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β you are supposed to address me as βsir.β β
β i won, i won, on a horse called smokey. β
β invited to feel regret, he felt no regret. β
β i like you, you know why? because if i tell you a joke, you pretend that itβs funny. β
β you hate this place. β
β i hate this peace. war, my friend, is where you find it. β
β i hope i did no permanent damage. β
β fucker, first and foremost. β
β iβm used to uneven battles. β
β drink. do not think. β
β do not be yourself tonight. β
β when we are among them, your mother is not watching. β
β oh, iβm sensing resentment. β
β iβm afraid theft is something i cannot tolerate. β
β in war, we are allowed to be the beasts that we are. β
β we are taught to kill silently, and it becomes instinctive, almost like swallowing. β
β eyes are for thumbs to pushβ¦ into the brain. mouths can be torn open, necks are a gift - godβs ultimate mistake. β
β everything you touch is a weapon. β
β you are a weapon. β
β works every time. β
β doesnβt this fucking squeaking drive you insane?! β
β i canβt fucking salute anymore. β
β what would it take to make you call me sir!? β
β it would take respect. β
β i always sleep well. β
β nothing is as it seems. β
β justified by inner rage. β
β they say it is an exquisite death, though, who the people are that know that is unrecorded. β
β youβre supposed to be in hospital. β
β kill with cutlery if necessary. β
β you crept up on me. β
β right now beauty is not a currency i value. β
β you will learn that i tend to hear about everything. β
β they are dead men, just awaiting confirmation. like me. β
β if youβre going to stand there staring, we will charge you admission. β
β anything expected fails. β
β never be where you are meant to be. β
β did you have a fall? β
β am i dead? β
β iβm told my the doctor not to express pity. β
β youβre not making any sense at all. β
β we have nothing to discuss. β
β mostly, i donβt like people. but i like you. β
β i understand you gentlemen are very good at killing people. β
β we wonβt all survive, but we will triumph. β
β and if all this is a lovely dream of mine, well it has been lovely dreaming it. β
β lately, iβm changed by him. β
β if i sit up barking and howling at night, as i sometimes do, he takes me for a walk and throws a stick for me. β
β thereβs no shame turning back on a night like this. β
β itβs broken. β
β we need to be alive to go again. β
β maybe itβs your attitude, maybe itβs the way you walk. β
β you are walking on a tightrope. β
β i donβt like waiting around. β
β fucking is fine, feeling is not. β
β literally, unquestionably, undeniably in the middle of fucking nowhere. if fucking nowhere had a capital city, this would be it. and this would be the main street of fucking nowhere city, and the lord mayor would be fucking no-one, presiding over fuck all, in a place where there was no-one around to give a fuck. β
β you need any help, there isnβt any. β
β iβm fucking sick of being the taxi service. β
β for godβs sake, donβt be seen. β
β i never go to parties to which i am invited anyway. β
β itβs not a competition. β
β fuck the moon. β
β the moon is our friend, patience is our enemy. β
β those that see us will soon be dead. β
β so damn corny, isnβt it? β
β i can tell you the full commandment - thous shalt not kill, except in a very good cause. β
β only monsters would keep count. β
β i will get a break, i am owed a fucking break! β
β youβre being very mysterious. β
β you always resort to military terms when youβre embarrassed. β
β talk to me like that, i will knock your bleeding block off! β
β drink rum, fight dirty, fuck the rules. β
β who dares wins. β
β are you not compassionate? β
β and there was me thinking that you were with me because you liked me. β
β oh, to run away, eh? oh, how grand a life it would be to be a coward. to love life that much. β
β you donβt deserve my fatherβs wisdom. β
β sometimes when you are in command, you need to make difficult decisions. β
β never wrestle naked in the sand. sand under the foreskin is one of the most painful medical conditions imaginable. β
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β expect to be isolated by my contempt. β
β i am a hand grenade, pull the pin, throw me where the enemy is most numerous. β
β the eyes of a familiar compound ghost, both intimate, and unidentifiable. β
β i find ts eliot rather dull. β
β not a debate worth getting sand under the foreskin for, one might imagine. β
β you must ask why, because if you know why you are carrying out your mission, when things fuck up - which they inevitably will - you will know how to achieve what you set out to achieve, in a different way. β
β i like plans that can be explained with one breath. β
β i have you! β
β get on your feet! β
β i expected better from you. β
β i wonder if itβs something more or not. β
β i save my bullets for the enemy! β
β i cannot believe you just risked your life for no reason. β
β you would do this purely to discover that i am not you. β
β lesson learned about men, and the motivation of men. β
β fuck, itβs a dead end. β
β because why the fuck not? β
β iβm only staying to make sure you donβt damage any of our property. β
β you make me curious. β
β what you did today, i wondered if youβd do that if you loved someone. β
β loving somebody can make you too fond of life, whichβ¦ can turn you into a coward. β
β whatever is the cause of your pain? you have my deepest sympathy. β
β you certainly have my attention. β
β it takes me a while to get back to normal. β
β about an hour after sunset i will stop shaking, and then about an hour after that i will stop hearing explosions. β
β as a general rule, i avoid possession and being possessed. β
β among the broken bottles on the floor youβll find several teeth. β
β i blame my father, whatβs your excuse for being such a mad fucker? β
β i donβt need a fucking excuse. β
β one night, someoneβs going to come in here and theyβre going to slit your throat. β
β they are welcome to try. β
β the use of irish as an adjective is very provoking. β
β i would beat you to death. β
β iβd take your knife from you, cut off your balls and stir them into a bloody mary. β
β there. that was me pulling a knife. β
β no-one can bear undeclared grief. β
β do you remember collapsing? β
β you stood on the table and told everyone you loved me. β
β dear god. love? now i do apologize. mustβve been the whisky. β
β if that is rather odd, iβd hate to see very odd. β
β he thinks too much. such men are dangerous. β
β no-one knows anyone. β
β you have great difficulty with approval, donβt you? β
β youβd just rather play the renegade. β
β there is no time to be unambitious. β
β you donβt know who might be listening to you. β
β you need to look defeated. β
β we donβt want to draw attention to ourselves. β
β this is where we split up. β
β weβve been betrayed. β
β yes well, vodka does uh, it does make some poor decisions. β
β everything i touchβ¦ boom, gone! β
β my holiday in the sun continues to be eventful. β
β what the fuck are we supposed to do now? β
β now the blood will flow. β
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