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Welp--sorry for dropping the whole angsty open starter. Techncially, not sorry? Maybe.

I'm just gonna go and wind down for a bit.

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"Hmm?" Ash was in a marketplace that sells assorted goods and Pokemon items as they turned to look at a young trainer. "Is there something you'd need?"

"Could I get your autograph please?" The young trainer suddenly blurted out, holding a notebook out for Ash to sign.

"H-huh? S-sure...?" Pikachu can sense the confusion and surprise within his buddy, Ash. Ash then took the notebook and marker, noticing an empty page, a place for them to actually sign. However, the page had a name in the right corner of the page. Champion Ash Ketchum.

Ash had to keep his kind and polite smile on his face for as long as they could as they then signed their name with a Pikachu and their hat symbol drawing, giving back the notebook. They watched the young trainer taking off with a happy expression.

Their chest tightened. What-...what was this feeling? They can't breathe...why can't they breathe? They tried to repeat their breathing patterns but this time, they couldn't succeed.

It's like--Ash is just now realizing that they're the Alola champion and they're also the World Champion. So much responsibilities...so much...expectation. Nonetheless, they feel like they've never got a chance to truly be a kid after being shoved out of the house when they turned ten years old. They were out on a journey at the age of ten years old, with just having their Pikachu.

"Pika-pika!" Ash could barely hear their Pikachu trying to get them to snap out of whatever trance they're in as they gasped in and out, trying to breathe. They were only ten years old, out in a dangerous world of Pokemon. It's a miracle as to how long they've survived, how far they came. "I'm-...I'm a champion...I'm--..."

Their knees buckled out underneath them as they hit the ground, managing to keep themselves grounded. They were having a hard time keeping themselves calm as their heartbeat was starting to increase. They couldn't hear bystanders nearby asking them if they're alright, they couldn't hear merchants shouting out of genuine concern. "I-...I was just a kid...I'm-...I-..." They could feel a set of hands trying to make sure that they don't pass out from hyperventilating.

They could feel tears streaming down their cheeks as they couldn't help but to sob. They could feel somebody trying to keep them sitting upright, trying to make sure that they don't harm themselves in the process. They need one of their friends...they want their friends. "F-friends...I want-...I want my friends..." They're sobbing while one of the bystanders just pressed the first contact on Ash's RotomPhone, putting Ash's RotomPhone up to their ear.

"Kid, you gotta stay awake, you gotta try to regulate your breathing..." Another bystander was trying to get through to Ash but they failed.

"Come on, come on...pick up..." The bystander spoke with genuine worry, using Ash's RotomPhone to try to get in touch with somebody.

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"A-Ari..." The teenager choked out worriedly as their eyes widened in genuine shock. Did...Ari flinch at his touch? They stood there, processing everything all at once. They then looked down at their hands as they started feeling like that they might not do much right now. "Ari...it's-...it's not your fault...don't apologize...please." They reached a hand out but they slightl.y froze.

"Ari..." The teenager mumbled out shakily. "Look at me please...I-...I'm not mad at you...p-please..." They see Ari as family. It hurts them to see Ari like this.

"Everybody's bound to leave, but at least they get to say goodbye for they do. Had I known..." He trails off. "I would have." Just because Ash had, for all he knew, forgiven him... Didn't mean he'd forgive himself so easily. He didnt understand how they could.

He flinches back slightly when Ash grabs his hands, freezes in place. His hands tense before slowly relaxing. For a second Cheren and Ash's faces overlap, one screaming the other.... Dare he say pleading? Before he was just left with Ash staring at him. "I'm sorry." He chokes out. "I'm sorry-" He crumbles and turns his head down, refusing to look at the other. He... Is the older one. The older (former) champion,. He should be more............. He doesnt know..

#🌹« can you hear me now so loudly? i'm screaming at the top of my lungs; can you see me now so proudly? / ash ketchum » #twindragonsprophecy

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...guess what? Prepare for actual angst. I'm going to write an open starter and I'm going to make sure that it's quite sad to the point where you're about to cry.

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Send me "Do you trust me?" and I'll tell you just how much I do or don't

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"Ari--...Ari, I already forgive you. I forgive you." Ash laughed anxiously. "Everybody's bound to leave...at some point." They were trying to hide the fact that they want to cry, scream but they didn't. "Ari...? Don't tell me..." Their eyes widened slightly as they instinctively approached Ari, grabbing a hold of Ari's hands. "Ari--look at me please...I'm not mad at you, I forgive you...please...please don't..."

Ari raised an eyebrow listening to Ash, eyebrow raising with each word they spoke and then..... There it was. The stinger. 'I forgive you for disappearing.' It echoed in his mind. "I..." He didn't want to talk about this- he didn't want to talk about this- he didn't want to talk about this he didntwanttotalkaboutthis-

"Ash... I..... Didn't want to leave." He croaks out, he's very well aware of the trust issues the kid has.... That any of his kids have for that matter really. "I seriously didn't have a choice in the matter." Such was the life of someone who couldn't control where they ended up, or when they left.

If he did this conversation would be a lot easier than telling Ash that he'd been kidnapped by time and space essentially. He fully expected to be called out for bullshit, even as he held his hands close to himself, so hopefully Ash wouldn't see them tremble heavily.

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Even after all those battles and hardships, when we're together we can still laugh and talk about silly things that matter only to us.

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❛ close your eyes and hold out your hands. ❜ ❛ what are you smiling at? ❜ ❛ i can’t leave you alone for one minute, can i? ❜ ❛ was it you? did you do all this? ❜ ❛ i don’t know how you do this every day… ❜ ❛ that is not an appropriate question to ask a lady you’ve just met. ❜ ❛ i’m not sorry. ❜ ❛ i did warn you not to trust me. ❜ ❛ do you remember anything? at all? ❜ ❛ you’re lucky you’re cute. ❜ ❛ why don’t you just kill me? ❜ ❛ did you hurt yourself? ❜ ❛ i could show you the way. ❜ ❛ i don’t feel so good. ❜ ❛ you owe me a dinner. a very nice dinner. ❜ ❛ don’t go. please. ❜ ❛ you wanna know what your problem is? ❜ ❛ i’m here to drink alone. ❜ ❛ don’t run away from this. ❜ ❛ i’m just saying, murder is an option. ❜ ❛ i didn’t realize you were in so much pain. ❜ ❛ i guess it runs in the family, huh? ❜ ❛ you wouldn’t understand. ❜ ❛ we’ve been through a lot. i think we should just lay low and take it easy. ❜ ❛ dangerous to be out so late. ❜ ❛ i hope you haven’t been standing out in the cold this whole time. ❜ ❛ i made a mistake. ❜ ❛ am i not good enough? ❜ ❛ i’m going to get you out of here. ❜ ❛ why did you bring me here? ❜ ❛ aren’t we in a good mood today? ❜ ❛ don’t shut me out. please. ❜ ❛ the storm’s getting worse. ❜ ❛ i never meant to hurt you. ❜ ❛ you’re about as intimidating as a butterfly. ❜ ❛ have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state? ❜ ❛ here, take this. you’ll catch a cold. ❜ ❛ this is the part where you leave. ❜ ❛ why are you talking like we’ll never see each other again? ❜ ❛ you stepped on my foot! ❜ ❛ you’re not a very convincing liar. ❜ ❛ we’re in completely different leagues. ❜ ❛ how did you find me? ❜ ❛ i don’t need you anymore. ❜ ❛ rough day today? ❜ ❛ snap out of it! ❜ ❛ you look better in my clothes than i do. ❜ ❛ why are you still here? ❜ ❛ can i ask… what happened? ❜ ❛ are you saying you care about me? ❜ ❛ i won’t let anyone hurt you. ❜ ❛ it’s not stealing if it was mine to begin with. ❜ ❛ well, this is where i live. ❜ ❛ we’re not so different after all. ❜ ❛ how long have i been asleep? ❜ ❛ no more lies, no more secrets. ❜ ❛ can you forgive me? ❜ ❛ i thought you… i saw you get shot. ❜ ❛ why are you really here? ❜ ❛ i wish we never met. ❜ ❛ you look like you need a hug. ❜ ❛ would you run away with me? ❜ ❛ see? i’m not just a pretty face. ❜ ❛ we can stop them. i can help you. ❜ ❛ what now? i’m tired. ❜ ❛ i didn’t want you to see me like this. ❜ ❛ i can’t do this without you. ❜ ❛ if you tell me yours, i’ll tell you mine. ❜ ❛ are you threatening me? ❜ ❛ did you ever care about me? ❜ ❛ treat me like the princess that i am! ❜ ❛ i’m not leaving you. ❜ ❛ why did you come? ❜ ❛ i need your help… and you need mine. ❜ ❛ i wish i could hate you. ❜ ❛ i see you don’t recognize me. well, it was a long time ago. ❜ ❛ you’ve lost a lot of blood. ❜ ❛ i had my suspicions, but until now i wasn’t sure. ❜ ❛ there’s nothing left for me here. ❜ ❛ that is… literally illegal. you’re describing something illegal. ❜ ❛ wait. i’ve heard that sound before. ❜ ❛ just try to hang on. ❜ ❛ so why’s it so important anyway? ❜ ❛ i’ll stay in tonight, thanks. ❜ ❛ we can’t keep going on like this. ❜ ❛ in about a minute, you’ll be sorry you didn’t listen to me. ❜ ❛ is this seat taken? sorry, it’s a bit crowded here. ❜ ❛ you can’t leave me here alone! ❜ ❛ i’ll believe it when i see it. ❜ ❛ why are you laughing? this is a very serious situation. ❜ ❛ i bought two. here. ❜ ❛ i’ve seen you before, walking by. ❜ ❛ why can’t i come with you? ❜ ❛ c'mon. aren’t you worried what might happen if we go? ❜ ❛ walk with me? ❜ ❛ it’s very rude to stare. ❜ ❛ how many times have i told you? you can’t visit me here. ❜ ❛ we can’t fix this. can we? ❜ ❛ are you going to kill me? ❜ ❛ it’s not like you can stop me. ❜ ❛ it’s not safe for people to see us together. ❜ ❛ take me with you. ❜ ❛ some risks are worth taking. ❜ ❛ let them go. take me instead. ❜ ❛ what do you want in exchange for it? ❜ ❛ is being drunk an excuse? ❜ ❛ promise me you won’t overreact. ❜ ❛ how can i possibly trust you? after all you’ve done. ❜ ❛ how long have you been standing there? ❜ ❛ why did you wake me? ❜ ❛ i’m not here to talk about my feelings. ❜ ❛ you were going to leave without saying goodbye? ❜ ❛ for some reason, i’m attracted to you. ❜ ❛ promise me? ❜ ❛ it’s nothing, i’m just tired. ❜ ❛ i feel safe with you. ❜ ❛ i don’t need your help. ❜ ❛ i think i have a bit more experience with this thing than you do. ❜ ❛ no way, i’m not doing that. ❜ ❛ i do care. ❜ ❛ you snore in your sleep. it’s adorable. ❜ ❛ i have a spare bed. ❜ ❛ you’re very kind. some day it’ll get you killed. ❜ ❛ you’ll always have a home with me. ❜ ❛ of course i care. you’re my family. ❜ ❛ you shouldn’t insult people that are bigger than you. ❜ ❛ i never wanted to hurt you. ❜ ❛ i swear it wasn’t me. ❜ ❛ we can just sit here, you don’t have to talk. ❜ ❛ did you miss me? ❜ ❛ this isn’t just about you. it’s about what’s best for all of us. ❜ ❛ you can never admit when you’re wrong! ❜ ❛ is this what you wanted? ❜ ❛ what are you doing out here by yourself? ❜ ❛ sorry to put you through that. i guess i owe you one now. ❜ ❛ the only time you talk to me is when you need something. ❜ ❛ i’m still learning. ❜ ❛ if you have something to say, spit it out. ❜ ❛ you… don’t like me very much, do you? ❜ ❛ i’m on your side. ❜ ❛ i risked my life for you! ❜ ❛ whatever you’re going to ask, the answer is no. ❜ ❛ you can stay with me. ❜ ❛ i just need time. ❜ ❛ please don’t do this, don’t act like you care. ❜ ❛ who the hell invited you? ❜ ❛ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say? ❜ ❛ i just wanted to say i’m sorry. ❜ ❛ think of it as a compliment. ❜ ❛ do you ever stop being so serious and dull? ❜ ❛ it’s rare to see your kind around here. ❜ ❛ you remember me. that’s good. ❜ ❛ you’re a terrible flirt you know. ❜ ❛ are you kidding me? we’re not ‘fine’! ❜ ❛ right now i wish i was dead. ❜ ❛ i guess i should’ve told you. ❜ ❛ you’re not alone. i’m here. ❜ ❛ you’ve been so quiet. what’s on your mind? ❜ ❛ knowledge is power. ❜ ❛ you scared me. ❜ ❛ well, what’s so strange about that? ❜ ❛ don’t look at me like that. ❜ ❛ i want to be there when you get what’s coming to you. ❜ ❛ just who do you think you are? ❜ ❛ you look… amazing. ❜ ❛ we’re safe, aren’t we? ❜ ❛ you know, i really hoped i’d never see this place again. ❜ ❛ don’t touch me. get away from me. ❜ ❛ i thought you’d like this. ❜ ❛ it’s too dark, i can’t see anything. ❜ ❛ what’s that smug look for? you think you can do any better? ❜ ❛ who did you piss off this time? ❜ ❛ you should’ve thought about that before you got into a fight. ❜ ❛ i only wanted to help. ❜ ❛ you knew and you didn’t tell me? ❜ ❛ you don’t scare me. ❜ ❛ wow, look who remembered my existence. ❜ ❛ change isn’t easy. ❜ ❛ why did you help me? ❜ ❛ why do you hate me? ❜ ❛ i can’t even trust myself anymore. ❜ ❛ i was making sure you weren’t dead, since you never called. ❜ ❛ you look awful. what happened? ❜ ❛ are you here to kill me? ❜ ❛ you know you aren’t allowed in here, right? ❜ ❛ was that a friend of yours? ❜ ❛ two years later and you haven’t changed. ❜ ❛ you look like you just saw a ghost. ❜ ❛ nobody tells me what to do. ❜ ❛ you’re too scared to do it, aren’t you? ❜ ❛ come on. it can’t be that bad. ❜ ❛ i hope to repay your kindness someday. ❜ ❛ just let me do this for you. ❜ ❛ why were they coming after you? ❜ ❛ how many people have you killed? how many? ❜ ❛ how much do you value your life? ❜ ❛ you don’t know when to give up, do you? ❜ ❛ don’t lie to me. ❜ ❛ i’m not sober enough to talk about this. ❜ ❛ have a drink with me. ❜

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"Oh really? Yeah! I am totally happier, I feel a lot more happier! Definitely okay!" Ash grimaced internally at how they ended wording their answer. "Anywayyyyy...never mind about me. Nothing important happenedand yes I do like your new look!" They responded brightly, smiling brightly. "Tell me about your adventures and all that happened!"

"Oh by the way, I forgive you for disappearing."

"Its been awhile and you look a lot..." He trails off, tilting his head. "Happier, how much has changed here?" Ari asked. Though he wasn't sure if Ash's happiness could be because he was here again or if something big recently happened. "And Yeah I decided to go for a new look, you like?"

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"I was making sure you weren't dead, since you never called." Ash replied bluntly, a sigh escaping from their mouth. "Look...I-...you can't just...never mind." They then look away, frowning softly. "All that matters is that you're not dead."

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"Why does it always have to be a fight with you?" Ash suddenly shouted, their voice sounding rather frustrated. They're definitely dealing with their unresolved emotions.

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Pfffft I bet you guys are wondering how the frick I'm all over the place with all sorts of muses and blogs. xD

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@hadraconic sent: *sniffing cautiously*

unprompted asks (always accepting)

"Whoa...easy..." Ash stood absolutely still, afraid of making a move that could be considered a threat in the Pokemon's perspective. "Hey, buddy...you're nice, right?"

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@twindragonsprophecy sent: Ari picks Ash up over his shoulder. "Hey kiddo! How are you?"

unprompted asks (always accepting)

"Ari!" Ash exclaimed excitedly, seeming rather enjoyed to see quite a familiar face. "Long time no see!" They weren't expecting to be easily picked up as they were still happy. "You changed so much than the last time I saw ya!"

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❝Can you hear me now so loudly? I'm screaming at the top of my lungs. Can you see me now so proudly? Looking up at what I've become, can you hear me now? Up above the crowd, singing whoa whoa-oh! Can you hear me now so loudly? Can you hear me, can you hear me now?❞

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They frowned softly when Ari questioned what a macaron is. "You really don't know what a macaron is?" They seemed to keep Ari's words in mind. "Of course, I will be sure to tell you if I feel like it." They thanked Ari for opening the door to the shop, soon entering the shop and then turning to Ari to wait for him. "What are you gonna get, Ari?"

"... Whats a Macaron-" Ari deadpans, yep this man does not eat many sweets. But he does listen to Ash afterwards. A small frown on his face. "Well.. You dont have to anymore." He mumbles. "But if you ever need someone to listen to your tales... No matter how bad they are.. I'll be here. Okay?" He opens the door to the shop and holds it for Ash.

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