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ok but when they LAUGH???? boiiiiii

I mean I’ve felt happiness before but seeing my baby smile at me for the first time feels like a different kind of happiness 🥲

#like it feels unreal ? #idk how to explain that #it’s like a dopamine bomb in my brain #literally was thinking how tired I was that day and I had a headache #but then he laughed and I’m just like o wow ok #everything is good all of a sudden #lmaooo

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??? my baby just started laughing iM ??!!! I’m not Ok

#🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 #not like belly laughs but omgggggggg #hOW #it took me by surprise too #I was just trying to make him smile the.N HE LAUGHED ??? #I def got teary eyed #also #caught it on camera !!!!!

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Filipino is the language? Former but not current. Tagalog is the current language. That used to have more Spanish. Now. It's just a mishmash of a lot of languages and there are I think dialects such as cebuano, ilocano and so on. Waray another example.

wait what’s the context of this message 🥲😂

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almost cried in the car when I was hit with the realization my newborn won’t be a newborn for long…like he’s gonna grow so fast ??? no more startle reflex or contact naps or the newborn scrunch ??? like 😭 what do I do when I start to miss that with all my heart, when I wanna cuddle him in his tiny-ness? just look at old pictures and videos???? that thought is sending me 😭😭😭😭😭😭

#like how they grow SO FAST #Obviously I know I’m gonna love him in his next stage but #omgggg

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I mean I’ve felt happiness before but seeing my baby smile at me for the first time feels like a different kind of happiness 🥲

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for the past few days I’ve been researching about a baby’s first social smile and today !!! he smiled at me for the first time 🥹

#🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 #multiple times too #it’s surreal bc like whoa u have emotions LOL #u don’t just pee and poo and eat and cry 🤣 #anyway I’m crying

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It’s amazing how many words people use to say they want to be able to kill babies.

Don’t kill babies. Killing babies should be illegal. These are not complicated ideas, nor should they be controversial.

Pro-lifers - don’t apologize for holding the very normal view that killing babies is bad.

#pro choicers have really convinced themselves that it’s not a baby 😭

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Thinking of you, hoping all has gone well with you and your baby boy 😘💖

Hiii! Thank you. My birth journey has been insane and not at all what I had expected 😭 but just thankful to the Lord he is finally here and healthy. That’s all that matters to me.

He’s already 1 week old! The first couple days have been so rough on my husband and I because it feels like we’re grasping at straws trying to figure out stuff especially when he’s super fussy! But thankfully we’re starting to kind of figure things out and settle into a routine.

#i meant to respond privately 🤣

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love u weird lovely nice ppl in my phone u are everything

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up at 4 am again somehow craving hot chocolate ☠️

#girl-

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But he said to them, “It is I; do not be afraid.”

John 6:20

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4yo: actually, my dad work for nike

Me: my dad works for dinosaur

4yo: (very skeptic but doesn't have the words to call me out) tell me what... is the... dinosaurs name😑

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should’ve just made a FAQ page for everyone’s questions about my baby/birth because it’s getting stressful answering the same questions and people throwing so many advice and unnecessary comments 🥲

#it’s all the same #and then I feel like I need to educate them on due dates #and then they throw the same jokes like ‘ha ha ur baby gonna be talking when he comes out’ #meanwhile I am here mourning the fact I most likely won’t be able to experience spontaneous labor #it’s just something I don’t wanna deal w right now at this point in pregnancy #I’ve already come to terms with accepting medical interventions #and that most things in life don’t go according to our plan #including birth plans *shocking* #but just random people texting me asking me all these questions while im grappling with all these things #is such a huge stressor rn #wish mamas in their last couple weeks of pregnancy can just go into hibernation mode lmao

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so tired of thinking, of weighing pros and cons, of the advices thrown at me back and forth, of trying to make things happen that are not within my control. today I recall the line “He watches over me in such a way that not a hair can fall from my head without the will of my Heavenly Father in heaven” and what a great comfort that is! none of it is in my control, it is all in His. and in this reality I can let go and breathe.