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September 7, 2017

hey, it was just i am really sad right now and i dont have no one to confide but myself, so pleade just let me write again. I am so stupid. I have lots of oppurtunities ive miss. Before I get this job, I applied to my ase which also fails because i am a lazy bitch who always depend myself on luck -- during my application in ase, i also have an active application in remote support which i decline/didnt mind for i was still at forum that time for my ase application. i am such a fucking idiot. in my job, it is a level 1 support and i couldnt even be happy, if i push through my application for remote, i must be in

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Ok. So i'm gonna keep here all the rants i have in my phone due these past few months. Im planning to erase it to my memo. So here it goes.

09/08/2017

thoughts : what willl happen to nk people of kim jung un srsly nuked on guam, having china as their allies might not even as effective too, if they nuke the probably china will be affectec if it take sides to nk since what china matters most is their economy and china and us although rivals, were also dependent with each other. and if they nuke then china might be more worried on the refugee who will attempt to cross the barriers instead of those people itself who were affected by jonguns stupidity.

14/08/27

sometimes i felt like the govt doesnt desereve this hardworking pilos filos slaved for a minimum wage and the taxes--- siguro nakakainspire magbayad kung may nakikita ka man lang na pinagllagyan man lang but to experience such things like this-- thinking yes maybe nappunta sa infras. and such but most of it nappunta lang sa --- kanina sa lrt i before ako makasakay kanina kelangan naming pumila ng mahaba then nung nagaabang na kami medyo may patalastas pa syempre di pa yun it took us almost 15min before makasakay sobrang pawis na ng mga tao and soi have this thought? why does people always settle for less, ito na yung comfort zone nila sige na lang sila bahala na yung pwede namanf iupgrade pero wag na lang kase ok na naman tayo sa ganto kase nakasanayan na naman naten to

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Date August 9, 2017. I am ready to take down a building. fuck your company if only im not a fresher and im in need of your job title for my future used then i wouldnt even fucking bother to push myself into this damn company. your process sucks, your management sucks, you do not care for your employees, if only my job is not IT related then i wouldnt even settle down there. i srsly despise this, will i continue? hope it wouldnt be much worse when i get there bc srsly ill be drained if that happens. also if its already august 18 and i havent been deployed yet, then fuck you all im really quitting. ughhhh ill just find another job who cares for their employee

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Dated July 25, 2017

so just a while ago we went to market market to go to cignizant but instead we found the hiring recruitment of accenture. They asked as our names then make us fill up some forms. Moving on, they only had hiring for csr so eventhough iam hesitant we still go for it, it was really unplanned. They asked as about certain informations then was proceeded into the language assesmnt. During ghat time we had a one on one interview to the guy he asked me about my daily life happenings like what i did yesterday. Scariest and Most Exciting experience. Asked me about my province etc., I wasnt really expecting but then I passed the initial there and was redirected into phone call after. He interviwed me and after jnowing my backgroynd as an IT, I was introduced into a technical position. After that, I passed again then was shuttled to Libis Accenture recruitment, the final interview was easy, she just asked me about my experienced at wallem and said that my skills are fitted for the job. I rode grab going to boni then wait for my j,o but unfortunately i wasnt able to sign today and will come back again tomo.

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Dated March 8, article named Pursuing Passion.

1. Remember What You Love as a Child. // As a child, I was very much exposed to the environment outside. I love playing games so much, I grew up playing street games. I also think that I am a music lover since then, but it wasn’t triggered to me just yet because I am really more of games. When I was younger too, I remember whenever I was ask, I always say that in the future, I wanted to become a doctor. It’s because I wanted to wore white clothes. I was a sick child back then, so I was also exposed to hospitals from medicines to vaccinations since then. 2. Eliminate Money from the Equation. // if money dont were no object, I think I would really love to travel once in a while, go to other places, study their cultures and the people, also I had this thought when I was younger again, what if I am rich, I said to myself that when I grow up I wanted to become super rich then I’ll start my own charity and help people. Give people scholarships and foods. 3. Friends for Feedback // they said music makes me happy and i absolutely knew that. EDIT: "well as of now, parang anything that has got to have something about k-pop, bts, and especially D.O :3"," music seems to make you happy din", " dun sa first bigla nag pop-up saken yung mga times na niyayaya mo ako or kame ni mikay na kumain sa GG burgers or sa irene's para sa lomi mo"," music i think, saka yung addiction mo sa lomi". 4. Read through a University Course Catalog // Courses that naturally interest me is History. I’ve developed my loved for history when I was in HighSchool. I really liked learning until now, I really love watching documentaries and ancient history, the universe related documentary etc., I also wanted to become historian but there is no such course like that in the place where I reside, I have to go out if I pursue such. I’ve also loved Philosophy and Psychology. I like reading through people. I like the idea of how people sees life differently. I am having interest in economic too. I want to study how those inflation rates and such terms affect one country. How people says that capitalism and such are both good and evil and how a country can achieve economic stablility especially like my country wherein growth is stuck in the middle. 5. Identify your Professional Hero // I really cant think of such. In my life, since my second year of college, I became a fangirl. I have loved 5sos and during that time we have multimedia classes so since I have a band to inspire me, my multimedia class became one of my favorie subjects. I make 5sos my subject for my photoshop trainings and video presentations, even in other subjects like Database, that time we used microsoft access and I can say I was able to learn lots because I was so inspired in my subject. Also I used 5sos as my subject for my application in Java, I used netbeans as my frameworks and I make a ordering transactions using 5sos merchandises. After 5sos, followed Martin Garrix and currently EXO. For Exo, they just really inspire me, there was this quote from a member that says ‘if your not good in studies, dont even think of liking me. We may be the most important to you right now but thats not true. Study hard and when the time come met us proudly.’ Even though I was a late fan, this quote has always inspired me. It made me rethink and says to myself that ‘I will work hard and meet them too’ although short-term still the impact that thought will give to my life is so much worthy. Lastly, my professional hero is my mother. I just really want to succeed in life for her. I want her proud and give back all she did for supporting us both of my sisters. She is both pur Mom and Dad. 6. Think What You Enjoy That You Also Do Well // I like writing. I rant all things possible in this private blog simply because I only know my deep thoughts when I read them. It helps me to make decisions in the long run. Also I like reading article for it keeps me inform about what is happening outside. I like music so much I have always dream to work in an environment wherein there is so much entertainment going on. That is real life job for me I guess. A dream job.

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Dated May 2. I had my birthday last april 28. Went home by morning from sucat to batangas to pay for our upcoming gradball and went to osas after only to found out that I still can’t my moa that I passed for almost 2 weeks now. The process, they’re so slow. Before going home I stopped by at SM to buy spaghetti. What an epic day I had for buying tomato suce instead of spaghetti sauce. I only realized I bought the wrong ingredients at home. But then, we were still able to cooked it tho. My cousins are still there so it wasn’t really super boring birthday for me. Then by sunday, I go back at sucat and by monday, I watched La La Land. The ending is haunting me till’ now. ‘City of Stars’ is on loop in my playlist right now. Whatelse to rant. I have lots of (?)problems, I guess. Money problems. Time problems. By 12, we will be having our grad ball. Then I still dont have dress and I dont want to buy cause i’m poor af also I still have OJT so I really dont feel like going but then I paid 1200 for it and it was just a waste of money of I wouldnt go. Also, I hate how lacking my time is, our required end date is may 16 I guess? And I dont really want to go back and stay here atleast after May 12. Also, we will still treat our colleague here as a 'sign of gratitude’ for accepting us here. Also, my mother is coming by May 9. And lastly after my OJT, I will be working and I dont how I would find a fucking company or how I will sell myself to whatever company, I dont even know if my first job will be alligned to my course, I dont even know if I can graduate fuck life were not yet done in our thesis. Just fucking fuck life. I am so depressed and its all because of La la land. It triggered to me. Its about dream and love. And the ending is just fucking twisted. Not your typical love story. It was a reality and it slaps real hard to my face maybe because months from now I will be facing reality too and I was just so fucking frustrated knowing that I will come out of my shell. Hate life I’m out.

Ps. This is srsly a good rant for 2 days after my birthday. Nice. Nice. Nice. bye.

[oynksi]

“my plans may change but the goal will still be the same”

Every goal/aspiration/dream/idea that I have from here on out I’m gonna write it down and actually work towards it. I’m gonna start executing my visions now. If my plan has to change then so be it but the goal will still be the same. I’ve got a lot of great ideas and every single one of them will come life and be a great success. I will be great. I will achieve greatness. My legacy that I’ll leave behind when I die will be great.

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Dated April 20. I haven’t written for almost half a month now I guess. I was just too busy or should I say too lazy to create a rant. So last holy week dated 13-16, we went home in my province. Before reaching our barrio, we stopped by at the Padre Pio Shrine, we also went to other churches near by like Carmen and Our Lady of Mercy Parish, we went straight home after. The next day, we went mt. climbing for sacrifice at Mt.Baklas. Then on Saturday, we went to Lobo Beach.  By Sunday we just stay at home, my cousins went from Balete went there and by noon we went outside for Halo-Halo, then I ask my cousin to teach me to play piano because she bring piano there, I was able to learn River in Flows and Say you wont let go, but I doubt the next time I will be reading this, sure thing, I have already forgotten that. Then I was absent last Monday dated April 17 because I was fixing my requirements, turned out its still on process, the Memorandum so another wasted day for me. We weren't able to compile all the requirements too because my thesis mate only had one copy for signing, so I went home ‘Nga-Nga’ seriously. Then again today is dated April 20, 3 more weeks and I’ll be done. But that’s not the reason for my rant today, it was actually because just a while ago, someone called, I didn’t really mean it, because the way she also talked, it’s very rude. She called and ask me were is our programmer, but then I kind of give her a misunderstanding, wrong on my part I admit that, I said, ‘Ma’am she’s not yet here’ then she responded (with a kid of aggressive voice) ‘What do you mean? I just saw him a while ago?’ then I corrected it. Then I thought she’ll bring down the phone because there are already background noises and she already said OK so I also bring down mine, my fault of course, I just knew that she got piss because of toppa, so I was just ranting that because it feels heavy on me and I need to write it down because that person, I dont’ really feel a lot of five from her. There are two people here whom I really feel uncomfortable with that’s why I also can’t say yes when they ask me last time if I want to apply because everything here is too much pressure and it already comes from the mouth of the employee that the management is really bad. No trust at all plus some just have really a ‘plausible’ attitude here I don’t want to deal with that kind of people. There are just lots of negative energies I felt like 2 more months here and I’ll probably drown already. I’m sorry its all negative. This is my rant after all without anyone allowed to access it cause it’s in private mode. So if you were able to read it, then it’s already you’re fault I guess. You’re an intruder of someones account. Goodbye.

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Dated March 24.

Lately I’ve been so indulged to politics. I don’t know why I am like this. Are other people like this too? Did they also think the thoughts I had. I have been so in love with my country yet the people and the government are just wasting it. To much graft, very selfish people. I want to work in a government so badly, I want to know their point of view. As a citizen, I have seen the reality of everyday life of people both in urban and rural places. Now, I want to know if the POV of the philippines gov’t, how they are helping people in every aspects. I don’t want to lose my faith to the government, I don want to be ignorant, I want to believe that somehow, despite all those ejks etc., the medias are portraying to the gov’t, I want to believe that at some point, there are good people in there that are doing good for the country. I want to know the insight of the people, there views. I will be a public official, I hope I can pass. I want to help my fellow Filipinos. I want a better Philippines. 

More : One more month and I’ll be done in my OJT. :) And also, as of to my calculations, the release of the result for CSC is on April 21-22 maybe since it was a 40 day process. I hope I’ll pass so I’ll be illegible to work in the gov’t. My auntie had taken it for lots of times and she wasn’t able to pass it, so I don’t really have confidence but I still want to pass tho. pls give me miracles, let me pass. 

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Dated march 16. #They were always ‘shh’ me. Am I really that loud? Ok then. I wont talk anymore unless necessary.

Dated March 26 #People are so easy to notice your mistakes but always fails to see theirs. Oo na kayo na perpekto, magaling kayo eh.

Dated April 6 #Iam too bossy. My mate dont like me because I am lazy and shy. I dont like myself either because I’m like this. I get really hurtful when people correcting me. I get irritated too because I felt like sometimes they were just correcting me to boost theirselves knowing there is someone worst that theirselves. I also dont even greet people I dont like here, i just went on deadma because they arent approachable either. I only like atleast 5 people here and the rest, I dont even know them. I am worst and I admit to that.

Date April 10. #Everything is just not fair. People are refraining the growth of the other because of their lack of competency. They were refraining that person to go it just completely bullshit given the fact that the contract of that person has already ended. And then they were asking us why we dont want to be here in the first place? Also, Its just really amusing how people change just because they want to please the higher ups, the ‘sip-sip’ term, at first it was good until time pass by and they just gained some atittude too. I wonder if I will gain some attitude too if the time comes, If I will favor the wrong ones instead, hope I wouldnt do that in the future. Cont. People will call you incompetent for not helping but they wouldnt even mind teaching you in the first place. In this place, I felt like I dont have a voice like even I just ask a simple questions company related it feels like they were already lecturing me to not ask this and thats, they were making me feel like i'm 'pakialamera', is it really bad to ask questions? Isnt it a good sign meaning tour open for learning. It wasnt just for curiousity tbh, I want to learn so I can help, but they just wouldnt let me. People and their greed.

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Felt like its been a while since I last ranted here. Nothing really special happens to me this past few days. I havent really did something, I mean activity for like 3 days. It was just ytd that we did a new project. Anyways, thats no0t what I am going to rant0 here. These past few days I was really very much into ph politics. I really hate it whenever I get aware over things like this but I just cant really refrain myself from ober-analyzing things. Lets start with our P and the DDS. There are lots of contriversy regarding this. Even the P itself. From the Ph-Chinks being ‘allies’ and this and thats. Its really stressful to even think of. What is the real motivation behind all those? Why did he break the friendship to US and befriended Chinks. Last time I ranted this over twitter and on my tweets there, It was like I really hate chinks I was so ignorant back there. I have read a post, its a 'kwentong-barbero’. Saying the possible reasons why P did all those. Another topic is the nk. I have been into this issue this few days. I have read lots of articles about nk state, the poverty and how xirrupt the country is. If you knew the state of the ppl there, you cant juat refrain but be blessed of how lucky you are despite of the poverty you’ve seen in your country. No freedom of speech, all human-rights abuses and very much corrupt leader, thats what the leader there was portrayed. I have joined a fb group containing dank memes of that leader. Also lastly, I really get saddened by the fact that while there were people from the govt who were very much corrupted, when you went into streets youll see a lot of people who are starving to death. By monday I guess, I felt like I had a trauma by what I saw on the road. There was a dog, dying, no one seems to care, running out of breath and was all bones, super thin. Whenever I recall the picture if that dog state I just cant help but became very sad. I hate this state where I felt like I feel everything. By merely looking the street people, I felt like I can feel their sufferings. Idk how people can manage to pass those without having a feeling of sadness, the dont care people. I think I should end this now. This rant is really making me sad.

Dated today march 16, tuesday.

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Exam Day for CSE. Didn’t even had bfasy. I was finding the starting time of my exam for the whole time, I’ve searched online and to the gov’t site but nothing can be found. I only knew the exam time the day before my exam and it was 6:30am. I woke up by 5:30 an I commuted for 1 hour. I was able to make it 7 am only for me to found out that the exam will start at 8 am. I should have eaten first. I take the exam without having breakfast and when you didnt have breakfast, you brain will not function well. During the exam I was so hungry and I cant think properly. I ended up skipping first the hard questiond and proceeded first to comprehension and grammar. It will really be by luck if I pass this exam. A total of 170 questions for a 3 hours allotted time. When it already comes to numerical ability, there are reallt lots of my answers that I just guess. Saying to myself ‘this one will be fine’ or 'ill choose you because I FELT like your the most possible’. All of my computations, wrll actually its 'most’. Most of my computations were incorrect so ill just shade the nearest value to my answer and conclude that it is the correct one. I really know that i’ll fail this exam given the fact that I didnt study. Nope, thats not a reasoning for my failure, its actually the truth. Well, maybe I open my reviewer but the really striving to pass kind of motivation, I dont have those in me before this exam came. I was too lazy to study. Most of my answer there were stocknowledge. I actually kinda regret it because if you will just study the reviewer theres a possibility youll pass the exam. But I didnt, so I wont pass. But ofc, lastly im still hoping to get atleast the average of 80% so I can pass. Miracles, I need you to my exam.

Dated last sunday. March 12.

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It’s starting again. My laziness. I am absent today because i am too lazy to go on my ojt company. I dont wanna say this but I am getting bored. Now I know wha kuys migs felt on his start of OJT there. I am a persin that if I dont want anymore, I am startingbto get lazy asf and wont even care about. I am good at reasonings. And I can have a mindset about this ajd that. And once my mind is set, it’ll never change. I always tolerate my laziness even at school. When I felt like I dont want to go, I wont. Its actually surprising how I was still able to have an GWA of 1 point something. Tbh, I never really studied. But then I can continue this act. This is the last time I will be lazy cause I just really dont want to extend my OJT anymore. I want out already. I want this all to finish. Everyone from the MIS Dept. are dissolving. I dont like the system there sorry to say. Its so messy. And the people are not all approachable. There are really lots of backstabbing that are happening. Mam said that if this one company I guess lay low to my OJT company, it’ll be the end of this company. What if it ends while I am still an OJT here? What will happen to me? It’s really so messy. Everything is not right. Plus the facilities, at our dept. I even saw a rat like c'mob. There are cockroaches and everything. Small space for people at MIS. They said we shouldnt say bad things about the company that helps us, but I just cant help but rant. I am going to private this too so I guess it’ll be fine. This is a personal account and my opinion, everyone is entitled to have one tho. Also, the environment there is so stressful. These past few days, I felt so stress there are just really lots of stress from people. Rn i am walking up by almost 6. Thats not my normal and I am also having nightmares. The HR asked me if I want to work there? I said no. Cause cmon who would want to work in an environment like that? The management is not good. It’s worst. I feel bad for saying all this. I am sorry.

Dated march 10 friday

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While goin here to my ojt company i passed by to a street full of injustices. The street children, people whose sleeping at the corners of the street. While passing by the underpass I saw a kid whose crying while he’s on the floor having tantrums and also i saw maybe total of 3 or more people sleeping on the streets. Then the right side, there was this guy that sleeping too and i am very sure hes been sleeping there the last time I rode an lrt. I didnt take lrt ytd so it means a day before ytd hes been there i dont know if hes still alive or what. Then when you look at the air, you wouldnt know if it will rain or its just really the air polution you are seeing. Its so stressful to even look at, I can’t grasp the situation of those less fortunate people thinking if that was me, can i even survive a day?

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Im having lots of down moments this past few days. Maybe bc I was still greatly affected by my ojt-mate who just ended his ojt. Maam asked me if I have trust issues bc I cant move on from ppl who left me behind and so she suggested that I should look for a deeper meaning of ‘trust issues’. I wasnt able to comprehend it tho. bc I was just so tired ytd i wsnt able to write anymore but by morning I guess I ranted a lot of things on twitter regarding with diff. topics like the eejks, the ph poverty i felt like it was really getting into me.

Update dated tuesday : march 7. Mam gave her concern to me with regards to my attitude and actions. I was clumsy and too excited over things. I accidentally open the email of MIS and I got curious to the first email so I open it. Mam lectured me and I cried cause I cant contain it anymore. I know I was wrong. But I just really cant help but cry when she lectured I was so soft-hearted I hate it. She told me that I should be strong and I shouldnt cry because if I go out already, this kind of attitude wont work. If I want to work in the industry, than I have to be strong and show no sign of weakness. I like it when people lectured me about things like that because its very rare for me to get those. It was just that for mam, sometimes I dont know if it was still out of concern, I want to think it that way, I dont want to think bad thoughts towards her and even to other people. I just noticed to her, whenever I even touch my tab she will well not really lectured me more of a stop, she doesnt do that my ojt-mates just me. But I dont really have deep pain for that tho. I am ok.

Updated dated wed march 8 : I didnt do anything. Not even one. I just fixed our thesis website I am so tired of the web system that were doing. I go home early and went here late. I just felt down the whole day ytd. Ive also read some article in reddit about poverty. I have a korean dream and I have read abt Korea being on 3rd for ranking on suicide acc. to WHO. Then I got into more deep article and I have tackeld this topic hell joseon. Fresh grads in korea are having a hard time finding regularities in employment. You cram in school and when you got out, there are only a limited oppurtunity for you. Then I still want to go there. The living expenses is so high too. The standards is unattainable especially for me if ever since I came from a third world country who is stuck in the middle. I just really got so consumed by the ph poverty. Our HDI percentage is getting high again. It was already on the 2 point something from 0.66. And then there still lots of DDS who always says that they have the greatest president. People only focus in what they see, they didnt even bother to look deeper. I dont know if they were even aware to our economy anymore. All they care are drugs and death penalties as if the poverty will really be lessened if those will be implemented. Imployment, that was the ph really needs. This country is really disturbing. We have lots of natural resources, philippines is so rich but the people here are just different. The crab mentality, copy-pasted history, people are now slaves to their phones and social media is the new fact. I hate it. I hate it the state of our country.

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Dated td march 2 It was kuya end of ojt so he treat us lunch. I was so sad bc ill probably never see him again after he's finished to all of his req. Im not really good with maintaining communications with people. I was so awkward and shy whenever I tried talking to ppl through messenger. Also he promised me he'll give me the url, he didnt. I am sad. Going home I met my sister, she wants to go to church to thank Him for being out at sm bc shes been there for 4 yrs. and shes just so tired being there. 6 days per week plus low salary. Afterthat we just went to sm manila to ate dinner and had a topic about our family, by that i mean in general. With my aunties and uncles and cousines involved. We have a not so good family, well there arent really perfect one. My mother was just so nice, were not really that super rich but we're kind of well-off. She always used to spoil me with things. During my college days, I never really had problems financially and I hate it. I get sad sometimes, bc I grew up like this and I know that later on I will be having a trouble if I will not fix my mindset. It is (the mindset) I have is its ok to spend as long as I want to even if its thousands I still dont regret, I dont know how to save and she'll probably gave me tol if I have already. There are times that I used to ask myself, while I am spending lots, there are people who are dying in hunger I mean theyre not my responsibility I know but I just cant help but feel guilty and I still cant stop. I have a stepsisters and brother, I just saw them once in my whole life. That was last 2015 I guess. They were so thin and they were poor. While I was spending a 300 peso worth of food in one order, there tghey are that might there one week allowance for there food. And I cant believe my sadness has consume me this much that I ranted this thing out. I just cant refrain it so better write it out. rn i am wrting this rant and I feel so gloomy the whole day.

*also i change my url name bc im oink ^^ and i just dont know what to rename my url anymore im just so out of ideas

*and to kuya migs i dont know if he really made an effort on finding this blog, i know he didnt cause hes lazy but if ever just pls dont tell to other if ever you might find this url coz im just really out of ideas i cant change my url name anymore

*and also pls. dont find this blog thank you or read some rants kumawo

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So my last blog was like a week already and I've forgotten the happenings during that period of time. Fuck my memory, this is the precise reason why I really have to write but I'm just too lazy asf to update my blog every day. I felt like I have missed lots of worthy to be remembered events already. Anyways I will still try to recall even just happenings since Monday. I wasn't really aware that it was wed. already I thought it was just Tuesday, time flies so fast. On Monday I was absent bc of strike, my auntie didn't allow me to go anymore bc she said I might have a difficulty in transpo. Went on the next day and I actually forgotten what happens, I can't really recall it. I just remember when we went home, Mam and Kuya accompany me at the Lrt and on our way, mam asks about our observations, etc., on the comp. That’s all I remember. *cries* Waah I really hate my memory. I hate it how I easily forgot things. I hate it most to myself. Today dated march 1, I woke up late and arrived at work by 8:45 am then we make a preventive maintenance. *I also remember we had an ice cream, I just forget when maybe that was yesterday (feb.28). They treat us kk and ice cream and coke. Before that Kuya and I went out to buy foods and we ordered a take out. For me, I ordered Lomi then when we already the MIS, I open mine and It was just so hot so I just cut the openings with scissors then I created a huge mess. There was this napkin bc Kuya is always is always picking his nose, that his and I grab it and I used it to my lomi to prevent the mess. The thing here is, I am not sure if there is b*** of him there, he says none but I really doubt that. *cries* I still ate it tho. cause I’m a glutton but I wasn't able to finish it just bc. I still prefer Batangas lomi. Then that’s all. ^^ I just remember it was a very happy day yesterday there was even a moment that kuya and I were laughing bc of the lomi we were already both in a sitting position bc off too much laughter.*but I'm also not sure tho.* *This post is just really so messy just like what happens in this whole week. Lastly, a while ago, like I said it was Wednesday, and it is baclaran day, when I was on the jeepney I told myself I will be riding uv tomo. bc I really thought it was still tues. tiday. Also, I really like taking this lrt kind of transpo. bc it makes me feel like after a month or two if I cont. this habit every day I will be slim again hahaha yup still hoping tho. I really like being fat I like my tummy ^^. Anyways, one more thing I like about it is when I was already at baclaran, I really like it when there was just so many ppl and then you will bump into them plus the pedicabs and motorcycle when youre just walking then you didn't know there is already a motor at behind you. A while ago, since there just really lots, there's one motor behind my back who ‘beep’ into me but since I just really got tired of avoiding those vehicles, I just didn't mind the vehicle and cont. to walk, what's funny is when he goes ‘beep’ i unconsciously said ‘bahala ka sa buhay mo; yah i know that's bitchy move. I just really like it the feeling of like a boss on street hahahaha. Okok that all. This is a really really long post. *****