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Will somebody please draw me with the Ghoul? Pretty please?

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I’m going to have to write that AU where Ben is a dogmatic cinema purist about dinosaurs that hates the new scifi dino movie and Rey has to wear a dinosaur hoodie to get his attention aren’t I?

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Ali Hazelwood novels x Reylo

Original cover artist: lilith_saur

Orginal novels: Ali Hazelwood

Love on the Brain

Stuck on You & Love Theoretically

The Love Hypothesis

Artwork was created for personal pleasure ONLY because my brain wouldn't let me rest.

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"wednesday isn't autistic, she's just an addams!" ...you have exactly 1 guess what my next statement is gonna be.

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Russian dachas by Fyodor Savintsev

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POV： Your childhood best friend became the pope of the galaxy

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As someone recently diagnosed with ADHD as an adult, one thing that’s been helping me grapple with the intense shame I have over all my “wasted potential” is accepting that potential doesn’t exist and never did.

This sounds so harsh, but please bare with me.

I procrastinated a lot growing up. I still procrastinate today, but less so. And yet, I got good grades. I could write an A+ paper that “knocked [my professor]’s socks off” in the hour before class and print it with sweat running down my face.

I was so used to hearing from teachers and family that if I just didn’t procrastinate and worked all the time, I could do anything! I had all this potential I wasn’t living up to!

And that’s true, as far as it goes, but that’s like saying if Usain Bolt just kept going he could be the fastest marathon runner in the world. Why does he stop at the end of the race??

If ANYONE could make their top speed/most productive setting the one they used all the time, anyone could do anything. But you can’t. Your top speed is not a speed you’re able to sustain.

Now, I’ve found that I do need to work on not procrastinating. Not because the product is better, even, but because it’s better for my mental health and physical health to not have a full, sweating, panicked breakdown over every task even if the task itself turns out excellently. It’s a shitty way to live! You feel bad ALL the time! And I don’t deserve to live like that anymore.

So all of this to say, I’m not wasting a ton of potential. I don’t have an ocean of productivity and accomplishments inside of me that I could easily, effortlessly access if I just sat down 8 hours a day and worked. There’s no fucking way. That’s not real. It’s an illusion. It’s fine not to live up to an illusion.

And if you have ADHD, I mean this from the bottom of my heart: you do not have limitless potential confounded by your laziness. You have the good potential of a good person, and you can access it with practice and work, but do not accept the story that you are choosing not to be all that you are or can be. You are just a human person.

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Adam Driver in 65 Teaser for @safarigirlsp .

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48,000 Academic Workers -- Academic Student Employees, Academic Researchers, Postdoctoral Scholars, and Student Researchers -- are negotiating new contracts with the University of California. Instead of negotiating in good faith to reach agreement on key issues, the university has engaged in a wide variety of unlawful conduct. [...] Send a message to UC President Michael Drake that you are in solidarity with UC’s Academic Workers. Their fight for equitable contracts is a fight for the future of our higher education system.

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1918 | 1984

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#adhd feels #audhd #why is my brain like this #Instagram

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“When someone works for less pay than she can live on—when, for example, she goes hungry so that you can eat more cheaply and conveniently—then she has made a great sacrifice for you, she has made you a gift of some part of her abilities, her health, and her life. The “working poor,” as they are approvingly termed, are in fact the major philanthropists of our society. They neglect their own children so that the children of others will be cared for; they live in substandard housing so that other homes will be shiny and perfect; they endure privation so that inflation will be low and stock prices high. To be a member of the working poor is to be an anonymous donor, a nameless benefactor, to everyone else.”

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Barbara Ehrenreich

(via azspot)

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I have spent all semester writing lectures for a class I am new to teaching—getting paid for 6 hours a week and working 40 is really demoralizing. I appreciate the subject matter & wanted to do a credible job, even though I only accepted the assignment a few weeks before class started.

I thought there might be some already created materials I could expand from, but not really. I have created 17 lectures nearly from scratch. The college claims to own anything we create in their employ, but they will have to claw this content out of my cold, dead lunchhooks.

I am exhausted and wondering what I am doing with my life. I just want to make my own art. ADHD and suspected autism have not helped with feeling utterly drained. I wish I could motivate to find a better job that is less stupidly compensated.

#just venting #no advice please #chaotic academia #adjunct realness

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You have too much of your father’s heart in you, young Solo.

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Fundraiser cats go on sale at about noon central time today. Search LyndaBarryArt and Etsy to find my shop and your painted cat. https://www.instagram.com/p/ClbcqSOLvEd/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=