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No but in the same conversation dead Dravo calls Enver foolish first, then clever second.

It's also interesting he mentions needy between foolish and wicked, as if a "needy" child is a bad thing. Enver was, and is, clearly gifted, and he needed special attention and special care. He just needed acceptance and love, which is really clear when you talk to his parents in general.

These things about him really resonate with me because as a child I was called both foolish and clever - I have ADHD, but I wasn't diagnosed until recently, and I'm past the third X. I suffered a lot because my family and the teachers didn't understand me. They couldn't understand how could I be so brilliant at some subjects but utterly fail at others. "You're not stupid, just lazy", they used to tell me.

I had a theory that Enver also is, at least, on the ADHD spectrum. He shows the signs I recognise in myself, the hyperfocus on things that particularly interest him, learning everything about a subject - haha look at my fucking blog -, having ideas and being overly creative. Being busy and so absorbed in his work that he visibly can't even sleep. I mean. I know those bloodshot eyes because they stare right back at me every fucking morning because I'm hyperfocusing on the game he is in and on the fic I'm writing with him...

And guess what parents usually do to an ADHD child? They punish them. They punish them because the child is simply UNABLE to focus on things that are deemed "important" by their parents, because they're so absorbed in their own world - Enver was born in a family that made shoes, but he was so much more interested in something else entirely. "Clever boy... always... tinkering." He wasn't living up to his father's expectations - he was a burden, a dead end, an extra mouth to feed when they were neck deep in debt, it was so much easier to get rid of him.

Gods fucking damnit. He just wanted to be loved and accepted the way he is, just as I did in my entire life.

#enver gortash #i feel you there #hyperfixating is so hard

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Durge at the coronation in act 3: I need to know if Gortash is going to betray me. What do you think Emperor?

Emperor: I see nothing in Gortash’s demeanour that shows he is lying. He’s being completely genuine, he wants to work with you.

Durge: Ok great.

Emperor: Also, I’m detecting an astronomical amount of Oxytocin permeating in his brain. The man is incredibly in love with you.

Durge: Ok thank you — wait WHAT did you just say?

Emperor: In the layman’s terms; he wants to fuck.

#dark urge x gortash #durgetash #enver gortash #baldur's gate 3

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Also uploading it here for my Tumblr ones.

Gortash as a priest will be my freaking downfall.. 🤌👁️👄👁️

#enver gortash #bg3 gortash #baldur's gate 3 #gortash

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Give me the knife and I'll eat you alive

these shitty little drawings with minimal color is all i can manage with my hand being what it is. I'm a nyc pigeon eating cigarette butts when it comes to these two, it aint good for me but i doubt it'll kill me fast.

#enver gortash #bg3 gortash #baldur's gate 3

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I think personally. The reason Figaro was on the murder list in act 3 is because he was Gortash's tailor. And Orin wanted to piss him off.

#enver gortash #bg3 gortash #gortash #baldur's gate 3

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fave Gortash line [and devnote] ever btw. this specific side of him is just so. chefs kiss to me.

the mock-friendliness. the threat. the sadism. the twisted, almost immature sense of humour.

the terrifyingly intelligent tyrant in his late forties with a black hole where his heart should be. with the emotional intelligence of a ten year old.

#enver gortash #bg3 gortash #baldur's gate 3

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Durge saves bladder & kidney stones from their vivisections so they can toss them at Gortash’s window like they’re some kind of pernicious homicidal Romeo.

#enver gortash #bg3 gortash #baldur's gate 3 #dark urge #gortash

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I need Gortash to have a kid. Just so I can make them drag his sorry ass to play tea party or smth.

Lady Enver Gortash in his pretty elaborate flowery hat may not be amused about the dirt cake and imaginary tea, but I'm fucking wheezing.

And he can't even say shit about it. Honestly Karlach, him planting flowers in hell is great but imagine his sorry ass being forced to entertain little spoiled children. I'm so sorry the thought isn't leaving my head so suffer with me.

#enver gortash #bg3 gortash #baldur's gate 3 #gortash

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• FIVE OF PENTACLES •

"You should know that all parents sell their children," he smirked, leaning back. "In my case, it was just a more literal interpretation of the phrase..."

#enver gortash #bg3 gortash #baldur's gate 3 #gortash

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The Gifting of Stillmaker

Gortash gifting Durge the Stillmaker blade, I just had to depict it after sharing my recent theory on it’s origin!

See link below for my theory 🤍

#dark urge x gortash #enver gortash #durgetash #dark urge #bg3 gortash

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Companions: So, now that you've slayed Gortash- Durge: Laid Gortash. Companions: ...S... Slayed Gortash. Durge: .... Laid? Companions: You... You did slay Gortash, didn't you? That's what you meant- slayed, right? Durge: ... I would have, if I thought that's what you were asking of me. Whoopsie. Companions: ...Durge-

#enver gortash #dark urge #baldur's gate 3

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Durge does not care who or when they kill. A child, an old man, a young couple. Doesn't fucking matter.

The brain calls Durge Murder Incarnate. And what is murder and death? Unfair. It doesn't matter how old you are or if you have things you still want to do in life. Death will steal a girl from her mother's arms and then refuse to take whom she leaves behind. Death is cruel and doesn't care about your circumstances.

Durge is death. Durge is a child who wasn't born. Durge is a thing not living but existing. Durge was crafted from a former mortal's essence, but they have never been a mortal themselves.

Durge kills for their own sake. For their own existence. It's selfish and vile, violent by nature and wholly incapable of caring about you. Mercy is them taking everyone, not just one person. But death will never stop killing

And then they found their version of life incarnate so they didn't wholly change their ways but learned how to control themselves and if you really want to go down that route you can read this as Gortash the inventor, the one who developed humanity further halting death. Not stopping it but slowing it down. Human advancements reducing the death we face and allowing for longer life's, yada yada yada. You catch my drift. He's humanity in that scenario.

Yes I'm going down the old nature gods road and you can't stop me. Symbolism save me. Symbolism.

#enver gortash #bg3 gortash #baldur's gate 3 #dark urge #gortash

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My friend @ketramarantus and I were talking about what Gortash might have looked like when he was Enver Flymm and lived in the House of Hope.

I used FaceApp and created some images. He came out too cute and clean, but overall I'm happy with the result. 😃

Unfortunately, the functionality of the app is limited x(

#enver gortash #bg3 gortash #baldur's gate 3 #gortash

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"They shouldn't make Durgetash canon, it should stay vague!"

Meanwhile what we know of Durge is:

- He's wearing matching clothes with Enver (OG Deafult Sorc Robes and Enver's fancy ass grab)

- Their weapons are matching (Stillmaker and Arbalist)

The only canonically written religious text to Bhaal is defining The Cult Leader's sin as "Cannot help but admire the chosen of your sworn foe Enver Gortash", sees the future "through Gortash's brilliant plan" (wasn't the entire "created by Bhaal" thing enough to see your future purpose, Urge?) and refers to the Dead Three's cooperation as "bosom friends", before proceeding to make excuses as to why Durge needs to delay their murder. For a very important reason of... we need to take over the world I will murder anyways first!

Orin keeps referring to their interactions with Enver is downright obscene and intended to shame you. (That's a sister slandering her siblings on-again-off-again ex if I saw one) Despite the fact that she doesn't want you to remember shit! She doesn't want you to know shit!

Please stop talking about sucking and knotting, Orin.

And that's all aside from The Archduke of Baldurs Gate running down the stairs like an excited teenager to keep talking how you're his Nearest and Dearest, Dear Prince, how Brilliant you are, while exhibiting the most severe case of Boba Eyes in game, that made his entire 20-mins of screen time in game to be rerecorded completely for that one instance.

Sure, we might have multiple checks assuring us he is not lying and he is a lawful evil guy but hey, maybe he's just too good for the game itself and actually love-bombs a potentially dangerous amnesiac into (checks notes)swearing "A divine Oath in spirit and flesh" for his own safety.

And people will still come out and call it vague?

The only vague thing about them is the timeline

#durgetash #baldur's gate 3 #this is so true!!!!! #thank you for writing it down

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A new home

Trigger warning: -

The passage to Baldur's Gate went without problems. As the girl disembarks, she soaks up the hustle and bustle of the harbor. It feels right to be here. Together with Ruri, the rich woman, she makes her way to the upper town, where her new home is located.

"Come on, little girl, don't dawdle."

Ruri admonishes her. The girl obeyed, hoping to make her "aunt" friendly and perhaps have time to explore the town later. The rich woman looks into the turquoise eyes of her new foster child and speaks in a slow voice.

"I find your eyes so fascinating. They remind me of the sea near my home town. Come, little water spirit. I want to introduce you to the other children. They are already waiting for me in my teahouse."

When they arrive at the teahouse, the girl is amazed at how big and clean everything is. She enters through the back door so as not to disturb the paying customers. A servant shows her the way to the upper floors, where her new bedroom is located.

Ruri stays downstairs and takes care of her business with the most important customers. When the girl has looked at her new home, another servant instructs her on the tasks she has to perform every day. In return, she receives warm food, clothes and her assigned sleeping place. Together with an older girl, she also is to do the weekly shopping at the fruit and vegetable market in the lower town.

Ruri has not failed to notice the girl's grace and so she decides that she should be trained as a dancer. This requires hard daily training, as Ruri's dance group is one of the best in Baldur's Gate. The pretty Wanese dancers are admired all over the city and people pay a lot of money to see them perform.

#durgetash #dark urge x gortash #dark urge #sakura #sakura x gortash

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LORD ENVER GORTASH ✦ THE CHOSEN OF BANE

#enver gortash #bg3 gortash #baldur's gate 3 #gortash