes, leaning toward him just a little bit more. "Don't talk like that. You're gonna be fine. I'm here, I'll look after you. Enemy or not, doesn't matter. There's still a lot of things I want to ask you." He could learn a lot from him. Now that he was in a position to actually LISTEN, he might even absorb the information.
"Something like.... what the meaning of a soul is. You like questions like that, right?" He grinned. "Though remember who you're speaking to." Had to Zack Fair modify the answers~
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That's the funny thing about her position, high risk and very little reward in comparison and yet she still did what was expected of her, ill as she felt stood in the crimson stained lab with nothing but the clothes upon her back and the metal case filled with medical supplies she supposes there's always the possibility that perhaps her mentor could have set her up for failure in this little job. ( I won't fail though, he needs aid. ) It's a worrying thought, curiosity lingered within the depths of Miriam's mind though and concern had long since permanently etched itself into her pallid features. The gentle clank of metal against tile sounds soon after, knees aching as the blonde applies her weight to them to open the case and rummage around as quietly as she can. The worst part of being forced to clean up the subjects was the fact that she always felt guilty for irritating their injuries.
It was a rotten job but she supposes it's even worse to be on the receiving end and the fact that if she resigned or was forced to relocate to a different part of the company, ( as much a blessing as that would be, frankly ) she also knows someone else will be forced to do her job and Miriam much prefers being stuck with the dirty work no matter how much it hurts her heart, no matter how many tears she sheds when all is said and done nor the sleepless nights of remembering the feeling of flesh and sinew beneath her fingertips melding back together whilst she worked; If not her then how is she to know that the subjects are being treated with dignity during such an awful cleanup. She sighs softly, looks up at the boy with tear-filled eyes and nods ever so slightly at how resigned the remark is.
“ I have to. ” She whispers softly, features dropping into a soft frown while thin fingers pick up the cloth and saline in her kit. “ I want to make sure you're as comfortable as you can be though, I don't want to bring you any more pain than needed while I tend to your wounds. ” And she knows it's foolish, the boy had grown up with little regard for what he wanted and for his own autonomy based on what she's seen over the last two years and that only further breaks her heart into pieces. Miriam lingers far too much on the thought that he shouldn't be sat here with irritated flesh and blood coating nearly every inch of his body. He's a child still, he should be playing with other kids and not worrying about anything more than a scraped knee and yet she also notes the fact that she herself had to give up those experiences as a kid, homelessness and a lack of any guardians were a disastrous mix for two children but her and Gebel had somehow managed to scrape by on the minimum kindness of strangers.
That desperation for money though, for stability and Gebel falling under the weather a bit had pushed her into where she knelt now, hands dousing the cloth carefully before gently dabbing away at the boy's wounds, her throat feels as though it's swelling from the awful pit in her stomach and once more that urge to empty the contents of it rises then falls like an ocean's tide. There's something wet dripping down her face while Miriam works, breaths just as shaky as her hands while she works and works away at removing the crimson from the boy's flesh, it still looks irritated and she can feel the subtle shifting of it knitting itself back together even through the blood soaked cloth. Eyebrows pinch tightly together in focus, hands shifting away to grab a clean cloth and start the process anew into a cycle that only pushes her mind further and further off to some far away land where she's sat beneath the sun basking in its warmth, that the liquid sticking to her fingers, her legs, wasn't sticky blood but rather the cool water of a lake.
She pretends the wounds she's cleaning are nothing more than scratches yet still dabs away at them as gently as she can, though there's no stopping the distinct scent of blood from ruining her delusion and the blonde is forced to come to terms with the fact that she's sat before a child tending to injuries that most adults would never live through and it only makes the trembling in her body all the worse, her sobs choking and suffocating her while she still tries to diligently work.
𝐛𝐥𝐮𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐠𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬 𝐩𝐞𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧, mako having almost taken over what was once primarily the colour of polished amber. no one speaks to him; they don't even look at weiss, but he watches them — the way they smile, the stubble clinging to their chins, the wrinkles sagging their eyes. he'd kill them all, not for the crime of hurting him ( because it doesn't hurt ) but for laying their fingers on his brother. he listens to their scratching voices, groans of relief that this torture is over, that they can have a break. he is merely an afterthought, only being released just before the last man walks out . . .
remaining motionless, his gaze goes from the door, watching it close with a loud creak, then to the buzzing, luminescent light above him. they ring in his ears, contradicting the loud rhythm of his heart beating. the pain of his skin, as it forces it back to being whole, felt worse than when it was cut open. like the sharp blade is back in his stomach, digging in, twisting, working as a sewing needle despite only leaving large cuts. it's wasn't just a dull ache that hit the surface; it was sharp, affecting his insides just as much as the outside, a stabbing sensation that feels like knives twisting and tearing. with his arms free, weiss contemplates forcing his hands into the open wounds and forcing it to remain open. his fingers twitch. the irrational thought of the picture book bug persists as if it's crawling inside him along with a thousand tiny insects, each one leaving behind a trail of burning, itching sensations. the scientists said they couldn't see any difference between him and a human no matter where they looked. his blood, urine, bones, organs, eyes, muscles, and hair were all that of a human being. and yet, as he laid out on the cold operating table, surrounded by enough blood to scare even the most stone - faced of man, weiss was anything but. to consider himself human made him sick; he wanted nothing to do with them — it didn't matter if there wasn't a physical difference, weiss would tear himself apart to prove he wasn't the same species.
pushing himself up with a painful wheeze, the young boy turns towards the metal door, placing a hand on his lower abdomen to scratch. it hurts, halting the regeneration as his blunt nails rip over and over. it's painful, and no matter how much he scratch or rub at his skin, the discomfort persists. as if weiss' entire body is rebelling against him, screaming out in protest against the unbearable torment he'd allowed himself to endure. but weiss doesn't stop — even as every breath he takes is agony, sending shooting pains through his chest, making it feel like his lungs were being squeezed in a vice — and if it weren't for the footsteps approaching, he'd have simply dug his hand deeper into the gaping wound, removing the organs to finally stop the pain. but instead, weiss lets his hand fall, fingertips now stained, mirroring the rest of him.
he doesn't greet the girl with a frown, not a smile either; he's entirely devoid of anything. for the past couple of days, he'd been nothing but a lifeless bug for those around him to pin as they pleased, and his mind had accepted that fact, nothing short of being at nero's side would repair that. he stares at the girl, unblinking, watching her wobble as if she's in pain. maybe she is, he wonders; when the scientists run out of bugs to pick apart, do they turn on each other like the soldiers do ? they weren't like him, though; they didn't get up after a bullet to the head and didn't continue to breathe even with their heart pulled from their chest, so he guessed not.
❛❛ you're going to. ❜❜ he states, his own voice foreign to his ears. the injection to get him moving again hadn't spread entirely through his system, and it seemed his throat still wasn't functioning, that or the lack of food and water was affecting him. it didn't matter though, once his stomach had finished, his body could focus on healing the rest of him . . .
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There is something so strange about how swiftly a wondrous opportunity can fall into lunacy, two years was all it took to go from a young lady with a bright future to feeling helpless, miserable and constantly afraid. Fear was something she had come to know all too well, cycling through her system alongside grief while she's forced to carry out orders because she was such a promising assistant that could truly make it big with her dedication if only she shut up and listened, if only she used her brain more than her heart and thought with logic rather than feelings. That's what she'd been told by the man in the glasses, his rat-like features contorting with grating laughter after each demand, each insult thrown towards her. It wasn't the constant belittling though that left her trembling each day, rather the ache in her heart to see so many suffering and being able to do nothing about it; Children, elderly, there was no discrimination in the pain that was inflicted upon the residents within the labs and yet no matter how she pleaded to treat them as the people they were, her grief was only ever mocked.
Miriam isn't shocked one bit when a metallic tang invades her senses, heavy footsteps swiftly approaching the blonde teenager before barking a demand at her. Clean-up, tend to the subject. It cackles, her heart drops into her stomach but she knows there's nothing she can say nor do to convince the man otherwise and even then, whoever was just tested on deserved gentle hands tending to their wounds, not clumsy fingers digging into already sore and irritated flesh. She sees the blood tainting his gloved fingers, once pristine coat stained in crimson and Miriam knows it's bound to be a mess, a disaster of a scene that will be added amongst the many other scenes carved into her memory. ( I'll be okay, I have to be okay. ) It's a silent mantra, one that she never fully believed but it was enough, it had to be enough to continue onwards as best she can even with the heavy guilt that ate away at the pallid teenager.
Her journey to the lab is long and tedious, many researchers glancing to her knowingly and none offering any warning for the sight she's bound to walk into and yet despite how insistent she had been to herself she would be fine, that nothing could be nearly that bad, she has to force herself from emptying what little she had eaten the night before at the strong scent of blood, at the child sat in the center of the crimson stained room and the way his flesh melded back together unnaturally. Tears sting hot upon her eyes, threatening to spill over as she fights her body's urge to retch and cautiously approaches him; He's familiar, one of the children she's tended to many times for shots and injections and basic check ups because that work was far too tedious for the older scientists, they were too good for mere nurse work and yet she never minded much.
“ Weiss... ” Soft and grief filled, her voice barely manages to break past her lips whilst Miriam slowly approaches the crimson covered boy with trembling legs. Teeth burrow deep into her cheek, senses being flooded with the salty taste of her own blood while she fights to remain stoic, struggles to force a gentle smile upon her features once she's knelt in front of the child. “ I... I'm here to clean you up, can... Can I do that? ”
@sleeplesswork | Weiss the Immaculate ;;
it's always the same; each and every day blends into the last, marring the young boy's concept of time. he'd never spent so long without nero since his brother was born, and something about that simple fact felt worse than the hands prodding at his insides; hurt more than the way a scalpel doesn't even try to be delicate as it cuts its way through pallid skin. he's conscious the entire time, whatever drugs the scientists had administered do nothing but take away his ability to move. weiss reminds himself of a bug pinned beneath a glass frame; he'd seen the picture in a book one of the scientists had given to him to pass the time. the only difference between himself and that creature was that whoever posed and pinned it was benevolent enough to kill the thing. the scientists examined weiss's organs to see if there were any differences between himself and humans — he thought about how the bug's wings were spread wide, ready to fly off of the books' page at any moment — there was nothing remarkable about the boy's organs, so they ran blood tests, again nothing. weiss wondered what it would take to kill a bug. would it be the same as slaughtering monsters, or easier because of its small size ?
as his skin forced itself back together, and his heart pounded within his ears, weiss's thoughts came to a halt when the head scientists declared they wouldn't get anywhere at this rate. the room was a mess after a week's worth of dissections, so they'd send in someone to clean up weiss and take him back to his cell, then the room would be sterilised, and they could resume. that was good; whatever was left of the boy's consciousness decided, he'd be able to see nero now.
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Eyebrows raise ever so slightly, her features contorting into visible confusion at the man's expression simply because she doesn't quite understand what she could have said that may have upset him. Over the years Valk has learned to be as objective as possible, her feelings never mattered much as far as... Well, anything really and for him to be frowning over her stating something she found to be obvious was intriguing to say the least. The blue eyed woman isn't too sure about how those on the surface view medics but in Deepground they were only good for their job and that was it, they weren't highly respected but there was an unspoken rule to not cause them too much grief be it due to the Restrictors or because the citizens knew they'd be out of luck if they needed medical assistance and there were none with the necessary skills to aid them.
Even then though, it wasn't as if she were unarmed and it was clear from the muscle definition of her biceps and thighs alone that Valk was not untouched by the need for combat. “ Twelve years of experiencing the same pretty words will do that. ” She comments dryly, face softening once more at how nice of an expression he had. It's pleasant, warm like the sun she's not seen in so terribly long and she finds that his gaze wasn't terrible either, not nearly as cold and hateful as she was used to. ( Such pretty eyes, like sunlit honey. )
“ I could never do such a thing. ” And it's breathed out so wistfully, sorrow lingering within her voice despite the smile pulling upon her lips, then shame flickers in her gaze. “ I've tried for many years to be seen as something more, someone worth something but I'm only good for what my hands can mend I fear. It's not as though I demand respect or kindness in turn because I know to them I'm just as bad as the scientists that rend through their flesh. ” She'd learned early on, long before a dull ache tainted her spine and an ever present chill left her yearning for the warmth of a pleasant spring day, no matter how kind she was nor how successful she had been in tending to injuries, Valk was just as big a monster as the rest of the scientists purely because of her job. Desperation had pushed her into a position she no longer wanted to be in but she's no choice in how her life goes anymore.
“ It doesn't, but... It's nice to have hopes sometimes. I have dreams of feeling the sun once more, to hear my name uttered by those I had to leave behind and perhaps some day find the same kindness I show to others here, that you've shown to me as of late. I know it's naïve and really foolish but it makes being here slightly more tolerable. ”
𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲, 𝐯𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐚𝐛𝐬 𝐰𝐚𝐬𝐧’𝐭 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 the shinobi was entirely keen on. blinding lights and the stark smell of antiseptics were enough to tell that terrible things occurred before and after sonon was within the white walls. based on what the sable had divulged, he'd been right . . . so it was always surprising to be greeted with a soft — if somewhat strained — smile when he entered. at first, it simply was because of the wounds nero had inflicted during their fight; after that, it was to make sure they were healing properly, and then it became the wutaian dropping by whenever the emperor's younger brother was held up somewhere, which was often . . . he knew to look out for other patients, scientists and restrictors, but thus far sonon considered himself lucky, yet to run into any large bumps in the road. ( but for how long would that last ? )
with his arms relaxed by his side, the shinobi almost frowns as the dark - haired woman continues. he'd grown to enjoy her company, and since nero hadn’t voiced any complaints, sonon hadn’t paid mind to anyone else’s opinions. he may be a prisoner in just about every sense of the word, he was still free to form his own opinions and to stick to them. perhaps his thoughts would change; the longer he stayed, the darker they grew, but it wouldn’t change the beliefs he'd grown with. during the darker days in wutai, he'd seen nurses and those who assisted in first aid go through just as much as the soldiers did . . . it wasn’t fair to assume them as less simply because they held no weapon.
❛❛ you’re certain, huh ? ❜❜ despite the seriousness of his words, sonon still manages a smile, speaking lightly — as if the duo were some where else in the world, like they weren’t within a laboratory that people were torn apart in. it was something unique to the shinobi for while most below the city had a way of making this underground hell even more suffocating, such a thing couldn’t be said about the brown - eyed man. though perhaps that was simply due to not being here as long as most . . .
❛❛ you ought to leave me bleeding if I’m suddenly rude to you ❜❜ a laugh spills past his lips, one that doesn’t quite carry over to his following words. ❛❛ if that’s how you expect everyone to see you, treat you, it’s always gonna happen . . . ❜❜ dark brows furrow for a moment; that’s how he sees it, at least. something, something about willing those negative things into existence, but then nero comes to mind, where they are hits him, and the wutaian knows she’s right. in the world valk lives in ( the one he's been forced into ) there’s no laughing something off and hoping for it to get better. ❛❛ though, guess that sort of thinking doesn’t get you far in deepground. ❜❜
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“ Likewise, I quite like spoiling my dates you know. ” Despite the purr to his voice there's a refusal to properly meet Sephiroth's gaze, something about feeling far too seen and a meekness seldom observed within the sage eyed man. His heart stirs slightly at the idea of something more, this wasn't going to just be casual sex if they're going to have dates and such and even then it's only further solidified the fact that his feelings for the taller man most definitely weren't unrequited. It's as thrilling as it is terrifying because they'd be stepping into uncharted territory for their friendship and yet he's already trying to think of ways for them to enjoy their time together. Fancy dates were nice but Genesis knew the silver haired man well enough to know public outings weren't particularly enticing and he was inclined to agree, privacy being something the ginger also valued.
He's ripped from his thoughts with a jolt, eyes wide before he grumbles softly in irritation and fully sits up properly. “ Careful now, I'll think you've fallen hopelessly in love with me if you speak like that. ” There's a soft laugh once more, body visibly relaxing while observing the other man, grins at the feeling of lips pressing against his face before gently grabbing Sephiroth's jaw to keep his face in place, plants a chaste kiss to the silver general's mouth in turn.
“ Mm.. That works for me, though to be frank I think a night in would do us fine; Dinner at mine perhaps? We'll find a day for it, that way we'll have privacy. ” And it's not even for the sake of what their night will inevitably end with but simply because he wanted a calm night for their first date, something truly intimate and special rather than being gawked at. There's a soft hum, curious before he nearly chokes then nods along, “ Oh? Well I won't say I'm opposed to the idea so long as you're fine with it; I've always wanted to see how it is you wash your hair. ”
"Properly seduce me? Hm, I think I'll be looking forward to that." Sephiroth grins a little, tilting his head as he looks at Genesis, simply admiring him. A date would be...something. It's not anything like he's used to. He very much keeps to himself, content with his books and his own company. Going out means facing those crowds of people who would do nothing but swarm him all night. While he can deal with it, it does get a bit overwhelming after a while, especially when he's just trying to enjoy himself. Still, for Genesis...he would bear it. Maybe they could go on a night where there might not be so many people out. That way they could both have a little peace with each other.
He stretches his arms above his head, and that's when a secondary alarm goes off. Sephiroth nearly jumps in surprise, having forgotten to turn it off when he initially woke up. "Look at that, you made me forget about this alarm. See the effect you have on me?" he teases, pressing the off button before he leans over and presses a kiss to Genesis' cheek. This kind of joy is something he hasn't felt in a very long time. Part of Sephiroth hopes that he never has to be without it.
"But..we really should get up. Maybe we can plan our, um, date later. If you want." It feels strange to say it out loud. A date with Genesis, something he thought he might only ever dream of. "When we have downtime. I was thinking we could go when not a lot of people would be out, but...we can hash out the details at another time." And pause, then he clears his throat before "...The shower should be big enough for both of us, if you have no issues with me joining you."
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The thought comes naturally to her, something she can't help but to voice out of mere curiosity while she tends to her company, Kusakabe had made himself well acquainted within her lab and while she certainly enjoyed the man's company, she can't help but wonder why he visited so often; It definitely wasn't just a matter of her tending to his wounds anymore simply because she didn't need to check those every time he stops by to say hello and chat about whatever comes to mind. Thus she comes to a conclusion, he likely views her as weak much the same as the Tsviets do otherwise he would be spending his time elsewhere instead of killing it in her presence.
What she doesn't expect though is for him to outright deny it, he's a smart man and he's right to some degree; Strength is what keeps the warriors alive, those within the research department often are kept safe by the Restrictors out of a sense of duty, similar interests aligning and what not. There's a soft laugh that comes with the thought, lips curving into a gentle smile while the raven haired woman properly looks at her company. “ Is that so? ” Then her gaze hardens ever so slightly. “ In due time I'm certain your thoughts will change on the matter, everyone always says the same thing then once you're on the field, interacting with the residents here, it always fades into the same old thing. A woman who doesn't engage in combat that resides within the science unit, able and willing yet forced to stay as a nurse. ”
Rumours within Deepground were always fast to pickup regardless of if there was any meat to it or not, outside of missions and training, the residents beneath Midgar hadn't much else to entertain themselves with aside from gossip and unfortunately Valk was not a stranger to having rumours spread about her in particular. “ Not that it matters too much though, in the end I'll likely still have you sat where you are now just as some of the others tend to do; I only hope you'll still maintain that kindness you have. ”
𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐟𝐮𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐝; it was certainly out of the blue, weak ? sonon had to pause. he'd been in deepground for three weeks now ( often trying to ignore how close that time was coming to an entire month ) and still felt out of his depth. an entire civilisation, locked beneath the city of midgar, tortured and experimented on. it would be a lot to take in under different circumstances, but being amidst the fray . . . it was often too much to think about, but in the end, this had been the price he paid for yuffie to leave safely, which was something kusakabe was, nonetheless, ever grateful for.
❛❛ i don't. you have to be strong to survive down here. ❜❜ he answered after what felt like too long of a pause — though it was probably only a couple of seconds. no one who was here could be considered weak; even the bottom of the food chain had struggled enough to make it onto said food chain. physically strong or not, sonon definitely didn't consider valk weak.
@myristicisms sent: ❝ you think I’m weak ? ❞ miriam to sonon ( deepground verse )
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Crimson clad fingers slowly dig into the lush green of Banora's ground, calming the heated roiling of a grief he'd long thought gone since the first air strike had destroyed all signs of the people that once lived upon the now ruined land. ShinRa may have erased the existence of the buildings but Genesis had done the heavy lifting with the villagers, both parties equal in the destruction of a once beautiful village yet blood tainted the swordsman's hands and stuck like an ichor. There is a rare shame that he finds in that knowledge, disappointment in the man he's become and grief for who he should have been. “ Because you deserve an apology for all you've been subjected to. I do not know every detail and it is not my business but I do know that much of your woes wouldn't have happened had I not... ” Had he not been such a coward, had death not loomed over the ginger and left him feeling as though his only hope was to comply with a moronic scientist.
The outdoors hadn't ever been his preference and yet sat beneath the cloudy skies under the warm light of the sun was... Nice. It was nostalgic and calming yet wistful all the same; Many memories of a brown eyed boy shouting to him, playing amongst the trees of his family's orchards and visiting the Hewleys, they were all fond yet the people in those memories, the trees and the fields he once ran wild in were no more. He was all that was left of Banora and soon he would crumble to the wind and take those memories with him.
There was no rage left to hang onto, just sorrow and disappointment, whatever anger Rhapsodos had left was directed to himself. There was so much more he should have done before throwing in the towel, he should have argued more or perhaps just resigned himself to the fact that he was a failure and his body was simply reflecting the fact. He only wishes it did not take him so long to fully understand that his ire should never have been so widespread, he had punished the wrong people for something nobody could have seen coming nor fixed and that too only leaves that pit of grief all the heavier.
Someday that will fade away too, as most feelings often tend to do and perhaps eventually both men will find some sort of solace, the past being something to look back upon and learn from with a subtle numbness rather than sorrow and wrath; Healing takes time and the arrow of time waits for nobody, Genesis has long since learned to give up on the idea of controlling his own narrative. Being seen as he was compared to who he wanted to be, façades and bravados, none of it mattered in the long run and there's some sort of foolish irony in the fact that a man who worked so hard to earn the respect of so many would end up alone once more.
Contentment is not something the once proud warrior often experienced, yet he sat with a gentle smile atop his features, sage hues gazing skyward. “ I am content with that, it takes a strong man not to hate those who have wrought havoc upon his life. I pray someday the turmoil you are experiencing eases into nothing and maybe you can continue onwards in your journey with your head held high. Perhaps we'll meet again eventually under better circumstances. ”
"Why did you have to say that?" There was no anger to Zack's words, no frothing energy that should have been considering the admission he'd just made to him. There seemed only to exist a heavy resignation to it all that mixed well the slumped posture of his shoulders and the way his head hung low. He lowered himself to sit beside the man, though did not once allow his eyes to trail in his direction. Rather he looked straight ahead, toward the horizon, toward what potentially awaited for them over that line that he could see with his naked eye.
The fog that settled within range of their sights was very fitting for the moment, the uncertainty, the fear of what the unknown might yet present. Zack had no idea how to proceed and yet proceed he would.
He wished for anger from the man, something to push back against him, give him a reason to respond. A WAY to react that would make more sense to him. He certainly wasn't a philosophical guy. He had the sort of head that grasped emotions and ran with them, not the sort that could sit and.... ABSORB said emotions, allow them to circulate and coagulate on the inside. He wouldn't even really know how to express it all.
He wanted to hate him. He didn't.
There was something that the two of them would invariably suffer to the end of their days, however short, however long that remained to be seen, something they shared as kindred spirits.
Regret.
Regret, if rooted deeply enough in the soul, could act as a toxin raging from within, spreading throughout the body, sullying the mind and all the thoughts that composed it. It was a heavy burden to bear for all.
If only they could strive for a life without regret, without hesitation, without anything that would weigh so heavily on their hearts as the death of his friend eventually had. But as with most things, life was unpredictable at best, and it wasn't always possible to hold true to sentiments, no matter how strongly one believed in them. He had discovered that the hard way.
"I don't forgive you. But I... don't hate you either."
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Being bold ran in his blood it seemed, vocal as ever about his wants unless they were something far too close to his heart and while his heart yearned and sung for the affection of the man curled into him, Genesis was content to at least try to play things off casually; Clearly they're both dancing upon a dangerous line that could fall into territory neither of them were fully prepared for. Casual flings and hookups were easy enough for the ginger, feelings on the other hand were a completely different monster and years of pining through their friendship certainly was bound to make whatever they plan to have all the more of a mess.
Genesis cherished his friendship with Sephiroth but the lingering curiosity of whether or not he'll finally be able to indulge that desire to be claimed, to be loved, was something he wanted to explore, foolish a man as he is.
“ Is that so? I'm happy to hear you enjoyed my services then. ” It's a playful comment, some moronic attempt to hide his heart once more and a means of trying to seem less enthusiastic than he really was. The thrum of Sephiroth's voice in his skin was all the more thrilling, the gentle rumble pleasantly ticklish to the point that a light, undignified snort parts past his lips. He notes the shifting of the other man and turns to look down at him, misty sages focusing upon the silver haired man's features.
Lips are curled into a gentle smile, an eyebrow raising curiously at the small affection offered to him and he'd happily drink up whatever the younger would offer him without any hesitation. ( How greedy. ) “ I don't see any reason we can't plan our next little tango, it would give me time to properly seduce you. ” Not to say spur of the moment was off the table completely but Genesis seldom had a reason to ‘ pretty ’ himself up, that was a treat reserved for those he deemed worth seeing him put effort into his attempts at seduction. “ Leave however many you want wherever you want, I quite like the prospect of being marked up by you for all to see; Though I won't be offended if you leave them in inconspicuous places too. ”
Well, Sephiroth is glad that he doesn't have to ask. The mere thought of having to be the one to possibly offer this happening again made his stomach flip uncomfortably. He's not very good with vulnerability, with facing his emotions head on. Even as Genesis drops several obvious hints, he almost wonders if pursuing this would be a good idea. Their friendship means everything to him, and while they've already crossed the line, well...he'd hate to ruin it, should anything happen.
But doesn't he deserve something good, too? Even if he can't fathom the idea of someone genuinely wanting and needing him like this?
"...I would not be displeased if this happened again," is what Sephiroth finally murmurs into Genesis' neck, voice slightly muffled. He can already feel his face heating up with it. It's embarrassing. It's embarrassing, but a bit relieving, like a weight has been lifted off of him. Sephiroth lifts his head slightly to meet Genesis' gaze, and it feels like all of his thoughts and feelings are being laid bare before him. While he would normally want to run away from that kind of thing..with Genesis? Perhaps not.
He shifts slightly, if only to sit up more, just to press a kiss to the top of Genesis' head. "I would like it if it was not so spur of the moment, too." What is this that he's admitting to? Wanting to plan this properly? A date of some kind? He wants to laugh at himself for the ridiculousness of it all, but he also just wants to see Genesis smile. "And I could leave more next time. I just wasn't sure how much I was allowed...but now I know."
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Through the many years of simply just existing, there's always been an ever lingering dread that nagged at the back of his mind; A small little voice that never quite understood the term kindness even if that kindness would be directed towards himself because Genesis Rhapsodos was not a man deserving of such a thing. Abrasive and prickly, greedy and selfish to a degree, those were all traits that had always lingered beneath the surface of a kindly smile and gentle façade long since tossed the side in his grief grappling with his own mortality. He lashed out upon those who admittedly did not deserve the crimson commander's ire and in turn has destroyed many lives.
Regret is one hell of a feeling, the ginger found. It was cold and unfamiliar, nearly as painful as the knowledge of his demise that was to come eventually and the grief of mourning those he's lost by his own actions. It's always amusing to think, sat within the remains of the village he'd grown up in, had been born in, that perhaps he might die here. The ache of the degradation had faded, a vision he's certain was just a near death hallucination seemingly healed the splitting of flesh. ( How odd. )
Not that it matters much anymore, propped against the wood of an old chair digging into his back, grass inevitably staining the red of his coat and for once Genesis can't bring it in himself to fuss over the possible mess. Tranquility, silence, peace for once; It's as pleasant as the gentle breeze tousling his hair until sage hues finally open at the familiar crunch of one of those damned apples. There is amusement in his features, gratitude warming through the ginger's body and foggy as his mind feels while conversing with Angeal's puppy- No, with Zack, one thing manages to ring clear as a bell; Forgiveness was not something the mage deserved, admittedly, and he wasn't going to insist upon his apology being accepted for all he's done.
Genesis was not a good man, at one point perhaps but a dog that weeps after rending flesh is still as guilty as the dog that celebrates and he had mercilessly slain so many for some foolish goal. Self preservation made for the perfect excuse of tossing his morals and honor to the side, his dreams long since forgotten for some stupid idea that he knew was just a myth. “ That's fine. ”
And he means it too, despite the leaden feeling of his body and the urge to just close his eyes once more, there is still a lot left to be said. “ He would be proud of you, you know. I know it means nothing coming from me given our history but you've become a true paragon of what it means to be a soldier with honor, your forgiveness is yours to give and I know I am not worthy of it, however I only hope you are able to continue onwards with a lighter heart, Zack. ”
@fairlybeloved | Zack Fair
❛ i don't know if i can forgive you. ❜
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Ganna's little PSA is that when I'm answering asks or doing starters for people, I have a really bad habit of just yapping to try and set a scene and I never expect replies to be the same length as what I pop out because I know I ramble in my writing, especially for characters that refuse to shut up such as Genesis.
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Today on what is Ganna gonna do instead of working their job, possibly update Genesis and Miriam's verses ( I need to tweak her FF7 verse a bit since there's some branch offs of it + elaborate more on her default verse. ), possibly do a Genesis reply depending on how verse stuff goes and all of that. Chatting with Sleepless ooc so often has made me realize I really need to get those verses written out and elaborated upon better.
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Someday the sun will rest upon her flesh, she's decided. Years and years ago the very idea of thinking something so foolish would have her feeling nothing but shame, it's stupid to think but in a world where you've nothing but dreams, well wishes and hopes, it's the only thing that keeps her going. Someday she'll luck out and perhaps find a means of escaping or the professor will take pity upon her to allow her to at least visit her brother's resting place and she'll take it even if it means being forced to return to this hell. It is moments such as this, of dealing with the Tsviets and those who believe themselves to be better than everyone else, that she has to remember that hope of hers and remain steadfast even when forced to be face to face with the fact that Valk was likely never going to see the sun again, wouldn't get to hear music nor rest beneath the stars.
It's delusional in a way but it's what keeps her content. “ You should know as well as I do that you don't compare to some of the scientists here; Think what you like but the fact is you'll never scare me let alone make me nervous. ” And it was mostly true, fear was for those who had something to lose and as far as Valk was concerned, the moment the name Miriam was stripped from her and her long blonde hair turned raven black, she lost whatever it was she had to live for. Death was inevitable, it was a matter of when and how and frankly she couldn't care much for the answer for either. In all her years of observing Weiss, essentially growing up alongside him there was never a moment she felt completely unsafe in his presence, he never gave her any reason to despite the fact that she knew he easily could snap her neck with his bare hands. There was only indifference to it, vague irritation but that's simply just because she knew he viewed her similar to that of an ant, weak and pathetic on her own and while partially true it didn't mean the sentiment was appreciated.
There's a soft hum that drones in her throat, pushing past pallid lips once she finishes her preparations then approaches the immaculate one, needle in hand before carefully sticking it into the arm offered to her. It's as gentle a gesture as always and yet his comment makes her gaze harden; Careful stoicism dropping into vague annoyance before crystalline blues roll. “ Perhaps if I had an audience worth telling them to, you've already made your disinterest in my tales very clear so why waste my breath upon deaf ears? ”
𝐥𝐚𝐳𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞, a laugh slips past his lips. weiss found endless amusement in the humans that scurried beneath the city of midgar, locked in a den with creatures like himself. they may believe themselves omnipotent — for man had science, they had learned to summon the lifestream ! the emperor only mocked such exploits; it didn't matter what man could accomplish, they would inevitably fall below a higher being's heel. it was only natural for the scientist before him to be nervous; she needn't be scared of him to experience such a feeling. even when subservient, weiss would always remain a danger; it was a truth known all too well: that it wasn't an if the emperor would attack, only a when.
❛❛ merely because i don't try to scare you. ❜❜ so self - assured, as he is with everything he states — even worse so is that most drink up the immaculate's words. what use would a prisoner have to lie ? it appeared that only a handful of individuals understood he had all to gain with his charm and nothing to lose. and yet, no matter how wild, the white - haired man is still leashed, and so when his arm is requested, he complies. despite the drastic changes over the years, that much hadn't changed — valk would have never seen weiss fight against anything besides simulators. he may kill when provoked, but it was never an act to prevent experimentation.
a willing victim, that's what the restrictor had barked one day, masked head tilting towards the duo ( allowed in the room for a change due to an incident only hours prior ) before laughing — a deep venom-dripped sound — if you could even call someone like weiss, a victim. he wasn't human enough to be called something like that, not when the boy enjoyed it, not when he deserved it. of course, the tyrant didn't care to notice the way weiss looked at him as if he was a mere moment away from striking, because the boy stayed pliant. even now, after years had passed. weiss was no longer a quiet child who allowed himself to be dragged along. he stood taller than his captors, stronger than them, too; he stood proud.
watching the woman from the corner of his eye as she readies the needle, weiss frowns for merely a second when her blue gaze is elsewhere before speaking up once more, just as amused though this time mocking. ❛❛ what, not in the mood to tell stories today ? ❜❜
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There's something about the agreement, the admittance, that sets Genesis's nerves alight; He's never been one to flush at the prospect of someone wanting the visage of his bare body to only be seen by them and them alone yet the implication, even if unintentional, leaves the crimson mage feeling far too warm. A subtle tremor wracks through his lithe frame, practically arching into Sephiroth's hands near desperately for more of the man's touch because it scratched an itch he never thought he'd had and it's bound to turn into something troublesome later. “ Well, should this end up a more... Common scenario, perhaps neither of us will have to worry about that. ” Cryptic as ever yet even with the door wide open as far as his feelings go, Genesis still was far too wary of rejection. Sephiroth was always honest though when confronted on what it is the man may have wanted or what his intentions for something are unless it was truly something the younger man truly refused to speak upon.
It doesn't matter in the moment though, lips pressing into his throat keeps the ginger's attention focused on the man invading all of his senses. A pathetic attempt at hiding the stutter in his breathing while sage eyes fondly gaze at the slowly traveling silver, awkward an angle as it is he's grateful to cradle Sephiroth's head with the limited mobility in his arm. It would be far more tender and romantic of a moment were they lovers and not just friends who happen to yearn for one another.
“ There's many things I can think of that I need but... Another time, I suppose. ” Plush lips curl into something devious, body briefly tensing at the puff of air against his flesh before swiftly relaxing. “ Is that so? It's a shame we didn't have more time but alas... You certainly wore me out, although my one complaint is you didn't leave nearly enough markings upon me. ” And such a small and ridiculous complaint it was, selfish in a way but it sounds more like a suggestion than genuine feedback. A soft hum buzzes through Genesis's throat, head shifting to press an indulgent kiss to Sephiroth's temple. “ As did I, hopefully this wasn't just a one off sort of thing. ”
Sephiroth finds himself laughing softly, content with holding Genesis for the moment, just feeling skin against skin, his fingers gently tracing up and down his sides. It is rare indeed that Sephiroth allows for such vulnerability and intimacy. He doesn't think he's been comfortable enough with anyone for quite some time to be seen in this way. It's a nice change of pace, just for his mind to be silent and to enjoy the moment without worrying about anything. "Fair enough. I'd rather not let anyone see you like this, either." For it is a sight that he'll covet, keeping it in his mind's eyes for as long as possible. Seeing Genesis like this might be a rare treat, and he doesn't know when he might get this again.
He's loathe to even let him get up, but they'll have to at some point or another. Even still, he continues to press his lips along his neck, trailing them up to his jawline. Sephiroth can't really help himself. He doesn't indulge much at all. If this is to be a regular occurrence, well...he won't complain at all.
"Of course you can use my shower. Whatever you need," he murmurs against his skin, letting out a soft sigh. Genesis is warm and soft and this moment just feels like absolute bliss. "I could say the same. You...are something else," he teases, another quiet laugh escaping him. They went to the point of utter exhaustion, which is no surprise, considering how long they've likely been pining for each other. "I rather enjoyed myself."
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Loneliness and silence were things that went well together, as a child he was rambunctious and loud, playful until his mother had sat him down and told him he was too old to act immaturely and with very little people in his life to actually chat with genuinely, he became withdrawn for a few years. It wasn't until he'd been pushed from his shell by Angeal after knowing the other boy for a few years that he started figuring out how to separate who he was from who he wanted to be and eventually became who he is today; It's hard to kick old habits ingrained into one from authoritative figures, it's a big reason Genesis has come to struggle so terribly with taking orders and following another's lead after being independent for so long.
He supposes life is amusing in that way, to adapt to one thing only for the complete opposite to happen and needing to restart the cycle of relearning how to properly function and balance the past experiences with future ones. He'd always been good at adjusting, or Genesis hoped he was anyways given there was no one to teach him the ropes.
That's how it had always been though, there was no one but the Hewleys and his books and that was simply just not enough to properly establish a good form of healthy coping, especially not with what he's observed of his parents and how they navigated conflict; Loud and angry, bold and swift yet not calculating enough. Many of the folk in Banora were more savvy with common sense sorts of things, not all of them were highly book smart but they knew enough to get by and perhaps that had been a big reason Genesis navigated the world the way he did; They did not use large scientific words nor were their phrases flowery, they were crass at times and there was often hidden meaning in their terms that took the ginger far too long to properly pick up on let alone lay to rest.
“ Yeah, sorry if it wasn't a great explanation, 'Geal is a helluva lot better at explaining what things mean than I am. ” More patient too although it's not like Genesis felt particularly bothered trying to elaborate, he just hated how difficult it was to try and figure out how to translate what he says into what he means. The fact that the raven haired boy understood him well enough to be able to just explain with so much ease was something he envied yet was grateful for all the same because Genesis navigated the world with a sharpened tongue and suspicious eyes, swift to grow irate over the smallest things but not quite wanting to allow his irritation to show.
He was always trapped between wanting to just be Genesis and needing to be a Rhapsodos.
Thus far though, he feels relatively comfortable allowing the dignified mask to slip, Sephiroth hasn't yet given him a reason to hide away like he does with most of ShinRa, especially with the way the silver haired teen joined him in his foolish antics. ( That's got to mean something! ) Perhaps they're not quite to a point where he can confidently say the younger boy was a friend but he certainly was getting there with the newly established camaraderie.
“ Yeah I'm sure, don't tell me you're getting cold feet. ” And despite how rude the phrase might've been there's a gentle warmth in his tone, perhaps he would be disappointed should the first class decide not to indulge him in a spar but the sage eyed teen wasn't going to throw a tantrum over the matter; He knows what the result would be regardless and while it could prove humiliating to be absolutely humbled by someone younger than he is, it would make for a good learning experience too. “ If you don't want to spar then perhaps you could observe me while I train and give pointers? I don't often get any helpful feedback and I think that might be why I'm starting to stagnate a bit. ”
Sephiroth is strange. He knows very well that he is strange compared to so many others his age, though what that really means, he doesn't have enough awareness of the world to quite understand. He only knows that he is strange because people often comment on it in front of him, as if they view him as invisible. A pet, a piece of the environment, something neither seen nor heard unless they need to see and hear him.
He has been taught well that he is to be respectful, that he is to be quiet, that he is to trouble no one because no one will tolerate being troubled by him.
Though intelligent, his intelligence emphasizes book intelligence, not so much the intelligence that came with interacting with the world. Genesis is new to him, and his way of speaking is unlike anything he's heard in the labs.
"Oh. I understand." When put that way, he does understand, sort of, and he guesses in time he will truly understand. In time and with experience observing Genesis and learning how he interacted with the world.
That they might eventually become friends... Truly friends, because Sephiroth doesn't really think they're friends yet, and if he was honest with himself, he doesn't think that Genesis thinks too much of him as anything except as maybe a rival.
"...Are you sure about this?" he asks, though it feels a little like too late to be asking. He knows what Genesis wants: to fight him. And his reticence is more than well-earned. He doesn't want to hurt Genesis, even in a friendly spar, and he doesn't want to win over him, either. But he doesn't know what else to do but win, and the idea of just not winning has never, for a moment, touched his mind.
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