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just so you guys know i never stop thinking about him: behold the playlist additions

#you already know #i didnt prepare for him to attack me as if there's not always at least a couple that do idk- #i have overall mixed feelings about this album i think if i took half of t.tpd and half the anthology it would be ideal #but here you go your ?? few monthly dose of peter brainrot #having a time! once again i am on @bravevolunteer and sometimes @ahsterism for the most part! #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc

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..... hey guys i'm alive by the way just still on @bravevolunteer

#looking at my blogs (procrastinating) and seeing THREE MONTHS AGO— #without a word. my bad. #this is not going to change anytime soon i am like ill with brainrot (/pos) and also in the hell times SO #just. letting you guys know im not dead DJHFGHSJ #as always peter my beloved <3 #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc #THE WAY I STILL HAVE TH E PRIDE ICON oops

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@publicabsent asked: gives peter a red velvet cupcake w blue frosting. happy birthday buddy // happy birthday peter

"OH, thank you!" Peter accepts it happily, smiling more the moment he notices the themed colors. "This looks really good, did you make it? And, uh— I like the colors! Obviously," He laughs, not exactly keeping it subtle.

#!!!! #🕸 ❝ oh i’m gonna mess this up oh this is just my luck ❞ → in character #publicabsent #🕸 ❝ another one bites the dust ❞ → answered

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@deathsbecome asked: She doesn't actually say anything when Peter gets back to the apartment, but on the counter is a cupcake from a nearby bakery with a candle in it, and a gift bag. In it is a t shirt with a familiar 'if you believe in telekinesis raise my right hand'. She just had a feeling it was his sense of humor, and she found the irony of her giving it to him funny, even if he isn't supposed to know why she'd find it funny. // happy birthday peter

IN ALL HONESTY, Peter wasn't thinking much about his birthday— half of the time he doesn't even remember what day of the week it is, and though it was on his mind as it grew closer... realization didn't exactly hit him until he glanced at the date. Less inclined to admit that he's been pushing it out of his mind on purpose, his tendency to be all over the place is a good enough excuse as is. He left for an early patrol that morning, spending hours helping whoever he could find, and rushing to work that afternoon to edit his newest batch of photographs for Jameson's website ( who, thankfully, he didn't have to deal with much ).

Returning to the apartment, he's restless. He thinks about throwing the suit on again, spending the rest of the day swinging as far as he could around the city. But... it's still summer ( fall semesters around the corner ) and a part of him wants to visit the cafe... another thinks about May ( knowing she would want him to find a way to celebrate doesn't make it feel any less wrong ), the rest knows that stopping to think about anything... he can't.

Too distracted when he walks in, he only catches what's on the counter after he shrugs his backpack off, pulled from his thoughts. He doesn't know where Addy is, but she must have left it there while he was gone. He's smiling, bright and real ( the first today ), and decides to leave the cupcake, hoping to light the candle when she's back. Focus turns to the gift bag, pulling out the t-shirt that he doesn't even have to read to recognize. Oh. Peter lost a lot in the transition between everything, sometimes the little things were the strongest reminders. He laughs as he unfolds it, one that shifts into an exhale, half elated and half nostalgic. She couldn't have known, not the way he does, but it's bittersweet all the same.

"Thanks Addy," He says quietly to himself, for the reminder that he hasn't lost everything. Peter figures he can throw it on now, say it to her later, and make some kind of small celebration of the night— they can have that much at least.

#i'm so normal i'm so normal i'm so n #🕸 ❝ oh i’m gonna mess this up oh this is just my luck ❞ → in character #deathsbecome #🕸 ❝ another one bites the dust ❞ → answered

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... good fucking god in my absence the dash update hit this blog

#i was on mobile for that other post help- #it hasn't hit michael's KNOCK ON FUCKING WOOD i'm not Used To It get me out of here #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc

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PETER PARKER + unmasked

#it’s his birthday you have to be nice to him #🕸 ❝ i tried carrying the weight of the world but i only have two hands ❞ → visage

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BURSTING DOWN THE DOOR HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY PETER PARKER MY BELOVED LITTLE GUY !!!!

#i can’t believe it didn’t occur to me sooner but in my defense i was so distracted by multiple things #hi i’m not dead just on my other blog😭😭i do not control the fixation #but !!! peter day peter day peter day #shaking him around #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc

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idk if this is even on my dash here but

#i could make multiple different cases so i WILL put out the poll here 👀 #been off my hinges over so many god damn songs and peter enough . you all know that #feel free to reply and tell me why also LMAO #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc

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peter

#peter vc: THEYRE ONLY TRAINING AND THEY STILL DO ALL THAT? #what are they gonna do when they're done.... #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc #this is all i have for you my bad

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peter is feeling particularly targeted by last kiss that is all

#so 😭 i'll 😭 watch 😭 your life 😭 in pictures 😭 like i used to 😭 watch you sleep 😭 #and i 😭 feel you 😭 forget me 😭 like i 😭 used to 😭 feel you breathe 😭 #im having such a normal one tonight dont even worry about it #dont even WORRY ABOUT IT #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc

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tiktok editors are the only motherfuckers who GET ME

#what did i say. what did i SAY. #oh i am sick i am ILL #… unfortunately this is all ur getting from me but JSKDBD #my vision…it’s real #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc

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i've made some real big mistakes but you make the worst ones look FINE i should've known it was strange, you only come out at night i used to think i was SMART but you made me look SO NAIVE the way you SOLD ME FOR PARTS as you SUNK YOUR TEETH INTO ME

#so uh. speaking of ffh-iversary! #🕸 ❝ he is kind because he knows firsthand that life isn’t ❞ → musings #🕸 ❝ you opened a door that a kid shouldn’t walk through // ignorant trauma in one afternoon ❞ → quentin beck #🕸 ❝ i’d fall to pieces on the floor if you weren’t around ❞ → peter & cam #..... #🕸 ❝ but i would hit him in a heartbeat now // that’s the thing with anger ❞ → norman osborn #DONT LIKE THAT. #he needs to stop attaching to Sections of lyrics of songs that i cant justify putting in a playlist actually

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oh my fucking god it’s been four years since ffh…

#WHAT. WHAT….: #spider-man updates acc reminded me i’m so . :shinjipose: #truly my peak in terms of writing on peter actually JDKDHDK #actually one of my favorite eras here JUST bc of all the dynamics and friendships i feel like i was gaining there augh <33 #trainiversary!!! #who wants to manipulate him again! woohoo! DJSKDHKDHF #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc

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LIVING FOR THE THRILL OF HITTING YOU WHERE IT HURTS. // GIVE ME BACK MY BOYHOOD, IT WAS MINE FIRST. ( do not reblog )

#🕸 ❝ do i get a sticker for trying? ❞ → my edits #HI. SHOT PARALLELS A DERANGED PERSON WOULD NOTICE #staring down at the person who has just done so much damage to your trust and kindness . winning the battle yes but #still with this overwhelming sense of loss and betrayal. i'm so normal i'm literally fine #things to write about. the parallels and conflicting/similar feelings peter has on both quentin and norman . it's interesting #when the green flying theater kids do him the most damage smh KHFDGVBDF

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in an abrupt change of tone would’ve could’ve should’ve is such a ffh/peter & quentin song

#OBVIOUSLY taking out the romantic intentions no bullshit allowed #JUST… GOD. GOD. #‘they knew each other for like two days’ AND IT STILL FUCKED HIM UP SO BADLY. SORRY. #peter when he hands his trust to someone who supports him at a time when he’s lost and grieving #and dealing with trauma that he doesn’t know how to handle and it sets off a chain of events that RUINS HIS ENTIRE LIFE. #i regret u all the time 😞 #thinking about how he just played into every single one of peter’s insecurities and issues… the repeated #building him up and breaking him down to get him in that perfect mindset to fall for the illusion #WHY WOULD U DO THAT TO HIM !!! #in hindsight ffh might be my least favorite of the trilogy but god… this fucks me up. it continues to fuck me up #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc

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who’s gonna kiss peter… how’s he gonna get a little kiss kiss

#the unforseen consequences of making his main verse one where he has lost everything… he’s LONELY #maybe even h*ld his h*nd idk #i don’t do calls for this so this is not that but. you know SKSHDKD #i am trying so hard to get out of bed and i cannot but… it’s what he deserves #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc

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you lost your blood too? maybe we should search for it together.

"YEAH, good idea, we can put up missing posters and everything—" He passes out immediately.

#sorry . lost too much blood . his fault FDHGDBH #🕸 ❝ oh i’m gonna mess this up oh this is just my luck ❞ → in character #h0b1e #🕸 ❝ another one bites the dust ❞ → answered