poetrywings

[poetrywings]

If I was honest, I would tell you how lonely I feel every fucking day.

But instead, I shine a smile on my face and make sure that you’re okay.

If I was honest, I’d tell you that sometimes what you say cuts me deep.

Sometimes I decide to keep those thoughts to myself so that you won't flee.

If I was honest, you’d know that my chest weights heavy, I can barely breathe.

I hold onto so many tears that I let out every night instead to avoid the critiques.

If I was honest, you'd learn that I love deep but often feel the most unwanted.

I feel like no matter what I do good or bad I am always to be blamed or faulted.

If I was honest, you’d see that I yearn death more than I have the will to live.

I am tired of feeling, hurting and thinking of the lack of value I offer this world.

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[poetrywings]

‘’I close my eyes and there’s only one thing that’s left, the scent of faded dreams against fallen snow.’‘

[poetrywings]

My Memory

You're a memory I can't shake

A love I couldn't try to fake

I crumble at the sight of you

But I know we can never be

For I love another and I can't be free

You know me for all that I ever was

Its hard to pretend like it was nothing

After all this time there still something

Constantly second guessing my choices

Whether I chose right or been wrong

Like forgetting lyrics to a love song

I am weak and consciously lost

I love him and can't help to love you too

My heart is making me to be a fool

For you are a memory of my past

- Natalie Moisan

[poetrywings]

Phil Lawver: I see you and I’m not that far behind       All your fears will be crawling through your mind The letters, the calls I’ll never stop giving You can beg and plead all you want to Nothing will change even if you try to sue No mercy will come to mind once I got you Believe me I know you’ll want me too I’ve waited so long for this glorious moment Day by day, night by night watching your every move This thing called love will not even begin to describe My diligence towards you that will surely not suffice Where you will be at time or place, I will follow I promise, I’ll play you as sweet and good as a cello When you open that door looking at your devil or angel The warning you have avoided intends to be that final mention For this last call, I will ask you this one simple question, Are You In The House Alone?

Natalie Moisan

[poetrywings]

I spent so many nights thinking I could change But my past isn’t something I can exchange No matter how hard I try things remain the same As a kid life was a dream sent out from heaven My innocence and purity had left by the age of eleven After my parents’ divorce I just couldn’t cope I leaned on religion to feel a sense of hope They told me I would find my answers from above No matter how good it was I still felt like a mourning dove Heart grew bitter downing in its sorrow Always looking to discover a better tomorrow A new daddy or mommy would never be welcomed Cause I wouldn’t allow my life to be based on an income Not too long after all that happened momma got married Soon enough her baggage became too hard to carry Marijuana had then became my one and only This would help me escape from my stupid reality The drama had gotten old and became utterly annoying Wanted to end all the sufferance with a letter and a last breath A voice came to me and said “Every life matters and I’m here.” Some of the sadness suddenly began to disappear.

Natalie Moisan

[poetrywings]

You say things that cuts like a blade And act like you’ve got it all made It spits like fire that never retires Like the shit in your mouth that never expires Keep pointing your finger towards me Cuz, your conscious is something that will never let you be Stop judging when you don’t know half of what you think you do I’m tired of hoping that someday we’ll have some kind of break through I’ve only got one life and I want to live it well If I have to keep on fighting I guess this means farewell

Natalie Moisan

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Loose tongue rolling way too long Mouth so full it’s burning in tears My regrets are so teeth grinding Deepening from that bitter shame I am the greater good of the nothingness In places where the dread of lies live Heart set on love but kisses that leads to death Torture that sets an evil laugh until that last breath Eyes so sharp it kills like poison so slow and long Two roads but none is right all is the answer of wrong Did my mistake and I’m still paying a lifetime roll Let the bridge burn to let myself live and learn Won’t forget what I’ve done but I truly apologize To whom I’ve crossed to have burned that bridge Now this is when I say, that will be the day when I really live.

Natalie Moisan