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[pakihanap]

If were dating that means I want all of you, ur clinginess, ur attitude, good morning and goodnight texts, I want u on the days we don't talk much. I'll never get used to you, I want u every day

[pakihanap]

Suddenly I want a bouquet of flower on my birthday.. which is today.

[pakihanap]

2023 is for healthy relationships only.

[pakihanap]

“Do you know what people really want? Everyone, I mean. Everybody in the world is thinking: I wish there was just one other person I could really talk to, who could really understand me, who’d be kind to me. That’s what people really want, if they’re telling the truth.”

— Doris Lessing

[pakihanap]

“You are allowed to terminate toxic relationships. You are allowed to walk away from people who hurt you. You don’t owe anyone an explanation for taking care of yourself.”

— Unknown

[pakihanap]

Let me make a space for u here, Anthony.

Anthony holds a special space in my heart yet I failed him. Siya yung nakwento ko dito na ang hirap ko maka-close nung una and now, here we are.. magkalayo as if we never been that close. Hinayaan niya ko maging comfortable around him which is why it's so hard for me to de-attach myself. He is my 'safe place, pahinga'. He gives me little energy when I asked for an elevator hug kahit siya pagod na rin. He always take care of me kapag nasstressed na ko sa work. He embraced my weird side and curious mind. My inner child feels safe with him kaya nahihirapan ako matulog ngayon. He accepts my clinginess kahit natabunan na siya.

And yet I failed him.. He asked me once why I always forgive him kahit ilang beses na niya ako binitawan? I answered him, "cause you're trying, anthony". Then again, I failed him. He said I should take a risk. I hope he knows what big risks I'm making for him para lang malaman niya na proud ako sakanya. He knows my story, my traumas and my fears yet I still failed him. Here I am trying to understand him and his reasons.

His words will forever haunt me.

#for anthony

[pakihanap]

kumusta kaaa? balik tumblr ka na rin ba? hahaha

Yeeeep! Kaso kabute lang din ako dito. Nabubusy sa work e. Hahaha. 🥴

Ikaw? Kamusta ka? 😁

[pakihanap]

hello!!! i hope you're doing okay 💗

Hellooo!!! Yeaaa, I am doing owkaaaay!! Thank you for asking! Sana ikaw din! 💜🤍

Sorry for the super duper late replyyyyy!

[pakihanap]

Hi ate nareceive mo na yujg bad news?

Super duper late ko na nabasa ito. What bad news anon?

[pakihanap]

Should I stay o should I go?

Well, I really don't know

Lately, I've been missing you so.

#kwento #bampira

[pakihanap]

*gives someone so much space that i never speak to them again*

[pakihanap]

my ability to cut someone off and act like i never met them is so scary

[pakihanap]

9/17/22

MIBF with Anthony. ☺️

#kwento #bampira

[pakihanap]

What I need right now:

Longggggggggggggg hugggggggsssssssssss

[pakihanap]

Wala na naman akong tulog, aasa na naman ako sa bisa ng iced kopi. Haha. Pero for sure, makakatulog lang din ako sa work station ko.

Andddd I have Anthonyyy to make my shift a little bit less boring. Haha.

#kwento #bampira

[pakihanap]

I don’t want to answer emails I want to make breakfast in a sunny kitchen with the radio playing and drink coffee in the sun

[pakihanap]

#purple ice cream #Spotify