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Just finished reading Letters from Katsuki by shigarakith on ao3

and man.....

I think I never cried this much over a fanfic

IT IS SO GOOD

I recommend it!

I would love to give more opinion but don't want to spoil it for some of you who want to read it.

Here's the link to the story! ⬇️

I'm sure this is the author's Tumblr @saeshiraw

I'm so sorry I forgot to tag your Tumblr acc😭

#hello omg thank you so much for recommending my work 🥺💕

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your aizawa as we go fic on ao3 just made my heart feel lighter... it's gave me this hopeful feeling about finding love and accepting it, going through life and growing older too. i enjoyed it thanks for that! :)

hello anon, omg! i’m so sorry for the late reply, i was busy with uni 😭 but thank you so much for this, and i’m happy to hear about the hopeful feeling you got 🥺 i really wanted to incorporate themes of young love and growing up, and then learning to love again into the fic so i’m happy you resonated with that 🫶🏻

#asks with nami 💌

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WHERE ARE YOU!!

i have just finished exams and ended my four day flu streak!! 🤧 HOW ABOUT U !!

#hera frens

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tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

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my mom seeing my eyes are red and asking if i’m okay so i say yeah i am!! all good !! but i am, indeed, not okay. i have been watching satosugu edits for an hour and i just can’t stop crying over them

#FREE ME FROM THIS PAIN #THEY BREAK MY HEART SM #sad tots and sad hours 😔

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Abyss.

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smt about bokuto and hydrangeas make me swoon

from the haikyuu rain zine: petrichor

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Biker Series pt. 1 for my first post!

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watching ror and i just have some thoughts

#ROUND TWO WAS UNACCEPTABLE PLS I WAS CRYING #adam’s line was so iconic it literally brought me to tears #“does any man alive need a good reason to want to protect his children?” and i was sobbing #full on sobbing i wasn’t even hiding it anymore it was so emotional and truly a good fight #ADAM ON TOP!! just thinking about that ep has me emotional again like i love adam fr #and i have just been so desperate for the humans to win so when i spoiled myself that humans were gonna win in the 3rd round i was so happy #BUT AT WHAT COST #i ended up becoming attached to poseidon out of all the characters lmfaoo 😭😭😭 i was cheering mr sushi on he is so cool and ugh i just #i could talk about this man for hours like he is the epitome of beauty and he’s so elegant HE DIDN’T DESERVE TO DIE 😭 #but also i love sasaki and he’s so respectable n admirable that i really don’t know who i’m cheering for atp 😭 this animanga has me in #SHAMBLES! left me emotionally wrecked and so hyped at the same time #but so far my favorite fight would still be jack the ripper vs hercules like wait okay i could go on n on about how much #i love the detail that goes on in jack’s character n how genius it was that hilde chose him for that round ugh it was so good #i would say deep down adam vs zeus is my most fav fight or poseidon vs kojiro but the outcomes of those HURT i can’t not cry #I LOVE SHIVA TOO #can’t wait for qin shi huang vs hades roundd hnggrrr #bro i wanna write a poseidon fic so bad but for some reason i have been itching to write for jack like !! feef #nami [ rambles ]

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Naoya

#oh myyyy he is seriously so pretty #gonna stare at this for a long time #BARK BARK

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he had no business looking this good here

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High waisted pants Icon.

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scars

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Literally cannot emphasize enough that my #1 writing advice is to stop being afraid. Stop being afraid of sounding too cringe, or too stupid, or too horrifying, or too horny, or too weird, or too much, or too little, or too you. You need to put your entire pussy into your art. Sure, it won't be to everyone's tastes, but if you keep yourself to the blandest tamest safest roads possible you will be of no one's tastes, not even yours.

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just a normal day in the household.

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i have greek life au brainworms right now so take this small thing, not beta read.

cw greek life/frat dynamics, very VERY light mention of hazing, slight exhibitionism, virgin!gyuutarou, implied unprotected sex

aff @knyplaymatemansion @planetonet

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fratboy!gyuutarou who’s the token member that gets fucked with the most by the boys. he joined for the philanthropic aspect, so he’s a little more socially awkward than his brothers are.

fratboy!gyuutarou who gets teased incessantly for not hooking up with girls at parties, where he stands guard by the alcohol bowl instead to make sure no one spikes it and hurts anyone.

fratboy!gyuutarou who finally, after months of being teased and ridiculed, talks to the first girl ever at a party – you. he’s tall, with heavy freckles and curly, dark hair, and although he’s a little scrubby looking, he’s got certain intriguing charm to him. he’s surprised you came up to him, naturally, as he’d never had someone approach him before.

fratboy!gyuutarou whose normally lanky, lingering presence is now gone from the alcohol station. instead, gyuutarou’s upstairs, with you kissing up on his neck and rubbing your hands against his chest. you whisper sweet nothings into his ear as he writhes in your grasp, his inexperienced hands lingering against your hips, pulling you against his clothed member before you snake your hands under the waistband of his pants.

fratboy!gyuutarou whose first fuck is with you in a dingy bedroom upstairs of the party. he’s opted to let you lead things, you straddled atop his lap and bouncing yourself perfectly atop his cock. he bites his lip, because fuck, he’s been missing out on all this.

his brothers are looking for him, no doubt, muzan most likely muttering about losing his drink lookout and douma complaining about something relating to his recent fuck. gyuutarou wonders, if he pants and moans and makes you whine loud enough, they might just hear and finally treat him like a man.

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#i- i am speechless #just had a random gyutaro brainrot and this definitely fuels it #HE’S SOOOOO #ugh. chef’s kiss i just love it #hera reads #m for tag