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its that time of year again

(comm me)

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Why do I like villains so much?

I think it‘s because I see myself as one.

Yes, I am a sadist, but also a masochist in the way of self-destruction and self-pity. I want to make others suffer not only because I like to feel the power and see them in pain - Deep down there is also the hope of making them finally see the real me, the creature in the mirror who I believe myself to be. I am cruel, I destroy myself in every way and every second possible. But I am tired. Tired of people seeing me as a pure, righteous human being. I am so deeply scarred and suppressed by my own lies that I want to show the world what I can be, what I already am to myself. I want to do something terrible, something beyond redemption or forgiveness. I want them to look me in the eye and realize they never saw more of me than I allowed them to. I want them to fear me, to hate me, to despair because of what I have done.

And then, only then, when I finally feel the consequences of my actions, I can finally resent from this world knowing I was right about myself all along. That I am worthy of this suffering and eternal loneliness, and eventually, worthy of dying. I want to fight and cry out trying to make others understand, and I want to fail, I want my friends to turn their back on me, I want to feel the real pain of being alone instead of making it all up and having others tell me it‘s only in my head. I want to be free from the chains of social dependency, I want to ascend beyond the borders of humanity and become a being of utter autonomy, something none can understand nor relate to.

In that way, I will dig my own grave and know that the soil is real. I will finally be the embodiment of my own melancholy, the villain I‘ve seen in the mirror and whose voice I‘ve heard in the back of my head for so long. I will close my eyes and find peace at the very last, in the deepest and loneliest darkness of my mind, for this tiresome, seemingly endless fight will be over and I no more than a mere shadow of my past. To give and to receive, pain will be my first and last creation, my gift to the world and to myself.

I will die the villain‘s death.

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its really cool that we discovered glass which is the material that doesnt have any chemical reactions with anything in the universe very useful for doing chemistry due to being able to put things in it to contain chemical reactions and never having it react with the things that are in it due to it being completely and entirely unreactive to every chemical

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frisk is just a fucking baby. and everyone just monologues at them

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It's gonna be such a funny mess when Donald Trump dies of a stroke on April 1st, 2024.

Naturally everybody will think it's fake because of the date only to lose their minds (both positively and negatively based on their opinion of trump) when realizing it's real

There will be massive celebrations in the streets and on social media and lots of predictable "don't speak ill of the dead" discourse about those celebrations

Weird evangelicals will pull some weird number trick talking about how Jesus was conceived on April 1st and that makes Trump a sort of messiah and people will make fun of that

The Republicans (after they're done with the faux-sadness and faux-outrage) will stomp over each other to be his successor but none of them will succeed. They'll tear each other apart and have no single nominee for the November elections.

There will be discourse about if Biden and the living former presidents should go to his funeral (they won't, he was a traitor insurrectionist)

The Ukraine-Russia War immediately goes in favor of Ukraine as morale in the Kremlin is reduced. China similarly backs off from its threats on Taiwan.

Ten thousand new memes are made, some sticking around for years to come.

Not a month later a bunch of unofficial biographies of Trump hit the bookshelves, many with new details about just how awful he was.

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Just learned about the fragrances and perfumes community. Very normal-guy-esque community, just normal dudes wanting to be sexy with their scents. Yet hubris curses each and every one of them. They want to be sexy so bad, they see fragrances as nectar from the Gods, their temptation to drink the perfumes are very high. I have seen dozens of comments about drinking perfume.

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thank you for blurring that tumblr. i wonder what it could be

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"irreversible side effects of HRT" all of life is irreversible. i cannot go back a single second in time

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I want to like tea so bad. How can I possibly hate all the tea I've tried???

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instead of killing myself i will watch documentary about the ocean

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did you know? the human body only uses 15% of it’s bones at any given time. imagine what would happen if we had access to 50%, or even 80% of our bones

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radfems having another super normal one

deeply unserious ideology

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stomach hurts from hunger. stomach hurts from eating. what the hell do yuou want from me you stupid fucking organ